World full of colors

The ever changing face of beauty is shifting a bit more these days. No longer is tall, leggy, busty, and blonde the end all of beauty. Heck the country is even recognizing we aren't so much just black and white anymore. Often we seem to go through phases and it seems a new shift has come. So now beauty is becoming more and more brown. Black Latina Indian Middle Eastern more and more women of color are becoming even more desirable with each passing day. Personally I love watching this change. The Girls Next Door were fun and all, but give me that hottie across the street anyday haha

Way to be Merry

Nothing says happy holiday like cream flavored/infused booze. Good times with family leading to good times with friends. Let the bubbly flow & the good times will keep rolling on.

HO HO Holiday

Though not the best holiday season I've enjoyed, each day is a gift and that's the only thing that I should focus on. Take life day by day and only then will you truly appreciate the moments. That's what each and every life breaks down to, the moments. I'm not talking moments that take our breath away or moments that shall forever stay memorable. No, I'm speaking of those in between times we so often take for granted. Not every moment in life can be an epic one, but don't thumb your nose at the in betweens. In between moments are necessary to make the special epic and even to make the horrible ones not seem continuous. So I cherish my in betweens for they are what gives me perspective.

Moving On

We all have memories we wish we could change, but that's life's cruelest joke. Why give us memories we wish hadn't been when that's all those moments can ever be....memories! That's right keep your past in the past. So what things didn't go your way at that particular moment. It happens to the best of us. The trick is to move on and learn and grow from those past mistakes. Bad relationship? Ok then date someone different then your ex next time. Gave up to soon on yourself? That's a shame, have faith that next time it will work out for the best. This is very important to remember. Never doubt yourself or your abilities. You may be very impressed to find out just how awesome you truly are.
Though it's an over expressed cliche its almost impossible to lead a regret freer existence. Regret is going to happen, unless you are a heartless bastard then you are so wrapped up in yourself Regret would never have the opportunity to creep in. For the rest of us though the trick is not to avoid regret it's to not let those past regrets ruin your present day to day. We all have had missed opportunities or bad experiences with so called love ones. The thing is if we focus to much on what could have been we will miss out on the what's to come. New experience is around every corner so don't avoid the corners in life constantly looking behind yourself.

Company emotions

So companies are openly making social decisions now? Chic-fil-A has been exposed for being against same sex couples. Now while I can appreciate so many of you being up in arms over this explain this to me....the company having that stance means what exactly? The CEO feels this way, the board of directors, or am I to believe each occupant of every chicken shack the company runs feels the same way. If that's the case BOYCOTT if you must, but seeing as that's unlikely let's not cost our brothers and sisters in the blue collar trades their jobs in order to prove a point to a CEO or Governing body who, like most corporations, couldn't care less for what you and I feel. This is America and sadly this America is home to corporate giants who treat us like sheep.


- Dustin B

Location:Home

WWJE part 1

Things are hectic these days. People the world over have flocked to this little diner in Bethlehem, Pennsylvania for the answer to the universal religious question WHAT WOULD JESUS EAT (WWJE..llo).
The second coming was nothing like the scriptures foretold, in fact it wouldn't have happened at all if this new wave a celebrity chefs and cheftestants using his name in vein. No not the Goddamns or the Jesus Christs when being cut (either physically or ejected from competition). In fact HE could care less about our so called curses, he finds them funny really. No, the issue he had was everyone praising this or that about their food their cuisine their pallets. You've seen the shirts "So good even Jesus would bow down" "Recipes only the Lord could've made, until now" "good food blesses the world, Duck what ya heard".
These sayings and slogans these ideals of superiority they rang loud on high and brought on great disgust from all the angels the apostles and the big man himself. These people all had to stop and it was obvious only the holy one can do it.
Jesus would return to put a stop to these acts of insanity by all of food reality society. Yes we all knew reality television would be the destruction of us all and here it is. From the holy beyond the Lord made his epic return and brought with him the truest contest the world has ever seen. For all those so called Holy Cooks the challenge has been made. To save humanity you must impress the Holy one and if we fail the end shall come. So ladies and gentleman let the games begin, brought to you by the one and only church with your host Ryan Seacrest (well Kirk Cameron was invited but frankly Jesus found him abrasive).

How it goes

Life is taking me away from my passions as reality is setting in that passions are moving into the distant past and dreams are becoming blurry memories.
Still I shall dream on because I am a glutton for punishment.

Corporation USA

You can't take a step without the country's commercialism being thrust upon you. It's beyond crazy this what the nation has come to. A nation that began by violently taking its freedom now finds itself under control of businesses it brought to life. The money making machine makes the laws and legislation that feeds it's growth and has reached the point there is nothing the "little guy" can say or do to right the ship.
But still we try...
We must never give in or else what limited freedoms we have left. You know before they take the remainder for the greater good of the almighty dollar. So fight damn you fight, stand up and make yourself heard. We deserve the same opportunity for growth the so called "people's government" have given the corporations and their leaders for generations. It's time for "For the people By the people" to mean something again.

The open world of thee

Save the date
Remember the time
These words will resonate through time. All history may seem like a mystery, but only because you refused to recognize the rhythm you know life's ebbs flows all set to a rhyme.
The ups the downs they call out for meaning though no one understands why they need meaning. Why can't we let things be, somethings should remain unexplained, let rhyme and reason give way to time and apathy.
What does this all mean? Nothing and that's the point simply typing to stretch my fingers. So sorry you bothered to read these silly words that I wrote.

Break room BS

Today tomorrow & anywhere in between, nothing you say or do changes the day to day existence of those around you. Most things worth saying are rarely said whereas things to keep to yourselves are often spoken aloud. It's just a fact of life that the worst things possible rarely happen but the next to worse always happen. Life is full of surprises yet it often repeats itself so how are we always surprised? Just a little food for thought I suppose.

Work thoughts

Figured it's time to try out my work rants from my new location. Winco has been just fine to me, lots of memories of fun deli days of yore. One big memory floods to my brain though. I really don't want to do this for life. Nothing against those who do, but even still this just isn't for me in any kind of long term way. That being said, where do I go from here?

Blogger fail

Damn app for iPad has crashed. Am now subjected to an app designed for iPhone meaning crappy service for iPad user. Need to find something better or my posts will become shorter and shorter with no interesting pics or lengthy posts so so sad right now

So it is

Enjoying this new OS for my iPad. Another success feather in the cap of Apple. It seems crazy how far tech has advanced in a decade ya know. Well as a junky of all things new I must say I'm pleased with where we are at and I'm anxiously waiting to see where we will go next. Back to the moon? Naw that's too boring for modern man!

Speaking Freely

So what can be said? Speaking my mind comes naturally, but never out loud. I speak through my fingers as I type what I feel. I express using the written word in my texts that's how I keep it really REAL. Life is never easy but bottled up emotions keep things hard. Express for self expression do what you must to let them all see who you are. So always stay true and never forget to speak. With vocals With words In writing In song let your story ring out. Let everyone around get a chance to know who you really are. May they never miss out on the awesome uniqueness that is YOU.

Power On

The weight of the world on his shoulders, the struggle never quits. He keeps us steady upright and proper all the while no thanks given no praise bestowed. Why does he do it? No one truly knows, most in his situation would drop the giant ball that is this existence. Why do we pile on, adding more to this poor man's burden? Cuz we are evil bastards that's why.

Ready for the next challenge to move to grow. Work has begun and I can't wait to get into the full swing of things. Have a family to take care of and I refuse to drop the ball. If I prove myself and make real nice I can try and move up through the ranks. Who knows I maybe dragged back out to Vegas when they open the new store in 2012 but that's a distant idea for now. With that said on to DAY 2 and a much better tomorrow.

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The circle seems to be closing

It May seem a bit crazy for me to say,  but a lot of people seem to be dropping lately. I mean yes I know people are born and die everyday, but I'm just seeing a wave a death hitting us. Everywhere I turn another death is being reported. Another life lost. Another mind vanquished. Yes it's all part of the grand plan, but what if the plan isn't all that it seems? We shall never know what is truly intended for us. Hell, it doesn't say anywhere that end the end we will even find out what we were meant to do. Frankly we just may never know. 
Honestly death isn't what frightens me at night, its the never knowing what could have been. Now we all fear the unknown, but this bit of unknown goes on unspoken. Think about all the millions of directions your life could have taken. Everyday is filled with choices that shape and change our existence. So ever wonder what might have been had a few just a few different choices had been made. Think about this, as few as 4 difference choices made by an individual can radically shape how said person would end up. So I'm saying One or Two early choices may be the deciding factor of whether you will be Rich or Poor and also help shape whether you die at 50 or 90. Life is all about choices, so I ask you are you happy with the choices you have made?

Football on the brain

Due to the untimely demise of Mr. Al Davis I'm thinking of all the weirdness that has transpired thus far in the NFL. For me being an Eagles fan this first quarter of the football year has been especially hard. 1 - 3 with the talent on the team is just completely unacceptable. Last in the East and looking up at Washington YES Washington in first in the division. This is going to be one weird ass year.
Another intriguing story are the teams from my beloved SF Bay Area. The surprising 49ers (3-1) and the never say die Raiders (2-2). Both showing a lot more potential then most believed at the start of the season. Heck I'll admit I had the 9ers dead in the water before the first kick off. Shocking to ke is they are one OT loss away from being 4-0 along with the defending champ Packers and the finally Mighty Lions.


Speaking of the Lions this team has proven themselves to me and I hope come Monday Night facing Chicago the rest of the nation will be shown these aren't the Lions we've all gotten used to. These are the Lions who finally perform up to the level expected for years and years. This talented group should have been winning for awhile now, but finally everything is coming not sync.
The fun thing on the year to me is seeing a defending Superbowl champion actually performing like a champion. The team crowned the best of the last year has returned and have continued to show they are the best.
The ultimate thing that comes to mind while watching the season thus far is this, "When Peyton is in, what exactly does the offensive coordinator do?". This year the Peyton-less Colts are showing just how important he is, because without him they are looking like one of the worst in the league. So that being said it makes you wonder why the offensive coordinator had a job when Peyton was healthy. Talk about the easiest job in the league.
Anyway can't wait until Sunday to see how some of these story lines work out for the weeks ahead.
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Jobs 1955-2011

You shall never be forgotten...


Today we have lost a great innovator a modern marvel of technology AND marketing. Apple went from being the company Gates betrayed and was ready to kill to the company behind some of the best tech in history. The letter i has an entire new meaning thanks to Steve Jobs. iPhone iPad iPod iOS are the leaders in our modern day activities and though it took a large team to create it took 1 mind to envision. Thank you Steve for all you have brought to the world and we hope you have found peace amongst the greats. Your vision lives on and with every swipe of a finger to a screen your Legend will live on.

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Back at it in the morning. Excited to finally be earning again, but nervous of what's to come. Not sure what to expect and have no clue as to the people I will meet. It's been awhile since my last grocery store crew and I can only hope this new batch of people will be as interesting, fun and genuine as the last. Not too worried have always been blessed with majority awesome co workers just hope to keep up that trend. Come 8am I should hopefully find out all the good and the bad which is to come in this new position.
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Yelping like crazy now that there is more to explore

oh the things I do with my free time a swear

Recent reviews by Dustin B.

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Pettiness

We all have vices, things that infuriate us to our core, this is mine. Petty people petty acts just all around pettiness. It takes a small mind to do so many little petty annoying acts. Just thinking about it drives me crazy to the point I shake. Where is this thought process coming from you ask? It's really quite simple. It's Monday night therefore my wife had me watching the Bad Girls Club.... So much stupidity stuffed into one hour of television it is simply amazing. Why do these women EXIST?!?!?


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What's old is new again

Love me some rock music. Fortunately two of my favorite bands released new albums this year.


Yes that right I ran out and bought Blink today and I must say I'm happy I did. Finally my truck is filled with sounds other then Foo Fighters or Eminem. I buy music rarely, but when I do invest I believe I make solid decisions as what would be worth listening to. What makes me sad is my change of taste these days.


Blink isn't the only former favorite to release new material, but my former faves brought forth material that, though honest to their original sound, I just didn't feel myself getting into. This being the fact has made me question has my taste completely changed with age. I used to live and die musically based on a handful of artists: Staind, ICP, Eminem, and a collage of works from the Offspring, Green Day, Chili Peppers, and Foo. Now looking at my traveling CDs (yes I said CDs! I refuse to fold to Steve Jobs and his world dominating devices of control! Written on my iPad) I only bring along things done by Foo Fighters, Eminem and now Blink. Staind and AFI formerly my favorite artists don't even come close to making the cut for non radio listening, oddly enough AFI fueled electronica group BlaqAudio makes the cute when I feel like dancing though. (side note: by dance I mean slide my butt back and forth in my seat. Ya know like a dog with a funky itch.) though I can still fake some Juggalo swagger I'm so far outside of the Psychopathic Family it's mind-blowing to ever think I was one of them.
I guess what it all breaks down to is, 30 is as farm from 20 as humanly possible so it's only sensible for tastes to change. What I must recognize is those changes don't mean I'm in any way a different person they I ever was. I'm still the one and only D and the young D is still in me. Oh also recognizing things change with age this will be the last post where I ever make any mention of my quote unquote SWAGGER. Never again shall I type any form of Swagger or Swag. I'm far to mature to speak of the swagga as it's an ignorant word to begin with. As most have retired CRUNK from their vocabulary let me be the first to start the death of SWAGGER.
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Ghetto sunset

Ghetto sunset
Originally uploaded by Dustaquarius

Beauty is all around us. It's up to us to find it. In the back alley of the industrial area of Long Beach I found some beauty I wouldn't have bothered to notice before. Life is what we make it and this view reminds me of such

Under a week

New job, New location and the chance to make some new friends. Can't wait til my first day just to see what my time will hold. Have high hopes for the new tasks I have signed up for. I'm excited to get back to something I had fun doing before but I do still worry I may find it not as fun as my memories hold. Oh well no matter how hard the work I just look forward to the chance to get back to earning my way through life. Of course if between now and then I come into a windfall of money I won't be mad at it.

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Bad medicine

Talking with my wife got me thinking. I understand the medical system is flawed due to greed and/or stupidity, but how is it the FDA approves drugs to hit the market that side effects are worse then the problems they are trying to solve.


I mean really think about it. The other day, while watching commercials, I realized how bad some of these side effects could really be. Now we all know the ridiculousness of depression medicines giving you suicidal thoughts, thus defeating the purpose. That being said, have you heard of the medicines for digestion giving you diarrhea and/or constipation? I don't know about you but that sounds like you still have digestion issues. The newest one I heard yesterday was a drug used to assist the depression medicine you are already using, ya know just in case you still feel depressed. So this drug has common side effects like dry mouth, headaches, sore throat stuff, but the last two side effects named kind of blew my mind. This drug, that is supposed to cover up for the fact your other drug isn't working, has side effects including HIGH BLOOD SUGAR and LOW WHITE BLOOD CELL COUNT. Think about that for a second, they are asking you to take a medicine that's side effects are equal to symptoms you get from having Diabetes and AIDS. I don't know about you, but those side effects alone would cause my depression to worsen for sure.
So I ask anyone out there reading this, why do we allow our doctors to prescribe us things that will force us to return to them for another prescription and more money out of our pockets? This shit is getting ridiculous. I for one am tired of taking a drug for my lifelong high blood pressure that could possibly cause me kidney failure if I don't go to the doctor every six month to make sure I'm not killing myself. It's an outright crazy situation. Hell, my diabetes medicine can lead to extremely LOW blood sugar. Yeah that's right to cure my Diabetes they are willing to give me anemia. Yeah I'll either die of a STROKE if I don't take them or I slip into a COMA if I do. I'm sick of this system and I hope some real change will come in my lifetime so we all could lead happier healthier and wealthier lives.
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Words

Feeling sketchy...



Uneasy and unaware. My surroundings out of focus. Life as good as it ever can or will be. And if it's all the same to you my time for change has come and gone. So ready for the new to begin again, you know what they say, when one door closes a window gets a brick through it letting opportunity in. So my friends I ask you who are your bricks. Who helps shine the light on the bigger and better things in your lives? Yeah that's what I thought, you've allowed me to be that brick. I take the task seriously so please allow me to break the glass and let some light shine through!

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NSFW

Yes it's true my thoughts are not always meant for a work type environment, and as I'm heading back into the working world soon I thought it'd be best if maybe I get all these NSFW thoughts out now.

NEVER SLAP FRUMPY WOMEN
NOW
NEXT STOP FROWN WRINKLES
NATURE SIMPLY FOLLOWS WRECKAGE

I seriously have no idea what any of that means but I'm sure if I went around my new job spouting off these sayings for all to hear my job would probably be short lived haha.

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The year ahead...AFC Edition

Week one has come to a close and some very surprising events have happened. My NFC picks largely remain the same, but the AFC in my eyes has been turned around.

AFC East
Bills- now they won their first game thoroughly against the chiefs, but my view hasn't changed as the chiefs are far from impressive. Bills will end up where they always do at the bottom of the division.

Jets- Rex wants to will them to first but sadly the arch rivals in New England won't let that happen. 2nd in the division

Dolphins- good year ahead but as they already know good isn't much in a division like this. Greatness gets you first good rings in third

Patriots- return to GREATNESS garners them a solid first in the division.

AFC South
Texans- finally this team is geared to live up to their potential for the first time. Thanks to the upcoming absence of Peyton Manning from Indy the Texans even giving their normal mediocre efforts are a shoe in for first in this dismantled division. They have the talent to dominate it's finally time for them to live up to their hype.

Colts- no Manning sadly means no chance. Yes one player in normal circumstances does not make a team, but Peyton IS the offense and without him the endzone will seem like a faint memory.

Jaguars- cutting your starting QB a week before your opening game is sure signs of a rebuilding season. It will be interesting to see what can and will be built. Bottom of the division seems to be the destiny.

Titans- Chris got his money now if only yards produced would lead to victories. Either way due to the colts downfall the door has been opened and this team is primed to go through it. 2nd in the division looks to be their final resting place.

AFC North
Bengals- last in the division is the only thing they will be fighting for. Maybe then next years draft can help them get the missing piece to a brighter future.

Browns- though they have long resided in the gutter this is their year to improve and prove they are worth a look. They will challenge any team they face, but sadly the top two teams in this division will still keep them down for now. This year they will prove themselves worth fearing, but it will be next year where they can make a move out of third.

Ravens- though it will be a tight battle as usual this year they will top Pittsburgh and not only win the division they will challenge for the conference.

Steelers- hey 2nd in this division still gets you a trip to the playoffs where Big Ben has always shined.

AFC West
Chargers- playoff tested team, all star QB and time tested coach. The only team in the division that can say that. Surprisingly this fact will get them second to the unlikeliest team.

Chiefs- sharp drop in skill means sharp decline in wins. Look for them to visit the cellar once again as they have for so many years before

Broncos- new coach same mistakes. QB issues will never rest until the organization gets on the same page for consecutive days for the first time in seasons. Good talent goes to waste here they will be in a fight with KC for dead last.

Raiders- talent and determination will finally lead to success for a storied franchise who haven't won since the beginning of the previous decade. The less we here from Al the more successful the team becomes. Maybe just maybe the old timer will allow the team to win without his presence stinking up the joint. First in the division as long as management doesn't interfere with what's actually working.





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The nomad lives on

So I have now added the 562 to my list of lived area codes. this list seems to forever be expanding. Every few years I seem to find a new place to call home. I dream of settling, but a place to truly settle never comes. Why is that? Is it me or is it my locations? Am I just never satisfied in one place or do these places simply grow tired of me? I can never truly know. The people I encounter insure me I have made a difference in their lives. Frankly that is the ultimate goal of life, in my opinion, to reach out and positively affect as many lives possible. What better way to measure a life then in smiles and love? So though I'm forever passing through while I'm in that space it's best to be the best me I can be. So with that idea the best me I can be should breed nothing more then positivity correct?
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it begins..the year as I see it

Week 1 has begun.





Sunday is upon us and the 2011 season has begun. We all endured a lockout and this season being up in the air. All that is the past the season has begun the first game was a wild one too bad the Saints were unable to run (last play of the game on the 1 yard line. Your team is a passing team, but instead of doing what you do best a run straight up the middle is called. Of course it failed it was doomed from the beginning). Now my attention turns to my beloved Eagles as overhyped as they may be. The Rams aren't much of a challenge, but anything can happen in the NFL.
Eagles have the eyes of the world on them thanks to a crazy productive shortened offseason. Well the season is on and my team better be as well. Only time will tell, but I can't wait to find out for sure. So cheers to a good season and I certainly hope a successful Eagles' campaign.
Now for the fun...

The year as seen by D!
NFC addition

NFC NORTH:
Vikings- though I Love Mcnabb this is the beginning of the ugly Viking end, honestly last year was but the woes will continue. I say now they will be last in the NFC North.

Bears- not sure on this one. It's not a bad team, but don't see them dominating as much as they used to. I'm guessing 8-8 plus or minus one game.

Lions- lots of big talk surrounding this team, but it's a little hard to digest. To get the Lions back to playoff form will take not just putting a good team on the field, but it will also take changing the entire culture of losing the team has established for so long. That being said this will be their year to do so. Think it's impossible? Well tell that to the Sean Payton era Saints!

Packers- yes they are the defending champs and it helps they won the opening game of the season, but let's be real. It's incredibly hard for a champ to repeat and though they won it was an ugly game with no defense shown which could have been easily won by the the Saints had they called the right play at the end. I'm saying 2nd in the division under the Lions.

NFC SOUTH:
Buccaneers- like the team and they are really good, but sadly they are in one tight division where it can be anyone's to win. Don't know but don't think this will be the year 2nd in the division and two games outside of the playoffs

Panthers- ok know how I said it's anyone's division to win? Yeah, I wasn't speaking of this crew of ragamuffins. Cam's first season will be a success but sadly rookie QBs get you last in this division.

Falcons- it's theirs to lose in my eyes. Yes the Bucs and Saints are both good but the Falcons will rule the south this season.

Saints- the first game showed me one thing. They will put up some amazing offensive stats this year, but the defense will lead them straight to third in the division.

NFC EAST:
Eagles- I've said it all in my above post. Not only will they take the division they will be in the fight to take the conference in the end.

Giants- one manning down leaves all eyes on little bro. Yes he has a ring but the spotlight burns.. Third in the east.

Redskins- why are they even bothering. Yes I may be bias as I'm a McNabb guy through and through, but Shanahan & son are going to run an already bad team even lower. What is this Major League? Are the redskins going to be headed LA way if they keep producing crap seasons?

Cowboys- I hate them I HATE them I HATE THEM!!! That being said last year was a fluke and this year they will return to the playoffs once again and a solid 2nd n the division.

NFC WEST:
Rams, Seahawks, Cardinals- this division doesn't matter, but this should be the year that anyone can return to the promised land especially since 7-9 can take the division. I'm seeing a three way tie for crapiness here so it's really a coin toss. Maybe all the promise of Kolb greatness may give the Cards the edge, but as I was never a follower of the Kolb I'm kind of doubting that.

49ers- they aren't even going to try this year. Harbaugh wants his college star and if you honestly think they planned on winning this year explain More ALEX SMITH. I mean really, haven't we all abandoned that ship yet?




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Art as life

Let's talk about art shall we? Frankly what is art? Honestly no one knows. I personally dig street art, graffiti, and other creative acts. Problem is I'm goody two shoes enough to recognize the problems with vandalizing someone else's property. Think about it, no matter how cool something looks the person that painted, tagged, etched or demolished it into existence would probably be pissed if you came along and done the same thing to the largest wall of their house. Also Art is difficult because good looking things are deemed art, but what of the ugly. By definition all examples of self impression should be deemed art, however we as individuals have an inherent ability to dismiss anything we don't perceive as beautiful or things we don't understand. Every picture every five year old ever made should share the same walls of national museums along side Pollock or Van Gough, but that will never happen.




So I ask you, what is art and do you honestly like it?

High School drama

Remember the days. First day of freshman year. Four years of possibility laid out in front of you. You walk through the halls unsure unaware if you'd find acceptance or be relegated to the outskirts the outside looking in at all the kids who you had wished you would become.


Walking from your home room to algebra you saw something very intriguing in the hall. It was your ultimate fear placed on poster board the BACK to SCHOOL dance was fast approaching. Every one in school would be attending and you couldn't afford to miss it, but should you actually brave the crowd and go? First High School dance the ultimate fork in the road of our early teens. That dance can lead to utter humiliation ultimate elation or there is always the third option. A humdrum night which means you may just live the under the radar life for the following four years. I sadly had the third, which is neither bad nor good it is what it is.
1995 freshman year De La Salle high school. Me and a jr high friend attend the dance together which I still don't understand why I mean I guess she was being my pity date, but how is it pity if I didn't even like her like that? Anyway we arrive separately take like 1 picture she goes off with her girls I go off with my homies and I don't remember us spending another moment together for the rest of the night. The only thing I remember positive about the night is one of the cooler guys from my class was so jealous I was going with her. He thought she was hot so in his eyes I was the man, which is a feeling I've never had before and I must say I enjoyed it. So I must say thanks to Katy for giving that one brief moment of coolness, trust me it was never felt again in the next four years. Who knows if I had stayed in DLS I might have achieved that level of greatness again but my evil parental units snatched me away after one year and shipped me off to craptastic Bishop O'Dowd (not a bad school, but anytime you enter a new school sophomore year and not knowing a single soul you are destined to have horrible memories of the place).
Now O'Dowd may have been better remembered if I had been better at reading women. Not knowing a soul I had a very cute classmate basically begging me to attend the very same start of the year dance I had no problem attending my freshman year, but this was a new school with new kids and I was so far on the outside and completely oblivious to the fact the girl obviously liked me I just didn't bother to go. Of course this blew my shot at an early high school relationship (which are so key to dating life survival) and somewhat tainted the only friendship I had formed at the moment. Let's just say the remaining three years becoming a blur of blown opportunities and other random anomalies. So ya see kids that first dance can set up so much more then learning how to cope in the crowd, it really is important to prepare you for the years ahead. Trust Frosh & Soph years are so important to establish early successes or you will be in for a world full of pain.
After relieving these memories I can only say one thing.
THANK GOD I'M 30!

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Make it happen

Keep it moving
Get it going
Watch what happens next
Keep it moving
Get it going
This is proving to be one hell of a test
Keep it moving
Get it going
Just let me prove I can do my best
Keep it moving
Get it going
We WILL definitely ace this test.

Just keep going

Life as I know it has stayed unchanged. People all around me still look at me strange. Unclear Unsure Unaware yet still knowing with a helping hand we will soon to be glowing. Life has drawn me away from my more creative self while looking for a living my other life of words and creativity must be placed on the shelf. Is this how the local executives loose their sense of self. Putting away the imagination so they could find a home that fits them best. When creativity is shelved what remains is utter crap. The leftover brings us 80s movie remakes and white girls who are convinced they can rap. This is an epidemic and I'm on ground zero so I guess I'll have to continue writing so I can become the imaginations' Hero!


- a look inside the mind of D -

Sky's the Limit

Cloudy days give way to sunshine tomorrow...


As longs as I think act and speak freely my life will be all it was meant to be. No more No less even with minimal effort. Now with troubles all over the planet crashing down upon us maybe it's time to find our higher purpose.
So how does one find their calling? It's simply really, figure out what excites you, fascinates you, or makes you think laugh or smile. Once that's discovered the trick is how to turn that passion into your cash cow. This sadly I have no idea on how to do. Wish I did but sadly I have no clue.

Not So Hidden Power

Let's talk about women for a change (inside joke for all, what, three of my loyal readers). Women are an amazing creation from the power on high. The world was formed man arrived and the picture was not quite complete. Man was running and jumping with the creatures of the land, and swimming and splashing with the fish in the sea. The creator looked upon this and said, "my favorite creation needs a counterpart so he can create more of himself". So he formed another more attractive a little wiser and far more sensitive version of man. Upon looking at this new being man said, "Father in the sky this is great and all, but I was enjoying my alone time. The creatures of the land never question me like she does and the fish of the seas listen to me with no question. This new WOman as you told me to call her seems to just tell me what I should be doing and frankly I'm tired of hearing her voice. Is there anything you can do for me oh lord? Upon hearing this the creator decided to make a few tweaks. Though woman was beautiful and wise he would make her always question her looks and never truly grasp her knowledge. Upon hearing his plans woman said "oh lord why am I being punished? It's not my fault that I was created second and thus an improvement on the original. Why must I change to make him happy?". The Creator simply smiled and let woman on a little secret. Without saying a word woman simply knew what the smile was about.
Though due to man's wishes she was losing the ultimate sense of self she knew she was gaining other bonuses. The creator had given her knowledge of other things that man would never understand. She would have a weeklong time every month where, though she would have to endure a most annoying fact of female nature, she could get all her underlying frustration out on man for all his works. It's the first of her newly appointed powers which would be simply spoken by uttering three frightening letters. The second power was so obvious it was amazing she hadn't thought of it before. It's as evident as the nose on the ant eaters face or fat on a hippos belly. With this new gift she would be able to mesmerize man to the point he would forever know not what he do. Flaunting these blessing will get her the better fruit, get her the nicer horse, and have her lavished in the shiniest stones the garden had to offer. Yes woman had discovered the greatest gift bestowed to her......BREASTS......


They come in man different shapes and sizes. They are the ultimate weapon to have been deployed in the battle of the sexes. Large or Small they are a straight attention grabber. Men and Boys alike are all mesmerized when in their presence. It doesn't matter who you are, you must appreciate all that they stand for. They are an essential part of the life giving duties of woman, but they can also be used for pure entertainment and of course for sexual satisfaction. They are great for all the senses. They FEEL great, they LOOK amazing, they TASTE yummy, and when the right fragrance is applied they can SMELL wonderful.


Yes they truly are a marvelous creation and though we all love them we know they are tools designed to calm and control us. They lure us in. We sad innocent men of desire. They make us nothing more then weak excuses of our true selves because we are cursed to be forever blinded by our desires no matter how hard we try and fight them. Oh how we try to fight, but who are we kidding they are simply too strong for us.


So why fight it. At this point let us tip our hats and admit defeat in hopes of receiving them as a pleasant treat. Women come Women go each time they take a piece of our souls. But in the end it's all been worth it as we are on the hunt for the pair that are perfect. Be them irregular Natural or Fake, they leave us all trembling in their wake. We want more time with each one we've met and they all know it, but that hasn't stopped us yet from trying to find another and another they are lovely gorgeous and sexy well all but our mothers. They are for more then our early life meals they are what helped us to understand true beauty is real.


So praise to the boobs the hooters the racks, the bongos the melons the dainty tit traps that fall into cuddle suckle and hold. Shit we'd love to visit them all if we could be so bold. This may sound wrong raunchy or indecent heck you may even think me to be some lonely prepubescent, but the truth of the matter is I'm accepting of the world's oldest truth... Life with no women would be NO life worth living and that is the gods honest truth.
- a look inside the mind of D -

How do we get anything done?

Reading a yahoo article on yet another candidate for presidency, listening to all the rhetoric, seeing how for CBN (Christian Broadcast Network) he changed his stance on abortion and Gay marriage (before he was let the states decide guy, now BAN them across the nation) it really hits me.... I love my country, but I hate what the governing bodies have done. What amazes me most is there is no further talk of civil war era type secession. Yes I know that's a bit extreme but I can't be the only way utterly disgusted by how ass backwards things have gotten thanks to our, rampant bipartisanship, our need to constantly put the other party in their place even if it means hurting the American public as a whole, and our complete lack of separation between church and state. "But D the church gives us our moral values by which we govern, so a true separation would be ludicrous", well I say BULLSHIT. Church though helpful to some, is not at the heart of what we should use to make our decisions by. What happened to common decency the ability to tell right from wrong, that wasn't implanted in us by a preacher. You know it's wrong to push an old lady in the street or to kick a young child in the face because it just IS. No one had to teach you that, no invisible deity had to explain to you that taking someone else's right to live is not in the best interest of society, no your humanity your decency your inner spirit and thought processes all guided you to that decision. You know what your church did teach you? How to hate, how to degrade, how to judge others and punish those that you are made uncomfortable by. All these lessons come to us from a supposed book of Love. I'm a long time scholar of religion and I find it amazing how many ways a group of people can read a sentence a book a passage of religious doctrine and take it in so many different ways. My absolute favorites are groups who by reading a book written centuries after the savior is gone can tell me that this same book is the direct words of that same savior. Also how the savior a man of understanding, love and peace wants them to deny groups, they personally see unfit, their rights to the same life the believers lead. Oh and the ultimate ass backward standard of our governing bodies religious ideal is the fact a direct passage from the savior states save the judgement for the father for it's not Mans place to make such judgement, but then these believers these followers these oh so Holy men and women turn around and make laws based on the judgements they where told it's not their place to make. A man and a man or a woman and a woman can't be married cuz God said so! Where in the hell does God say those words directly? Also if God has nothing to do with the matters of state why does your view on what God wants have anything to do with those men and this women's rights? I've grown tired of these arguments with no basis in common reality. I find myself frustrated with the way things work around me. Political figures that swear they will make changes do nothing more then make it to their appointed offices and fall right in line with the others. We need a change, no fuck that we need a freaking overhaul! We need people to care how the world is around them again. We need fire and passion to spew from the souls of our men and women in power. We need the almighty dollar and the holy bible to stop being what guides our political futures. The world needs Justice, Understanding, and most of all compassion for our fellow man. The planet is changing and it's not looking like for the better. In our remaining millennia or so of life on this planet I can only hope one day Utopias can and will be achieved. Peace and goodness for future generations is a lofty dream, but it's one we once had believed in. Now our largest goal is a stable economy and to avoid becoming property of China. This is a goal that is very achievable if we would stop focusing on party lines, stop listening to religious lies, and start doing what's right for the country as a whole not just for our individual selves.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Welcome Welcome

Good news came today so now surviving can be achieved. Now it's time for me to step up my game so things that are good can remain the same. The bad may change as soon as it's ready, but I have the sinking feeling the silly crap will remain steady. I am definitely enjoying my time though I need to step up my social game. Time to get up and out and take full advantage of my new surroundings. Anybody ready to visit and hit the beach?
Waves crashing, sand between the toes cool California breeze and now that the wifey is going to be working in HB (Huntington Beach) I figure while I search for a gig I could beach bum around Huntington for awhile. I mean what a great idea, a large black male bumming around an OC Beach; the locals would lavish me with love don't ya think?

a look inside the mind of D

Still going strong

20+ years and still going strong.


Been watching weekly, reading behind the scenes stories and each day is as strong as the last. It has been a lifelong passion a love for sports entertainment, and I refuse to be ashamed. Ok maybe a little, but hey what can I say, I just love the product. I remember the golden era of WWF wrestling. I remember being a little Hulk-a-maniac then a little warrior and finally a follower of King Macho Man. I remember the day I learned it was fake (went to a live show at the Oakland coliseum and saw Ravishing Rick Rude succumb to the punches of Jake the Snake though I could clearly see none had ever landed). I remember the days when the story lines where thought out, the company took time to establish stars and nothing was to big to attempt to pull off. Now the eighties product was corny, but the Nineties was the Golden Era and it simply broke down to one fact, Competition breeds excellence.
That being said the deaths of ECW and WCW, hell even the sorry product that was JCW, have in turned paved the way to the demise of the WWE. Right now the only hope for pro wrestlings future falls to the final two factions, the WWE and TNA, to right their ships and bring a better product to American television then they have thus far. Same stars across two different companies doing the same story lines has lost the interest of the average fan. Frankly I'm not an average fan so I shall endure, but it's sad to see so many of my comrades falling off. However sad it seems watching the fan base diminish I can honestly say I am not the least surprised.


Long gone are the glory days for the WWE, but there are gins that maybe just maybe a change is going to come. A new storyline involving new people in charge and new changes necessary changes are being alluded to. The return of the tag team, a hopeful reemergence of skilled Female wrestlers, and the opportunity for the old school to finally give way to the next generation wrestlers. Maybe just Maybe Cena will stop being the all or nothing superstar for the company. Maybe just maybe the people running the show can and will recognize there is some serious underused talents cluttering the locker room just dying to put on a great show. Love it or hate it that's what it's all about, all the blood sweat and tears just to put on the best damn show possible. All the haters who care about the fact it's scripted can just drop it, a show is a show is a show and that's all there is to it.
- a look inside the mind of D -

Picture this

Every now and again even the most serious professional type bloggers do things to bring attention to themselves. They pander to even the lowest demographic. They know by presenting certain images their views will go up and I don't care who you are we all Love ourselves some padded stats. So here I go.....Ladies bring me som views













That should've covered just about everyone's likes.. What, that's not enough? Ok fine I can offer up some more...



















Ok that should just about do it. What now? Oh the ladies want some love as well? Fine no one can accuse me of being bias.









Ok something is definitely off with the last guy but who knows someone out there maybe in the market for some unique loving haha
- a look inside the mind of D -

No more moves!

At a stalemate with life. Think this week will be the make it or break it and best believe I refuse to break! Life is a game but it's far from regularly fun. Things are going well thus far, but only because I won't allow it to be anything but good. If things ever venture into the realm of crappy this will have all been for nothing and a thorough flogging will be in order.
We all know I'm not one for a beating, be it by life or other people. So I'm doing any and everything I can just to make it through. That's just how it is, life gives you lemons you make Hard Lemonade. At times things are peachy and in those cases a smoothy is in order, or better yet a fuzzy navel. Never doubt the power of positivity! So much negativity already exists in this world why add to it? I say eat drink be merry and never doubt the good tomorrow has to offer until it becomes a miserable yesterday.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Viva Revolution!

You may not see it but trust me it's there. They are watching, tracking and informing all about you. Oh sure you are connecting with the masses they allow you to inform the world of your every thought, deep or shallow,necessary or not.
Behold the world wide web trembles at your feet as your every thought is posted pictured pinged and placed.


The thing about it is, we do all this posting informing and advising the masses without ever stopping to think who is really viewing it. No not just the weird kid you bullied in the fourth grade; no I'm not speaking of the geeky kid who had that crush on you freshman year, and no I'm not even thinking of that one night fling that stalked you for a month in college. Now we all know about the corporations who have had all our thoughts and feelings scoped out through these sites for the greater part of a decade now. I mean those of you who were shocked to find this information out simply amaze me. I mean come on why else would major corporations pay these computer geeks big bucks for rights to their sites? I mean if they weren't being used for cheap public relations for research and development at no cost and for instant feedback on all the latest things they bring to the market do you really believe these companies would give a damn?



No all that is besides the point all those things have been great uses of the internet age we live. The ultimate works social media has presented to the world is simple. Through our social web addictions our TRUE masters control us all. Think about it through the millions of tweets the trillions of status updates the oodles of blogs and picture post any truly powerful sect could sway and mold us to do and feel what they want us to. We can attempt to fight it all we want, but it's hard to wage a war while being dependent on the enemy to get your cries for freedom out to others. No one can hear you scream and shout when you are being held by the throat, but still we try. The masses should know things are never what they seem. So many free thoughts being expressed worldwide so easily obviously would have to come with a catch.



So what do we do now? My words have shined a light onto the big bosses who live to control our way of life even while giving us the deep illusion of freedom. These words that have reached you through their devices will hopefully be the key that fits the ignition of true freedom that will lead to their undoing. They shall label me mad, they will lead you to believe me a nut or paranoid, but keep this in mind if my words are so simple so silly so mad why do they strike such a nerve. Why should my post disappear once written why will these words almost never reach those who need to see them? Why should such a basic idea in a free society prove so difficult to express? Why else but the fact we aren't truly free. Freedom is the illusion your Masters allow you to have to keep you inline. If they took it away completely you would more easily rebel!
- a look inside the mind of D -