Still Waiting

Stupid lockout, dumb petty squabbles that happen when the rich attempt to get richer off the work of the partly rich.


No one is REALLY practicing and none of the injured are being given the best opportunity to repair in time. Unless this comes to a screeching halt this week I foresee one messed up confusing season ahead of us. I mean how long until everyone knocks the rust off? How many bad tackles will lead to injuries? How many wobbly passes will knock out unaware officials? Oh the joys of pro sport labor disputes and the awkwardly ugly seasons that follow. This year there can even be a double whammy of after waiting around for the football season we could be waiting on the following NBA season as well. Oh well only time will tell when it comes down to all this sports drama. I just hope for the best.

- a look inside the mind of D -

To see her smil

To see her joy that smile that laugh the knowledge of what can be. I'm truly happy the trip is halfway complete. The place will be ours. First she goes then I. August would was always my departure date, now I just need to hound these businesses to give me the opportunity to succeed and prosper on my own. A million and a half apps floating through the cosmos, but so far have only received 3 or 4 replies. 
I will rejoice when I get the YES and the HANDSHAKE. So here we are she is on cloud 9 while I'm around 7, but either way I can't wait to be down there and away from here and all the dramas. 

More Enzo genius

I look at this and all I hear is LET'S START a RIOT a RIOT LET'S START a RIOT!

Of course we all know that's not the right thing to do. Honestly who thinks rioting would be a fun thing to do. Like for the thrill of it I'm going to riot because frankly skydiving is just far too expensive and bungee jumping is over too fast. No riots aren't a party people they never are. Yes you may get some very "groovy" pics out of it and maybe one day you can BS the grandkids about how you FOUGHT THE SYSTEM but in all honesty we know what the deal was. You and your buddies got drunk saw a crowd and said HEY lets see what shit i can get out of that store I've always been too broke to shop at. Yeah we know the truth, but don't worry we won't tell. Just fork over one of those flat screens and a couple of those games and you can BUY our SILENCE.

This may come

Decisions Decisions oh a world full of DECISIONS.


Things taking off but for every forward there is definitely a backwards, for ever gain I can see a minus just on the other side. That being said the good outweighs the bad at least for now it does. Good things come to those who wait, but sometimes you just have to go out and grab it to insure it is the good you really wanted. Am I settling just for a positive change or is tis move ultimately the right move for the day to day? That is the ultimate question.
Somethings come without failure, but the fear of failure is what will hold us all back. So I refuse to let that doomsday mentality make me wither in the face of change. So bring it on world be ready to be tamed.
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PC is for the birds

You know what I'm tired of sitting back and watching us all go through our days grasping on to the fake ass notion that polite is always right. When did this start back up again. I'm all for the anti bullying campaigns, bullies are annoying assholes, but when did stopping bullying become forming support groups? I remember when the best way to stop a bully was either kicking their ass or if you couldn't take them then you'd find someone who could. I mean a group of peers is nice and all, a bunch of bitches spouting about their feelings what fun, but peer groups are usually the cause of bullying not the solution; unless they are a mob of course.
Ok name calling is unnecessary and rather childish, but why is me using a name to describe a situation, NOT a person, such an issue now? Ok I get the "this is so Gay" remark is a problem as it defines a group of people. So fine gay as an insult goes out the window, but this whole you can't say Retarded is killing me. Now hear me out. The retard vs gay thing seems like the same issue, but there is a twist. A few years back it was drummed into our head retard is not to be used to describe any "Handicapped persons". Have we forgotten the PC of the past already. Little People not Midgets; Handicapped not Retarded; Republican not White land owning money grubbing devil spawn. Ok I kid I kid democrats are hell's minions too just to let you know.
All I know is the world needs some more open thinkers, and fewer whiny bitches. I'm so saddened by the fact years after we loose George Carlin we loose all sense of questioning what the masses deem right. What happened to not blindly following the herd? I don't know about you, but I refuse to be just another lemming being lead off the cliff.
If things keep going the direction they are going in the rules will change daily. You can not refer to anyone or anything by any word a passerby could possibly hear and take offense. Pretty soon no race will be defined by their pre defined race designation, I mean after all when you look at me I'm not black. Licorice is black I'm brown, and I'm not African Ive never been there in my life. Oh and the argument "that's where your people originally come from" can and should be thrown out the window. If we go by history and science books Africa is the cradle of all civilization. That being said then we are all AFRICANS you Neo-nazi fuckheads! So in the future I will not be defined as black except on the rare occasions where such a designation will benefit me; no, I am EstreetHaywardianOaklandBayArea-ite. After all that IS where I came from!
Yes they may be a mouthful, but I assure you anyone hearing the description should have to work real hard to try and take offense to any part of it. I mean in the end it's all about what others think about our own personal private thoughts that matters right? Oh I say FUCK THAT. No I don't want a future full of insensitive assholes, that is not what I'm going for, but I am asking for common sense to come back into fashion and basic inherit wisdom to play a larger part in all our daily lives.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Valley Views

Smelly loud hot and muggy
Hatred of people turns us all ugly
Old people driving endangering the roads
Young people trying to cope with everyday life being such a load
The days drag on into nights that are full of danger, never truly knowing what's in the hearts and minds of these nearby strangers
Need to escape this sloughs those hills this valley nothing more exciting then the possibility of being stabbed at a local bowling alley
Can we move on as far as way as possible
Feeling like suffering Job or maybe the plight of Riza you know the forgotten apostle


You see Riza lead a life of pain and suffering all while staying strong in the faith and the belief that when the Lord rose he too would be taken. Of course as Jesus ascended he went without a word he didn't even through up the deuces. So Ezra was left with an angry crowd of hangers on who he had informed he'd put in a good word with the man upstairs once he was gone. Yeah we knew saying such things where potentially blasphemous, but he didn't have the cash for the goats and the women he so desired all he had was his ties to the Holiest of Holy. Sadly holy doesn't look well upon false promises. So while other apostles became fishers of men Riza became one who sleeps with the fishes. What you didn't think mob rules applied back in the day? Oh please, it was a savage land and people hated being toyed with. So anyway as I write and you read I promise great things ahead, but what do I know. I live in the Valley no not A valley I'm talking THE Central Fuckin Valley the heart and soul of depression. This place is where misery is born and bread. How people can be born and raised here amazes me, but one thing is for sure, if I don't get out soon my mind will never recover.
LORD SAVE US FROM THY GEOGRAPHICAL ENFORCED PUNISHMENT. This is my prayer for salvation lord oh lord hear this prayer.



- a look inside the mind of D -

Work thought

Devious Me

Should be working hard but not really feeling it today. Why work for something you don't feel you want anymore.  Yes it's true I've lost my passion to even remotely care about what I do in the day to day at this central valley location. All i want to do is escape to someplace better. A happier place full of joy and beauty. No not trying to die and go to heaven people come on. No i'm talking about the Television representation of Southern California. A place full of fun in the sun happiness, beautiful people around every corner and not a hint of trouble. Now i know this isn't the reality of what I'm getting myself into, but come on doesn't the dream sound amazing? All in all we are looking at just under 2 months until we depart and there is still plenty to get done. So many different channels yet to be taken. A new job a new home a new car and a new life all at our fingertips but not yet grasped.  
The time is coming and fear has yet to set in. Lack of fear means this must be true. I'm no daredevil but I know this is the right thing whether others like it or not. The time for change has come and it has arrived in a BIG WAY.  As we proceed on this most epic journey to our final resting place never forget to take your eyes off the road every now and again or you'll miss out on all the beautiful scenery that was your life. 

Sports blog be gone

We bid D's Sports Blog farewell....


It was a good underused run. Let's just be honest I am much less a Sports fan as I'm a FOOTBALL Fan. I casually watch hockey only check in on the NBA during playoff time, and as much as I whole heatedly believe baseball has been and will forever be America's past time. I'm sorry but 9 innings drag on so much longer then 2 halves 3 periods or 4 quarters ever has. I've hit the age where I truly understand all the games, their pasts and the importance they bring, the current players and how they never can measure up to the icons of the past and even the future and how weird and corrupt it will all become. That being said I feel college kids should be able to earn money, but not as a direct relation to their sport. Offseason part time jobs should be legal as long as they can prove standard wage equal to the tasks at hand; that's right no secret bonuses for the star player while the kid struggling through school gets the shaft. Also that being said OFFSEASON should be offseason. No year round camps, you are there to learn. My ass didn't drop out so some kid with athletic potential could burn out with NO DEGREE and NO JOB EXPERIENCE. I mean come on great athlete Johnny got hurt so now with no education and never having to do regular work we expect him to adapt and strive? I think not people. Well as you can see I still have plenty to say about everything sport, but those opinions are what this blog is all about. Why segregate them elsewhere? Figure it would be best to just keep everything together to provide the best picture of exactly who I am. So we bid adieu to dssportsblog.blogspot.com and just enjoy dustinnicholasbutler.blogspot.com
- a look inside the mind of D -

Problems

Troubles are only as bad as you allow. Life is a bitch, but it's up to you if you allow it to treat you like shit. You have every right to put a stop to any & all unnecessary ridiculous drama. Don't like the shit causing you stress I say cut that shit out of your existence. If that is just not a possibility then punch the shit stirrer dead in the face and walk away like a true bad ass.  That is the gangsta way to deal with your issues.
And as the picture shows I know all about the gangsta life
WESTSIDE!!!

*_*

Walking into whatever it is it shall be. That is how the day to day of life is sometimes; a continual grind of BS and CDs with just a touch of humor and happiness. What does it all mean? We will never know, but one thing is for certain. It all happens for a reason.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Phone phonics

Writing is a passion. I will have failed if this every grows old. fortunately for me that day is a long way away. So until then I will soldier on with my thoughts feelings & perspectives on life & what not. I'm a free thinker who's mind is always going, fortunately, or maybe at times it's unfortunate, I have a place to express my every last thought feeling and/or emotion. This process makes the thoughts flow more freely as it's clear their will be a final resting place. Oh well I'll go on thinking & writing as long as you keep on reading people.

Going going just about gone

Ready to hit the road hopefully for the last time. Time is closing in, money is being made, and plans are coming together; that's right August 1st can't get here soon enough.


Jobs are opening up apartments are leasing and Southern California life is looking so bright. Hope the time flies because I'm definitely planning on having lots of fun.
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{how to feel}

words unspoken
bonds found broken
how to repair what we dare not speak
Truth in the lies
Care in deception
How to heal the pain how to feel sunny when it looks so dark outside
That is the question yet there are no answers to be found
So stop think wonder and hope for the best because hope is all we have to go on.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Work in progress

Day halfway through & still three struggle continues. Ready to be done & gone moving on with life better things in store ahead of the vision currently in front of us.
The question seems to be is the path we are taking the best way to reach our ideal destination. That my friends is a question with no concrete answer. You see no matter the troubles you encounter along the way your ending will never be clear until the end is upon you. Ain't that some shit!

That being said......

Cold hard fact of life: sunshine brings happiness while complete darkness remind us of the cold grip of death. Then again that could just be me.


So as much as I like the night I've grown very fond of my days. This was not always the way my mind body and soul worked. I was at one time a creature of the night. Was most often seen roaming in the dark seeking out excitement avoiding daylight at all costs. Now however, I am living in the sunshine sleeping away my nights.

So far so good things change with time and time continues to move on with or without you. Everyone matters to so many though in the grand scheme of things you have touched so few. Life is what you make of it. All things are subject to the rule of cause and affect. No matter the situation there will always be two sides of every equation. Just a little something to note as I speak of nothing.
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