Take the good with the bad

Life is full of ups and downs, this we all know as truths. For ever good moment there is a bad one waiting around the corner and visa versa. Positivity brings about positive results and when it doesn't that's fine because you know someday it will.


Some call it delusional or living in denial. Well whatever you may call it, it definitely works for some though not all.
- a look inside the mind of D -

Beauty

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, the old saying goes, but often I wonder what kind of judgement does each holder hold.


Is youth the mark of beauty or is it about experience and class. Are you gazing at her eyes? Her chest? Maybe just that big fat ass? What draws you in to her feminine ways. Those eyes that stare about or is it the legs that goes on for days? On what do we base our judgments or is it just a feeling in our guts? Are we all about what's real pure and true or


maybe you are just desperately looking for a world renowned slut? These are the questions that comes to mind whenever a woman's appeal I hear discussed.


Also what I think about is who are we to judge and what makes us all think we are good enough and they would want us?



- a look inside the mind of D -

Dreams bringing truth

When I head to sleep I dread what I will see. Not because I envision my death, or I feel like I'm falling. My dreams are a wee bit different from the norm. I see the perfect life before my eyes. So real I can touch my surroundings and be embrace by the warm glow of then sun. In my mind the matrix affect is happening and this dream seems more like a true reality. My dream feels like a real day to day, so when I wake up I feel I must be dreaming. Of course that feeling can be brought on by a sense of disappointment in my day to day. Of course if that's the case why is the dream so vibrant and real while this day to day has me feeling numb and indifferent?
A wise man once said his biggest fear was we are all but characters in someone else's dream, and when the dreamer awakens we would all just cease to exist. So I guess I should just keep on dreaming because I have so many people I'd hate to see gone. (yeah that's right, I'm cocky enough to believe I'M the dreamer of the ultimate dream and not just one of the many characters of someone else's fantasy.)
- a look inside the mind of D -

Late thoughts fresh from the oven

Time to get away to a place where day and night never come to an end. Where life merges all into one, and where we judge the sinner without recounting their sins. Time for a simpler life and new today and the same tomorrow. A place we have no fear and we stay far away from sorrow. Where money is never an issue and relationships aren't such trouble. A magical place this is the world inside your own thought bubble.


As for now that world will never exist and you are left on your own in this rain. The life of a champion you wish to live though you are currently in a life truly mundane. Life has so many ups and downs and never are you sure where to turn. Just ready to find a good ending without so many streets ending in an epic burn.


We all wish things were simplified so we wouldn't endure so much stress. We unfortunately are forced to live with what we have gotten from the all knowing on high. Sadly for most it's like enduring a firestorm of crap all in hopes of one day getting that golden piece of pie. The ultimate rule is do unto others and treat thy neighbor kindly. Far too often those thoughts aren't return and we question the all mighty's blind eye. As they say he's got a plan for us and who are we to question. Well I'm not doubting what's ahead of me I just need some help with my directions. I follow all the rules, I even feel guilty when I J walk. So why as I stroll down his path I keep getting knocked off the gold sidewalks? Nothing is going as planned and everything's in shambles. Lord I beg of you to right our ship and to forgive me for my sacrilegious rambles

AMEN

- a look inside the mind of D -

Why we write

We write because we love it. We type because it's faster. We speak to be heard. We express our emotions because someone may feel the same. We do all things to find purpose. We do all things to fulfill the need. We are who we say we are even when we are lying. Our words shall be heard by the masses be they understood or not. All is well when we can write. All is fine in this life. Self expression is a gift a treat an act to be played with, so I choose to express myself as such. Like it or not get it or don't you may want me to stop to slow down to go a different direction, but I tell you right now I certainly won't.
I write to be heard. I speak and you don't listen I write and the world takes notice. Notes, blogs, letters and texts... Every word a gem every idea becomes a memory. Words expressed through my keys no different then those expressed through the masters pens. All words are the same in this the English language how you differentiate yourself is by putting them in your own unique order. I'm still finding my voice and perfecting my order. How about you?

Pic courtesy of Ryan Jones Art

- a look inside the mind of D -

Words I've heard

Realized in my 30 years of life I've encountered many people. Some good some bad, but one thing for sure they've all had something to say. Just thinking of some of the most random thoughts and/or ideas that have been presented in life. Not naming names to protect the often ignorant. Reading these you may laugh you may cry, but all I know is you will definitely feel something just as I had upon hearing them.
"why isn't common sense common"
"Only black athletes disgrace their sports"
"yes I've known her for years, but after what happen (9/11) I understand why those guys jumped her. You can't trust any of them"
"Racism isn't real. It's just an excuse those people use to get sympathy"
"all men cheat. It's gods way of punishing women for original sin. That and children"
"money is worth more to midgets because they are smaller. You know so the bills are bigger."
"Pot doesn't cause brain damage. It heightens your senses so you don't need to use all your brain"
"Lots of anonymous sex doesn't make me a slut. It makes me a perfectionist. Like mom always said practice practice practice."
"no guys we are like that famous group. You know Garfunkel and that other guy"
"second place wasn't just the first loser. He's the fastest to get his ass beat"
"why is a lie a bad thing, but a fairy tale is a perfectly acceptable art form"
"I don't say Nigger cuz I'm racist, I say Nigga cuz I like you"
"If I say Fag it's acceptable because I take it in the ass, however you can't say it just because you occasionally put it in hers."
"dick in your mouth so its fuck what you say"
"if I wanted your opinion I'd beat it into you bitch. I say it with love of course"
"Kool-aid is the devil's liquor used to keep the black man down. Tang is his secret elixir to keep the white man boring"
"strippers are the hottest women childhood molestation could produce"
"reality television is perfectly acceptable programming for children. What do you mean my little girl was caught taking a bath with the neighbor boy while on camera?"

Ok ok the last one could happen someday but sadly the rest are all real and some are the reason I'm so often disappointed with society.




- a look inside the mind of D -

Why do I think this way?

Everyday is the same yet somehow the experience is uniquely different. No thoughts come to mind when asked direct questions, but a novel can be written when answering the question no one asked. My time is money, but I hardly get paid a dime for my time. Furthermore if absence makes the heart grow fonder, then why can't you stand the bastards who are always there?
This is just a small example of thoughts that pollute my brain in the quiet of the night. Maybe now you can understand why I fill my life with useless distraction. I mean who really thinks this way. Of course it could be worse, you don't want to know what was running through my head during the down days of high school or lonely days of the succubus crew during college. Frightening I tell you. Thoughts fueled by sadness, fear, ICP & Faygo© soda. It was a bad time to say the least but let's not go there.

"I'm as cold as the cold wind blows"

Phone Wisdom

After my travels around this city in which I live, I have come to one simple conclusion: I need to get out of here quick day
fast & in a hurry!
No matter how you look at it a small city can only possibly have so much opportunity for one man and this town has been tapped out ten times over. So it seems new travels to larger places are most definitely needed. So this is the time to do whatever can be done in order to make the move to a bigger brighter future.  So cheers to tomorrow for it should be a brighter day.

Pressure Point

If you ain't earning you need to be learning. Time to get more invested in the future. Got to do what's best for the tomorrow just as much as we focus on the here and now. Crazed focus leads to fits of confusion. Relax and go with the flow all while still fighting to go upstream.
Sick of fearing the future because the past was shit. So get on board with the change man cuz this life is one mean son of a bitch.
- a look inside the mind of D -

What a world what a world....

What a mad mad crazy beautiful world. 

Things are changing in this world of ours. People will always be materialistic spending multiple thousands not just on cars. This world is full of nice things some small some big. Life of luxury for all not just the big wigs. Yes with money to spend they come in droves knocking down our doors stepping on many toes. They can't help themselves these items that purchase, make them feel special. Though at times they can prove worthless. They strive and they work to earn enough to purchase such trinkets. From towels to wash with to massive marble sinks. Its a mad crazy world and I guess I'll miss it the people the places the fact we have no dishes? It's all in fun its been a blast, but in all honesty I can't wait to make one day my last

Time for a change a new adventure is calling so sorry to be leaving, but you know I'm not balling. I won't shed a tear for a place that brought dread and more often then not a pounding in my head. The people are great friendships that could be epic, but the place in general is a chore and I'll be happy when its done away with.

Life Lessons

Wisdom comes in many forms. The best lessons in life often come from short quick bursts of knowledge bestowed upon us through a variety of means. Be it a life lesson, a song, a television show, a movie or whatever else can be thought of. So take the lesson in stride and do your best to apply it. Time has come people; that's right everyone it's time for CHANGE!
- a look inside the mind of D -

Get Up Stand Up

Know how to pick 'em.
You never truly know.
Know how to treat 'em.
In time the true colors most definitely show.

Another one for the books. A day like no other yet somehow like every one else. The days become a big blur of repeating madness. Its the same day in and day out and almost never as good as it should be. What is one to do with days like these? Its a Bill Murray nightmare I tell you but this ain't Scrooged. No my friends I'm most likely being screwed in the end by a big burly Sailor named LIFE. Yes its a vicious cycle of complete bad, but hope sees me through. Frankly what else can be asked for but that? That and the everyday drudgery of a life unfulfilled. Filling it won't take much, but sadly it takes time and money. Money which only comes slowly across the spaces of said time. So we wait. Wait for more or less... MORE positives less NEGATIVES. This is what life has brought along with a world of troubles, still I wait I hope and I wonder. I wait because I know this epic BS will never truly take me under.