No worries

Yes kiddies I'm still living. Don't worry you haven't gotten rid of me yet. I have plenty of things to speak of and as always my mind is going a mile a minute. The problem simply is with all this crazy swirling around and in me when am I supposed to find the time to write these thoughts down? Hmm decisions decisions. I think i'll go ponder that while i stare blankly into space. You all have a lovely evening won't you 

Love of Cali Sports

I'm sure most feel the same about theirs but I LOVE MY STATE. I especially love it during any professional sports season. What's not to love. We are LOADED. You wanna catch some football? You got Niners, Raiders, and Charges. All decent in their own way (Raiders still live mostly off of history but hey it's one hell of a history right?).  Baseball: Dodgers, Padres, Giants, Angels and my personal favorite the A's. No it doesn't bother me the best thing about the A's this days are the RIVERCATS; hey they make Sacramento worth visiting. Hockey: Kings, Sharks and Ducks (So what they were named by Disney you gotta admit the newer stuff features some bad ass looking ducks or well feet). Oh and of course Basketball: Lakers, Clippers, Kings & Warriors. This playoff run for the Clippers was quite impressive I mean they are STILL the CLIPPERS people stop being cynical that they didn't make it all the way save that disgust for the LAKERS hahaha
Well Baseball is still marching on but my thoughts have already turned to football too bad I'm not a live or die Cali football guy. Sorry, my heart has been an EAGLE since the days of "Why Pass?" Cunningham. I just know I'm looking forward to see what this year will bring. Niners in the superbowl? Raiders with an actually winning record? Charges officially spontaneously burst into flames and sell off all their talent at the trade deadline?  Only time will tell, but I just can't wait.

Speaking on speech well Text

Smile like you mean it
When I say mean it I MEAN IT
What does that mean?
Am I just being MEAN?
Or maybe I'm demanding you find my meaning through meanness?

I demand a lot of my reader. My mind is wired differently then most. My words have deeper meaning then most, but getting to the point is the trick to the puzzle that is me. I can go on for days about what's troubling me but sadly if I don't focus these thoughts it could take months to decipher. I apologize for the trouble but assure its worth the journey. I try and make it sensible, but then i realize nothing in this world is altogether SENSIBLE. What seems logical or sensible often when looked upon with fresh eyes are either flawed or heartless. We are not logical beings. Mechanized beings of logical computations we are NOT. So, that being sad, I've decided to write on PURE EMOTION. Emotions are crazy free radicals that shall not be contained. They flow from me like water over Niagara's edge. So why change my natural inclinations to fit in some mold I never have nor never will understand? So with that being said I simply do what I feel and what I feel is SURE MADNESS.  

Power On

The weight of the world on his shoulders, the struggle never quits. He keeps us steady upright and proper all the while no thanks given no praise bestowed. Why does he do it? No one truly knows, most in his situation would drop the giant ball that is this existence. Why do we pile on, adding more to this poor man's burden? Cuz we are evil bastards that's why.

Ready for the next challenge to move to grow. Work has begun and I can't wait to get into the full swing of things. Have a family to take care of and I refuse to drop the ball. If I prove myself and make real nice I can try and move up through the ranks. Who knows I maybe dragged back out to Vegas when they open the new store in 2012 but that's a distant idea for now. With that said on to DAY 2 and a much better tomorrow.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Words

Feeling sketchy...



Uneasy and unaware. My surroundings out of focus. Life as good as it ever can or will be. And if it's all the same to you my time for change has come and gone. So ready for the new to begin again, you know what they say, when one door closes a window gets a brick through it letting opportunity in. So my friends I ask you who are your bricks. Who helps shine the light on the bigger and better things in your lives? Yeah that's what I thought, you've allowed me to be that brick. I take the task seriously so please allow me to break the glass and let some light shine through!

- a look inside the mind of D -

Faith

The preacher steps up clears his throat and begins...
You're all going to HELL!
And with that I was done. The problem is what do you do? You are uncomfortable sitting there while this leader of the flock spews his venom upon the crowd. You want to walk out, but fear attempting to leave mid sermon. All that venom and hate in the name of the almighty would be squarely turned onto you, and that my friends is the last thing you'd want to have happen. A gaggle of gossiping judging faking believers equating you to the devil in and out of church. Is this the lessons that were left for the true believers? What happened to the golden rule and how about the little saying judge lest ye be judged? (that's King James speak for leave the judging to the big man above.)


What if Jesus has come back and walks among us now? Maybe he simply decided not to reveal because the world simply isn't ready for the eternal light. Maybe there is too much technology to much reality television too much classless behavior and far too much ignorance for the awesome glory that is THE ONE to be revealed. Of course that's all just a matter of opinion....

There are plenty of others who aren't waiting for the end or the big arrival of some mega spiritual something or other to rescue us from ourselves. Things are the way they are and possibly always will be, but where's the fun in that really? Who wants the only big brother watching over us to be the hateful and hurtful secret government? Give me an all powerful compassionate yet vengeful dirty any day. Though confusing and hard to believe at times it gives the world hope faith and a subtle shape to the everyday madness. So God bless us everyone open up your Christmas presents and dye your Easter eggs for the lord art with you. Praise be the meek the weak the strong in faith and the mighty in devotion. Church goer or not you all are blessed saved praised and able to pass go if you are down with all our almighty bro! (hey he is the son of god, but we are ALL God's children therefore Jesus is your Bro!)


Look to the heavens and pray for rain. Drizzle of blessings downpour of praise the sun maybe shining but with the proper faith it may be raining for days.
Hallelujah Amen
Or as the blasphemous humorist of this generation would say
Praise Him HalleyLouYur muthafuckin take it to the chuch y'all!

- a look inside the mind of D -

Take the good with the bad

Life is full of ups and downs, this we all know as truths. For ever good moment there is a bad one waiting around the corner and visa versa. Positivity brings about positive results and when it doesn't that's fine because you know someday it will.


Some call it delusional or living in denial. Well whatever you may call it, it definitely works for some though not all.
- a look inside the mind of D -

What a world what a world....

What a mad mad crazy beautiful world. 

Things are changing in this world of ours. People will always be materialistic spending multiple thousands not just on cars. This world is full of nice things some small some big. Life of luxury for all not just the big wigs. Yes with money to spend they come in droves knocking down our doors stepping on many toes. They can't help themselves these items that purchase, make them feel special. Though at times they can prove worthless. They strive and they work to earn enough to purchase such trinkets. From towels to wash with to massive marble sinks. Its a mad crazy world and I guess I'll miss it the people the places the fact we have no dishes? It's all in fun its been a blast, but in all honesty I can't wait to make one day my last

Time for a change a new adventure is calling so sorry to be leaving, but you know I'm not balling. I won't shed a tear for a place that brought dread and more often then not a pounding in my head. The people are great friendships that could be epic, but the place in general is a chore and I'll be happy when its done away with.

So sorry

Love 'em and leave 'em that's how you play? It's good for the night but can never last in the light of day? The yearning stops the desires quenched so throw the used up body into your lost passions trench. The thrill's gone by the morning and it stays away until the night. Loving in the evening but all day you fight. Crimes of passion happen when desires go unfilled in the night. Best to quench the thirst of your lusts and desires for danger arises when you are unable to put out those fires. Just saying my very best advice, Bad Girls and Dirty Boys will most likely live the longest though not fulfilling lives!

- a look inside the mind of D -

Things I'm a thinking (while I should be a workin)

First thing: Why the hell am I here at 5 am? I mean I'm so tired of being in a position that I'm a slave to the Eastern time zone. Its Saturday do they really need their calls answered at 8 am local time. Would 10am their time really hurt them? I mean come on. And better yet if they do need 8 am EST then why not have the center located in that time zone get up and handle it? No lets make the suckers out west roll out of their nice warm beds at the butt crack of dawn to handle our LOCAL clientele... Shenanigans I say, pure and utter rubbish that is!

Secondly:I'm so ready to be elsewhere its utterly ridiculous. I mean this life hasn't been all that bad, but my  new and improved SoCal life has so much promise I'm itching to get into it already. Yeah I'm going to be starting over making new friends and away from the things I already know, but fortunately being as I've been in Stockton I'm not leaving anything I love as I can't stand the city in which I reside.

Third: I tend to wonder why things are never as they seem. Friends who say they are friends tend not to be so friendly when the chips are down. And the ones who you most alienate are some of the truest people you possibly could ever meet. Think on that for a moment why don't ya.

Fourth: Frankly there is no fourth as my mind tends to draw a blank here. I guess that's what they mean by MIND NUMBING JOB cuz buddy my mind she is GONE!

Natural feelings

Beauty in nature and all the wonders it holds. Simply looking at these shots bring forth the power of nature. I am feeling so much more "Aquarians/Earth Child" the older I get. So I love having friends with an incredible eye for the world that surrounds us. I've known this lady forever and all I can say is she rocks at what she does.
- a look inside the mind of D -


Have I mentioned I love trees?


And fog?






Pictures by Sarah H (she works wonders with a camera)

Work Thoughts

"All i wanted was your Love Love LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
HATE is a stronger word but I really really really don't like you
Now that its over, I don't even know what I liked about you
Kept you around but you just brought me down
Hate is strong word but I really really really don't like you" - Plain White Tees

These are the random things I  think in my head during long slow days such as this one. Random bits of music movies or stories I've heard at one time or another.  I love getting lost in thought as much as the next guy but this is a bit ridiculous when I have this much time to think of the most random things I could ever dream.
Thoughts like

What would happen if you cross breed a Cow with a Walrus? I mean could we happily drink the milk of this creature. I mean we don't bother to ingest walrus (I believe because they are a bit too unappealing or better still because they look like our great uncles. You know the one who always talks of how MUSIC was MUSIC when he was a child unlike this new gobbledy gunk of today. His words not mine) So if we cross a COW with these freaky creatures would that make it better or worse? I'm just saying.

These are the thoughts I find myself dwelling on. Sad as it is, I guess the oddness is what makes me well ME!

"He's the son of god and man and Lion.
 He's the one who keeps us all from dying.
 You've seen the rest he is the best, he's the best and his name is DUKE LION!" - Big Dumb Face

Guess I'll go back to my thoughts, who knows where they may lead. All that can be done is to keep thinking them and hope for the best.

Hold your tongue

Vile dog I shall smite thee whosoever crosses the queen and her wishes.

Freaky to think those were at one point harsh troubling words. Words that started wars & blood feuds. Century old battle lines drawn simply by the turn of a phrase.

People don't seem to recognize just how powerful words can be. Simple letters on the page turn into epic poems, historical documents, and many other amazing things. The fact these words can do so much with so little effort put behind them is an amazing yet dangerous fact.

Wise words for all thinking clearly before you commit any word to the cosmos, for these little phrases you utter, write, doodle or express may just define how the world truly sees you

a look inside the mind of D