Friday, December 31, 2010
2011
Time has come for complete and utter change. It's a new year a new day and high time for some incredible changes. Expecting so many amazing NEW experiences for the year to come, I can't wait to see them unfold. Good things are heading this way all that is needed is a positive attitude and a will to change that which needs a change.
- a look inside the mind of D -
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Work: the return
As they say another day another dollar and that's all you need to hear. With those simple words you know the person you are dealing with hates what they do on a day to day basis. The job maybe a bore or a drain. In fact it may just be one of the most soul sucking experiences in the course of human history. No matter what the cause you know for a fact they are not happy campers. Frankly this saddens and excites me. It's always sad to hate how you make your living, but think of the possibilities that lay before you in the name of CHANGE. In life there is one simple truth I'm a huge supporter of: "there always is another option!". Now many times in life those words may not feel like the truth, but in fact in every situation there are always several options. So if you find yourself in a terrible spot just do something to change it. I'm not talking bitch about it and hope it becomes durable. No, I'm talking DO SOMETHING and enact real change. So I'm calling upon all of you out there in internet land aka "the WEBIVERSE" to take charge of your lives your surroundings no your DESTINIES and see what you can make of it.
- a look inside the mind of D -
- a look inside the mind of D -
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
All or Nuthin'
Ready or not I'm about to come, entering your mind with these words written with my thumbs. Texting the wave of the future which is quickly becoming the past. All the old folks continue to swear this trend will never last. We all know trends of the past are never done. Just check out the girls still rocking bell bottoms and let us not forget the silly wannabes still popping and locking like some hip hop nuns. Written words floating around cyberspace makes me feel oh so cool. Knowing these words can be seen by some delinquents in New Zealand while that skip out on school.
Imagine that being the international cause of teenage delinquency. Wonder if that is what it will take to get me the international fame I so desire. Hey I say if you are going to be famous might as well be INFAMOUS. As long as you are reading I will enjoy, my words getting out there no matter who no matter what attention is all I know. Unlike in the past only positive I will crave. I've taken it upon myself to now shut up and behave. Happiness is all I feel as I write this. Being a scribe an author poet philosopher is the top of my to do list. So heed my words of wisdom knowledge thought and happiness, never give up on your dreams frankly all people should just try this.
- a look inside the mind of D -
Imagine that being the international cause of teenage delinquency. Wonder if that is what it will take to get me the international fame I so desire. Hey I say if you are going to be famous might as well be INFAMOUS. As long as you are reading I will enjoy, my words getting out there no matter who no matter what attention is all I know. Unlike in the past only positive I will crave. I've taken it upon myself to now shut up and behave. Happiness is all I feel as I write this. Being a scribe an author poet philosopher is the top of my to do list. So heed my words of wisdom knowledge thought and happiness, never give up on your dreams frankly all people should just try this.
- a look inside the mind of D -
Location:Boo Ln,Stockton,United States
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Work in progress
Maybe it's just me working on my own progress. Entering into tomorrow without forgetting the lessons of today. That's the real key to making improvements in life. Moving forward without totally abandoning the lessons of the past.
That being said with the many lessons I have learned in these 29 5/6 years of lie the old debate is back on. Where shall we go as we move forward? Stay up north or move down to the golden south?
Over the past 3 years a mighty big list of pros and cons has been compiled with the southland having a slight edge in our book of life. Yes the back and forth has been a bit maddening, but we do it because we are so concerned about pleasing our other half. Well that's all fine and dandy but the time has come for a decision to be made.
Southern Cali is where we are definitely bound, no more if ands or buts. The maybe this or maybe thats are out the window. Dedication & focus are the tools necessary for the newest leg of my life journey. Do I have these traits in enough abundance to make this a doable step in the progression of us? So with the decision being made the next REAL step to making this move happen is zeroing in on which SoCal city we will call home. Do we go OC style? Venice....Hollywood....or downtown LA you know a lovely ghetto adjacent home. Personally I've been a fan of NO HO (North Hollywood) for awhile, but only time will tell on what is and isn't doable.
Wish us luck I have a real feeling 2011 is going to be one insane year in the life of D.
That being said with the many lessons I have learned in these 29 5/6 years of lie the old debate is back on. Where shall we go as we move forward? Stay up north or move down to the golden south?
Over the past 3 years a mighty big list of pros and cons has been compiled with the southland having a slight edge in our book of life. Yes the back and forth has been a bit maddening, but we do it because we are so concerned about pleasing our other half. Well that's all fine and dandy but the time has come for a decision to be made.
Southern Cali is where we are definitely bound, no more if ands or buts. The maybe this or maybe thats are out the window. Dedication & focus are the tools necessary for the newest leg of my life journey. Do I have these traits in enough abundance to make this a doable step in the progression of us? So with the decision being made the next REAL step to making this move happen is zeroing in on which SoCal city we will call home. Do we go OC style? Venice....Hollywood....or downtown LA you know a lovely ghetto adjacent home. Personally I've been a fan of NO HO (North Hollywood) for awhile, but only time will tell on what is and isn't doable.
Wish us luck I have a real feeling 2011 is going to be one insane year in the life of D.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
All smiles
Ready to write for a whole new era. Ready to express all the things I need to tell ya. Free from the strings free for it all love and enjoyment is it for one though we would like it to be for us all.
Smiles for one Smiles for all. Happy with my now and my then. You should be honored anytime anyone worthwhile can call you FRIEND!
- a look inside the mind of D -
Smiles for one Smiles for all. Happy with my now and my then. You should be honored anytime anyone worthwhile can call you FRIEND!
- a look inside the mind of D -
Location:Mist Trail Dr,Stockton,United States
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Greatest Xmas ever
Without fail this has been the best holiday I've had in my 29 years of living. The time has come to put childish things behind me this is true, but who says a grown ass man can't enjoy some of the simpler things in this life. I'm far too happy right now having gotten everything I needed and/or wanted. With these new goods I feel I can now enter my 30s with a new kind of focus on my near future then I ever had at anytime in my 20s. So let's all celebrate and enjoy our friends family and loved ones. I'm going to play with this new toy in order to master all it's possible applications for my life.
- a look inside the mind of D -
- a look inside the mind of D -
1st iPad post
Do to the awesomeness of my wife I now have an easier way to express myself on the go. Plenty of people have this fabulous tool at their disposal, not sure what they all have planned, but as for me this is what it will be all about. After all I write therefore I am. So I will continually write every chance I get. I'm happy to say this wonderful device has now given my writing a new lease on life & I'm just warning you all be prepared to be completely annoyed with my happy happy ass!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
......How to Clear writers block.........
Yes it's true I have come up with the ultimate cure for writers block. It's quite simple really. All one must do is simply stop attempting to make sense and just let ANYTHING and i mean ANYTHING flow. Yes I say just go out of your way to simply put something down. It doesn't matter what as long as your mind is churning out something that just means you are alive. Frankly I'm happy to keep on LIVING. That's all you have to do. Eventually the ideas will come alive once you get all the meaningless crap out of the way. Once you let your mind free you'll be amazed at all the crap you have stocked away up there. Just the first things that come to your mind let it out and you'll be amazed to see what will follow.
Things like song quotes.....
Things like song quotes.....
"I'm dumb she's a lesbian I thought I'd found the one.
We were good as married in my mind but married in my mind was no good.
Oooh PINK TRIANGLE on her sleeve.
Now I know the truth now I KNOW the TRUTH"
It really doesn't matter how random the thoughts or quotes are as long as they are out. That song had been stuck in my head for hours for absolutely NO REASON, but putting it down forces it out. Now I can possibly get a clear thought to shine through ya know. Hmm seems things still aren't moving. Lets see what else I have stashed away up here. Hmm maybe this plan doesn't work as well as I'm thinking it does, but in the end as long as I'm writing something down I'm a happy happy man.
"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world" - Buddha
Monday, December 20, 2010
Time waits for no one
As we go forward never forget eventually all things must come to a close. Be it good or bad with time all things do pass.
So xmas is upon us, t-minus 4 days & counting until my first gifts will be open. Yes the wedding anniversary & xmas combo is the equation for awesome good times. Can't wait until my check & the following final shopping spree of the season. Going to load up on some goodies the significant other should enjoy. Now the question is what does she have in store for me?
a look inside the mind of D
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Love her movies
Not ready to call this girl "sexy" Funny YES interesting look YES sexy ummmm
Is it just me or does it look like she is ready to whoop someone's ass? I guess she'd be intimidating if she weren't a twig HA!
brought to you buy the boys at EGOTASTIC.com
Coming to a close
FULL BLOWN ADULT STATUS NOW |
Where am I going? What will I do? Am I truly good enough? Why do I do the things I do? These are the thoughts that constantly repeat in this brain of mine, when I was twenty these were just passing notions but as soon as I hit thirty dealing with these questions will take up the majority of my time. Might as well start on them now. Might as well prepare to grab true answers. In your 30s it's time to get to the Real of everything. 20s is time for thoughts and exploration 30s will be time for REALITY and RESPONSIBILITY (yeah doesn't sound to fun to me either). So This is what I've decided to rededicate myself to doing what is BEST and will work best for me and my family. My 30s will bring me my prosperity. Of course I'm not thirty for another 58 day give or take a day (thats right age is making my math mind fade...ok time for some BRAIN AGE gaming). Well until my almost 60 days are up I'm going to milk all I can out of the remainder of my 20s. Yup some more flighty thoughts will be had and a possible random impulse will be acted upon here and there. So I bid you adieu 20s you've treated me well. 3os don't you go getting to excited not quite ready to welcome you.
"Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter." - Mark Twain
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
they said what?!?!?!
"There maybe a limited amount of perfect breasts in this world but why should I allow the memory of mine be tainted once gravity gets a hold onto them?" - KD
"ya know... I've always said that when a person is right there on the edge of completely giving up god sends an angel to remind us why we're here...." - WC
"Ja Rule is going to jail for gun charges... i would of thought it would have been for MUUUUURRRRDDDDDDAAAAA" - BK
"What's that you say, Bed? Blanket is being mean to you again? Sounds like I need to separate you two. Good night..." - DH
"92% of Americans celebrate Christmas. That's 7% more than Americans who are Christian. So, if there ever was a war on Christmas, it's over. Christmas won" - ER
Pretty eventful week for the people in my life. As you can see I surround myself with an odd bunch. Some wise & deep others funny & insightful; I work hard to avoid the shallow and fake, but when you get right down to it I'm sure I have enough of those surrounding me as well. It has taken nearly 3 decades of living to accept this fact: I'm a SOCIAL BUTTERFLY! Yeah that's right I crave people around me all the time. All types of folks with all kinds of different backgrounds. Yes in my younger days I would chalk these feelings up to wanting to be a writer and needing the people i drew around me simply as case studies. You know real life characters to inspire my fictional ones, but as the years have past I have come to realize there is so much more to it then that.
No these surrounding souls are all part of a bigger picture of my life. Not just examples of what could be, but amazing proof of the amazing life that IS. No matter what you think of the people you encounter day to day know this "You make a difference in every life in some way no matter how small". As corny as that may sound to you I truly do believe in that fact. There is nothing further from the truth then that. You've heard of the butterfly effect? Well your day to day interactions with people BIG or SMALL is the tsunami of the soul the butterfly welled up. With each passing glimpse, cordial hello, or hand shake or hug changes were made whether you know it or not. All this being said is simply summed up as this. WE ALL MATTER to SOMEONE SOMEWHERE. Now having this bit of info is a great thing to have. No matter how down you can get or how alone you may feel at any given point just think on that fact. YOU MATTER and trust me all will become right.
A glimpse inside the mind of D
Monday, December 13, 2010
Future never foretold
As this year melts into the next only one thing is for certain, time has no tells. The future is unknown just as how we will look on our recent past is uncertain. Things that may seem rosey may not be as the now turns to the past. To move forward cleanly they say don't look back, but I ask if you never look back how can you appreciate how far you've come. Possibilities are endless as future options remain wide open. Things don't close until you get right at the threshold of tomorrow. Once tomorrow turns into today then our future will be now & the present will fade into the realm of distant memories.
a look inside the mind of D
Sunday, December 12, 2010
The best strip ever!
Honestly this is my favorite Sinfest so far. I love political satire simply cuz I hate politics. This breaks down what we do on a nation so well I've got to put this shit up don't I?
All in the name of FREDOOM!
Love is Pain and pain is frequent
She's ready for battle. She's ready for war. She won't go down without a fight. You may think you've won but she's thirsty for more you may think its over but its just BEGUN. There is no point in running, hell there ain't nowhere to run. You think she does this for pride? Shit no she does it for fun. She entered your life to penetrate your heart. Not with emotions NO a bullet is how she starts. Fear if you must beware if you can. She doesn't need you. She only allows you around simply for amusement. Beware this girl she will destroy your soul. Beware her touch her song her smell and her taste. Love is her name and her ultimate weapon is FATE.
Bitter much? Maybe, but who hasn't felt the sting. Love is joyous but it too can be the most painful thing. Why should love be so hard? Why this natural institution damned upon us to preserve the species is such an epic torture only God knows. I figure heaven could be boring if they didn't have the prime time drama that is our LOVE LIVES to watch from on high. Who knows why all I know is it becomes increasingly difficult to understand love & all the age and wisdom that comes with time still doesn't clear up the overall snap shot that is LOVE.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Her beauty is dangerous
! BEWARE !
So just be safe and watch your back. That girl is dangerous and she leads you down a path of disaster. She knows you will come chasing after her. She knows you can't resist her charms she knows that her every movement draws you closer to your demise but the problem is you can't see it. You are far to busy getting lost in her eyes. Beware the girl, Beware her talk, Beware her ways and beware her intentions.
Who am I kidding the second she smiles you are a goner boy, you might as well enjoy it while you can. Around the corner will be your epic end.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Christmas is a comin'
Tis the season that everyone loves... No matter who you are no matter your faith you must admit this time of year there is a certain magic in the air. People are nicer, kids can be sweeter, life is magical always but christmas is especially blessed.
My fave holiday is halloween, but I must admit christmas is the most meaningful. It is a time for giving loving & laughter for all
Drink some nog sneak a kiss no time in life will ever be as good as this...until next year that is.
a look inside the mind of D
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Issues: we all got em
OK now after a fun filled work day (no sarcasm, finally enjoying myself every now and again) think i can write with a bit more clarity. We all have our moments where the world seems upside down, and I'm sure many out there in internetland aka the WEBIVERSE are going through it now.... heed my advice: Just stop trying to make sense of it. Yeah, that's the best advice i have for you. Life would be so much simpler if people would allow control to be lost and just go where life is trying to lead. The world has been rotating for millions of years before you were even thought of, why not trust it to do its thing and just let things happen naturally?
I know i can sound like an acid dropping hippie but man just ride the wave guys... The ebb and flow of life is meant to be float float floated on not battled against. Why make waves in the kiddie pool you'll get wet either way HA!
I know i can sound like an acid dropping hippie but man just ride the wave guys... The ebb and flow of life is meant to be float float floated on not battled against. Why make waves in the kiddie pool you'll get wet either way HA!
pre work thinking
"PERFECT HARMONY" |
You know it may just be this movie infecting my brain. Why watch things about people going off the deep end while you see the deep end approaching you in real life? Guess that's just the crazy stuff I do that makes D well D! So that's enough writing it down to flush it out of my head. That's enough venting to an endless abyss of hidden faces. That's enough expressing what i feel to everyone who is willing to read words on a page. And this has been more then enough to send my patience for improvement to go scurrying away in a rabid fit of rage hahaha
Monday, December 6, 2010
Why we write
Words on the screen a page to an open book that is a peak into the soul of the writer. Be it dark or joyous; love-filled or lame. The soul the story reveals is a beautiful treat. The ins & outs the ups & downs of their lives and experiences. The stories, poems, jokes, articles & yes blogs give the reader the distinct opportunity to truly know a stranger on a very deep level.
Go back and read these stories and notes and just see what you can learn. What eye opening details can be found in between the lines. As they say the devil is in the details, but heaven can be found in the expressing of thought.
a look inside the mind of D
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Do unto others ¤or¤ Do for others
Of course some of us don't mind abuse so I think those are the bastards to avoid. They don't mind taking crap so it gives them every right to dish it out. Watch yourselves people, life is full of bitches who happily dive bomb your life in attempt to end your good times. Never let anyone take your power to enjoy your life. Life is meant to be enjoyed not just tolerated. To be exhilarating not stagnant. Go forth & live for all those who never truly lived before you. Lead your own life, but live enough for three others!
a look inside the mind of D
Friday, December 3, 2010
Stress relief
Power through & deal. Yes life can be maddening & people down right insane. All you can do is work hard to make it through the day without committing a felony. Murder may not be easy but assault is oh so tempting. So I say do whatever it takes to avoid jumping off the edge & hurtling toward an abrupt end to what had been a pretty positive life. Some read, some run others lose themselves in fantasy...I write. So here it goes:
BACK UP OFF ME YOU UBER CONTROLLING PSYCHOS BEFORE I SUMMON THE LORDS OF AWESOME TO SMITE THEE.
Oh so much better now haha...and now I return to my regularly scheduled program.
a look inside the mind of D
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Back to the drawing board
On to the next one cuz the last one went bust. Had her in his sights down on his knee pleading cuz in God he trusts. Still made no difference as she walked out that door, leaving no hope for tomorrow for him restful sleep was no more. Feeling lost in oblivion he drank but never forgot. She will be the one who got away, of course it hurt more cuz she's so hot. Crazy to think while they were together it was this moment he had waited; a chance to be alone again no more pressure no angry stares to be evaded. No this moment, his new found freedom, was to be pure bliss. To bad as she walked out the door his day dreams failed to capture the reality of this. Multiple years had gone by & she was all he had ever known. Now with her absent, his space was far from home. Why when youre in love you can feel so trapped, but when that prison of love leaves all the feelings which remain are complete crap. So the question of the moment is why do we even bother?
love
happiness
joy
Sounds to me to be nothing more then a keg of gunpowder. It blows up in your face & leaves you emotionally crippled. So why start down the path simply because her smile, her laugh, her heart stirs up a tiny ripple...a vibration inside that cannot be explained. You risk losing it all to gain a glimmer of hope to finally escape your loneliness pain. Yes, we are all suckers & there is no escape. My only wish is you succeed better then I when it comes to the heart break.
a look inside the mind of D
Monday, November 29, 2010
Dead men DO tell tales
At least that's what the wisest of us tend to believe. Do u believe in ghosts and where do we go when we die have become cliche laughable at best. Questions asked by children during the innocence of youth. Once you reach adulthood these things were to be put behind us right? The notion of Ghosts and demons were stuff of legends and fairytale, but what if they were totally true? Personally I'm more a fan of the ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE and the deadly repercussions that are sure to follow. That being said there is just something about the idea of GHOSTS i can't grasp. I mean GHOSTS bring us all to a pretty depressing conclusion. Either we DIE and are forever stuck in a LIMBO between two worlds, we die and are forced to relive how we met our end OVER and OVER or better yet we die and NOTHING HAPPENS at ALL.... Heaven and Hell don't have an explanation for ghosts so admitting there existence brings on a whole world of trouble for the faithful masses wouldn't you think? Now sure church goers can say DEMONS, but come on why are there SO MANY DEMONS and if hell has no escape how do these demons keep getting out? That is something I've always been curious about.
Death is an end to a beginning and what comes after we can never be sure.
SPOOKY HUH?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Death is an end to a beginning and what comes after we can never be sure.
SPOOKY HUH?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Sunday, November 28, 2010
2 the end, beginning & everything in between
Right now with the holidays going; the year ending; and the daily grind of work family and everyday life.... I feel my brain needing an escape. Ever wish to just get away from life, a quick break from the harsh realities of this world. Time to get back to what I do best....mysterious distance....vanishing into the shadows from time to time. To simply become an observer of life, no longer a player, but refusing to abandon the cast all together.
Don't get me wrong, love people & most members of society. Even still, every now & then I find the intense need to draw away. Don't know if others feel as I do, all I know is I go through this every once in a while and will continue to do so until all things become clear.
This is me...take it or leave it
a look inside the mind of D
Saturday, November 27, 2010
*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*
When life give you LEMONS you make a meringue dammit. That's right Mr Positivity coming at you. Now i may be a positive happy stuttering moron; that doesn't mean I'm not honest with how the world runs around me. As a few wise me wrote "Life is full of SHIT when you look at IT!" That being said LIFE is what you make of it. If it's shit turn it into fertilizer.... if its a bunch of assholes BLEACH 'em until they bleed. I say spin it all around and turn it on its head. That's right ride out the bullshit smack it flip it and rub it down OH NO! Hell yeah I'm telling you to RUMP SHAKER the SHIT! Come on who could listen to that song without losing their shit.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
KaBoom!
Diffusing bombs, cutting off fuel supplies, putting out blazes, these are the adventures of a shit talking fire starting tight rope walking psychopath. The world is full of obstacles & those born to crash head long into them. Some lead some follow & others just say fuck it maybe this road block could be a fun!
So who are you? What do you do in difficult situations? You run and hide or you stay & fight? Maybe you are one of the few who ARE the difficult situation! Yes you know who you are. Screw the mayhem commercials you my friend are straight up trouble. You endanger those around you with your mildest of thoughts/plans. You bring horror disguised as excitement, pain masquerading as kindness. Yes you are a disaster waiting to happen, but happen it must for us to truly live.
a look inside the mind of D
Sunday, November 21, 2010
«thoughts»
Turkey day approaches and I find myself thinking....why turkey? Personally I love the ham. Others out there enjoy duck & even more in this county probably celebrate with a lovely helping of fried chicken....I'm just saying give all your poultry their due credit (I know my ham love doesn't fit, but come on it is the other white meat haha)
a look inside the mind of D
Thursday, November 18, 2010
womanly creatures
Why do we let them do this to us fellas? They do no wrong and we are always far from right. Life can be difficult and they always seem to make it better, even when they are the cause of the trouble. They play with your mind they step on your heart and in the end it will always be your fault. I don't know what it isand I'll never understand why we deal, but i would hate to be without them. That is the cruelest trick of all
The ULTIMATE JOKEYou live you learn and you love. You hurt you cry but you still return. Live with em cuz you can't live without them but no matter what the feelings as long as you are living then you are doing something right
a look inside the mind of D
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
SICK DAY
I hate this I hate this I hate this
I don't like being sick I can't stand being helpless and as weird as it sounds to most I hate missing work.
Waking up this morning I was determined to go, but then I came to realize no matter how hard i tried my body was not going to allow me to vacate my bed. Too sick to work too congested to sleep all I can do is watch on demand take my meds and hope that tomorrow gives me an opportunity to return to the job I tolerate surrounded by the work folks I enjoy.
Well all I can do is wait and see. Sure hope this passes quickly can't afford to miss opportunity to make that money man ya know.
I don't like being sick I can't stand being helpless and as weird as it sounds to most I hate missing work.
Waking up this morning I was determined to go, but then I came to realize no matter how hard i tried my body was not going to allow me to vacate my bed. Too sick to work too congested to sleep all I can do is watch on demand take my meds and hope that tomorrow gives me an opportunity to return to the job I tolerate surrounded by the work folks I enjoy.
Well all I can do is wait and see. Sure hope this passes quickly can't afford to miss opportunity to make that money man ya know.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Anger fuels the flames of Progress or was that regress?
Many Guns controlled by MURDER THOUGHTS |
So walking through life surrounded by society while feeling outcast and alone you must ask yourself is loneliness really all that bad? Yes sure your conversations are kind of one sided, but you never have to repeat yourself to get your point across. And though you'll never have a good game of poker ever you are definitely guaranteed the only game of Solitare you'll ever need. The only thing you will ever truly miss by being completely apart from society is an ALIBI hahaha which is a shame because how you are feeling you definitely could possibly use one for later on.
Focusing on the negatives is just a hell of a lot easier then attempting to find a single positive when you are in a truly jacked up situation. Bad things can happen to bad people just as frequently as the good, we just tend to mourn the victims a little harder then the instigator, but if we were truly all about humankind then wouldn't we mourn equally for one life lost is no greater then another if you are all about EQUALITY. Guess that's asking a lot, people living up to the requirements of being everyday good wholesome decent folks. I mean that's hard work while being a rat bastard is absolutely easy. Like taking candy from a baby (NO REALLY if you want to be a down right bastard go take candy from an innocent baby... you lazy SoB)
a look inside the mind of D
Sunday, November 14, 2010
New week
Tomorrow begins a long week & I can only hope I make it through without losing my mind. I have no real problem working OT, especially when there is a goal I'm working toward.
Though I'll miss my wifey I know I'm doing it for the good of us.
LOVE YOU BABY
a look inside the mind of D
Friday, November 12, 2010
Dead dreams
Up late & realizing I have have given up on far too many of my dreams far too soon. Now I'm not speaking of any of the pipe dreams of youth. I recognize the prima ballerina days have past me, and the pro athlete opportunity has past ten years & 100 lbs ago.
No I'm sitting here looking at my words & realize I could write something worthwhile before I die if only I had the drive to do so. Also watching the Benson interruption I realize I was born to befriend comedians. Not so much to do stand-up myself, but to be surrounded by humorist and give them bits of my comedy genius. Yes I shall move to hollywood & do just that (or I can just become a comedy house regular & let nature take its course)
Ok that decides it. I'm going to spend the remainder of my days at the comedy shop writing a never ending novel & buy the funniest stand ups drinks.
a look inside the mind of D
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
°•°•°•°•°•°
1 day, millions of thoughts, never ending problems. Tough times or good times the rhyme is all the same. From Florida to New York Oregon to Nebraska. Let the word spread. Not talking glory glory hallelujah no I'm speaking of the world of complete death. Down the river styx through the fire to the plains no matter how you slice it the word remains the same. Let love echo & all shall rejoice, open up your heart & mind to new experiences. Only then can you feel all the REAL this world has for you.
a look inside the mind of D
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Dustin B.'s Reviews | Stockton | Yelp
Thats right I yelp what of it?
Besides I believe myself to be witty and insightful so why not spread all this awesomeness across several forums?
Can just enough be too much
All the real GooG heads please stand up |
I often feel its best to examine ones life as if looking from the outside. Only from this vantage point can we truly start to comprehend what we have truly been through or what horrors to which we have been headed towards. With this knowledge of your existence you can help shape and guide the here and now into a much more promising future and when.
In the end all you have is your mind your body and soul. Its best to try and make it to the end with all three of these kept together as a whole.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Closing in
Looked up today & realized my twenties are drawing closer & closer to their end. 30 is right around the corner, and though I'm ready for the big 3 - 0 I am in no way trying to bring it on this fast. Oh well each day that passes draws me closer to the end of my youth & the start of my full grown ass state.
a look inside the mind of D
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Sounds like a plan
Things are what they seem & yes everything happens for a reason. Never doubt the lessons life has taught & never forget the things you have achieved. We only have so much time on this exotic rock whizzing through the cosmos; I suggest it be best to make the most of each fleeting moment. When you get knocked down lick your wounds and give it another try. Giving up has never benefitted anyone. Your best bet is to go back at it with a new better thought out gameplan.
Take these words at face value & do with them what you will. Don't claim to know all the answers, but I'm definitely on the path to a good start!
a look inside the mind of D
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Election Time
Love this day is finally here. After months of campaigning the end is here & we find out who's hard work & muck raking did the best. Now, I'm not excited cuz I have a candidate I'm pulling for or a certain measure I need to see past. No, I'm happy that the commercials will stop running the mail ads will stop littering my street & the phone will cease ringing with survey calls & recorded messages. What is most upsetting with all that is I vote by mail my decision was made weeks ago so that last minute push for votes was nothing more then an annoyance to me.
So to all those who have yet to vote I say do so with a clear head & a realistic vision of what the future can bring. No one person or proposition will save us all from the crap that's been created over the hundreds of years of this electoral process. To all my ROV peeps: miss you guys, have fun work fast & I hope you aren't drowned in the sea of PINK
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Sunday, October 31, 2010
Boo time on Boo lane
Brought on the kiddies gave out some treats. Honestly surprised we handed out ALL our goodies as the night started so slow. Apparently no one in my neighborhood felt much like being in the halloween mood. Well it's that or my entire neighborhood have recently become Giants fans. So while the game was going on no one around me seemed to be giving treats for the tricks. Even still once news of our BIG CANDY went around we had kids being bussed to our street. It's crazy seeing truck loads of costumed children rushing to your door from minivans that you've never seen before. Love this holiday for the freedom of expression & the goodies. It's all about the candy. Happy halloween everybody hope yours were decent as well.
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Saturday, October 30, 2010
Breath in Breath out
So week comes to a close. Need the next two days off as I feel myself losing touch with my laid back self. It is hard to explain the shock to ones system as they gradually shift from just not giving a damn about petty things to completely losing their cool over small stuff.
I mean silly things completely pissing me off would be like catching Matthew Mcconaughey with his shirt on during the heart of summer. This week had proven to me with age comes lack of patience. They say older & wiser, but the truth seems to be you don't gain wisdom others around you lose knowledge in your eyes. Oh well, let me just take the next 2 days to regroup so I can return to my level headed much calmer & happier self.
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Thursday, October 28, 2010
When pigs fly
Millions will be divided evenly among all those truly in need
The rich will look out for their less fortunate counterparts
Politicians will stop lying & look out for the voters before their own wallets.
America will keep it's nose out of other countries business
The casts of all reality shows will recognize the networks aren't giving you positive attention. Their personal lives are being exploited for our amusement in exchange for fleeting fame
Hollywood will produce more quality movies with real story lines & fully developed characters over big budget explosions & sex fueled teen crap
This blog will be read by more then a handful of friends & family
My bank account will resemble my social security number
All people society deems famous will be considered so due to positive actions & works
Well this has been a nice dream but as the title says these things will only happen when pigs fly.
a look inside the mind of D
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Nature
Just thinking about the day in the life of an insignificant speck. I mean does the speck believe itself to be insignificant or is that simply a distinction we gave it? Also what makes us so great that we dare determine what matters and what doesn't? Pretty bold if you ask me, but then again we are a poetry judgmental species. So much time spent deciding who's right & wrong. It amazes me how much energy we waste on such things. We may all say we are excepting but somewhere in you at one time or another harsh judgments have formed in your brain. So if you act on it or not the thoughts were still there. Don't feel bad though it can't be helped. After all it is human nature.
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Friday, October 22, 2010
+++++++
Think for yourself. Be true about your emotions. Let your guard down. Doing such things can open doors you wouldn't expect to ever budge.
Positive thought can indeed lead to positive action. If you give out good energy you attract good things. I say let the good vibes flow & see where it will lead you.
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Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Sound Advice
Don't apologize unless you ABSOLUTELY mean it. Fake sorries are useless BS which quickly get found out. Also if you only apologize when sincere it will mean so much more to the other party when they KNOW it must be real. Now I'm not saying to show NO REMORSE when you hurt someone even if you don't really care they are upset, but please don't apologize it will get you know where fast.
As they always say HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY. Of course we all know that is so much easier said then done. Of course in all honesty.... lying is MUCH harder due to the amount of follow through that's needed. Do you understand all the work that goes into maintaining a lie. When you tell the truth it NEVER changes, but the lie always keeps evolving. You have to remember what you said how you said it who you told and their reactions. You need to tailor your LIE to make sense in their reality. The greatest AUTHORS had troubles doing this but you are doing it for what an extra hour of alone time? an extra sweet treat at lunch? Maybe a little fling on the side? Are these things really with your sanity?
TAKE MY ADVICE......... just be true, honest and whole hearted. Its just so much easier and well if it makes things difficult at FIRST just keep in mind in the long run you will be much much happier in this life.
As they always say HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY. Of course we all know that is so much easier said then done. Of course in all honesty.... lying is MUCH harder due to the amount of follow through that's needed. Do you understand all the work that goes into maintaining a lie. When you tell the truth it NEVER changes, but the lie always keeps evolving. You have to remember what you said how you said it who you told and their reactions. You need to tailor your LIE to make sense in their reality. The greatest AUTHORS had troubles doing this but you are doing it for what an extra hour of alone time? an extra sweet treat at lunch? Maybe a little fling on the side? Are these things really with your sanity?
TAKE MY ADVICE......... just be true, honest and whole hearted. Its just so much easier and well if it makes things difficult at FIRST just keep in mind in the long run you will be much much happier in this life.
Monday, October 18, 2010
DaRk dArK DarK
Hard to remember but you'll never forget. We've all had the moment where we felt the pain would never pass. Where you are convinced your were put in this life just to be a cosmic whipping boy. Pain and frustration is your friend no your LOVER your ever enduring SOUL MATE. Time passes and yet the pain continues. Its a never ending pit of sadness and grief.... then you remember the bitch cheated on you and you say FUCK YOU to her and this cruel ass world HA!
Blood spilled on the ground leaving tracks in the sand. You claw at his face but you find you can't even lift a hand. You try to defend to escape to cry out, but your breath escapes without even a whimper. No weapons no hope no escape. The pain is unbearable. Blood fills your eyes you are blinded by the aftermath of his "LOVE" you wonder how you can endure this. How you have come to allow this to become your life. Then you remember you killed your wife and that's why you are in prison. Thats what you get when you make such poor decisions in your life. 24/7 ass whoppin' before the eternal damnation your pastor told you about all them years ago. Maybe next time you'd listen ass much oh well you better pray for REINCARNATION
Throw your hat into the ring. You are ready for a fight. Life is no battle it's an all out war. Get your ammo loaded be it bullets or bullshit. You can fight you can flee but no matter what you do in the end you are DAMNED. It makes no real difference the outcome has long been determined. So suck down your booze gobble your meat and just enjoy the ride cuz in no time flat you'll all be laid out not breathing while on your back. Sad thoughts depressed at this vision of the future? Too bad sometimes the truth is ugly, but it's the only way you'll learn. Then again i could be wrong. Who knows maybe it'll all turn out peaches and roses (if thats even a good combo i'm not really sure oh well)
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Lottery change my life
I love the show so why not have the lottery change things for the better for me personally. I know it's a big order asking for life to just hand me money. I know it's not likely, but a boy can dream.
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i HEART this place
Ever find yourself in a situation you had long been dreading only to find it was not so much a challenge as it was an OPPORTUNITY for the better. This is the life I lead. I'm stuck but if one is to be STUCK my situation really isn't all that bad to be stuck in. I don't like this place I so hope for the better but when it comes to better I better recognize that sometimes its all about making the BEST of a bad situation. And i think my BEST is yet to come
Friday, October 15, 2010
Thirst for knowledge
Crave for something more then you can imagine. Wonder if you can honestly endure all the obstacles life tosses in your way? Sometimes it's hard to imagine enduring all we must to survive, but still we must go on. Pursue your dream never give up never surrender. Always keep faith, hope & karma is on your side. Do what's right to ensure the best is yet to come.
Always look on the bright side of life.
a look inside the mind of D
Thursday, October 14, 2010
.$.$.$.$.$.$.
It's all about the bank roll bitches. Isn't that what all the fake ass rappers say? You the fools in the videos with the rented yachts the fake houses & the even faker bitches. Yes, I would love to make it to the level of wealth & excess. I'm not going to lie. So I say bring on the fame the booze & the bitches (ok, maybe not the bitches. I mean who wants to wake up every day itching?).
With all that said know this is a lie, I'm the realest fool you'll ever know I don't need your money to show you which is the right path for you to go. As you look ahead in this life, never forget to take the good with the bad & to get to your happy sometimes we all have to endure the strife.
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Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Been through it
Want something solid? A thought you can grasp in your hands. Something more certain then "I don't know" or "maybe" or "yeah I guess that sounds like a plan". What you want are some answers, some deeper truths in these cold dark days. Well if the truth is what you seek you need to lighten up you cold cruel gaze. Laser beam lies that cut like a knife is what I formerly gave. Tales of a prosperous future to take the heat off the investigation of my past ways. What you don't know can fill up a Canyon of the Grand scale. If you knew the hell I hold onto then you might understand the coldness of my soulless ways. Life has never been better when we sound the horn of happier days, but I've never been more bitter then I am when the dark infest into our current days. Past is never spoken Future has yet to begin & the Present seems like a gift from the most despicable of friends. In these moments in this here & now, do not be surprised when all I can do is greet you with a scowl.
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Monday, October 11, 2010
Days become nights
Though I no longer watch the nights become days. Walking through this life in a fog of misunderstanding, that's just how I tend to get things done. Never doubt the power of wonder but always question the wonder of power....NICE
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Friday, October 8, 2010
Newbie
Meeting someone new what are you to do. In the process of the get to know you phase, where life is simple and the world is full of hope. Then reality sets in "how can you truly know anyone?" There are two sides to every story right? So why should you assume the one side you have been presented of his/her life is the absolute truth. If the walls they've encased themselves could talk what would they say? Would you listen? I mean how do you know you can trust the walls. Damn plastered structures made of concrete & steel. She closes herself off completely the light of the world barely able to shine in. yet, he continues to pick at it knowing her core will be worth it. Once he is inside the you & me would become a we. Now the idea sounds good, but what of his walls what of his baggage?
Every tale has a 2nd verse.
She tests the waters to see how he feels, after all guys lie, how can she expect this one to be real. A game of trust he'd have to endure. slowly friends first it's the only way to ensure...to his word he'll be true young love is so hard that's why LUST is all the 20 somethings choose to do. So why are they different, what makes them real? Two equally damaged individuals that's the appeal. Maybe they can fix each other so they can soon be whole. Be it friendship or love a new & better life is the ultimate goal.
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Thoughts are made for thinking
Go for the gold to gain all the glory. That what drives us don't it. The need to be first in everything we do. To have all our works noticed so we may be praised and have our egos stroked.
Damn right I'm honest & I'm gonna tell you like it is. Some times the best truth is a HARSH truth. If you come around me always talking about how fat & ugly you are don't be pissed at me when I agree. Also when you do the same thing but you are clearly gorgeous, don't be upset when I accuse you for fishing for compliments. Don't deal well with shallow nor stupidity, so I choose not to. That being said if you are stupid & shallow don't be surprised if we don't speak.
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Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Knowledge Burst
Are you prepared for the rest of your life? Do you have a plan? Do you sir wear ladies underwear? Well if you answered yes to all these questions no worries theres no judgment here friend.
Work hard & stay true to yourself. No, in the end shit still ends up crappy. No matter what you do life normally find a way to screw you. Ok ok not always just most of the time
God has a sense of humor, but the problem is he always blows the joke.
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Sunday, October 3, 2010
Don't fake the funk
Just say what you mean.
Well, I'm waiting. Tell me what you told that chick last night. You remember asshole, the young thing with the tiny waist long hair & perky breasts. You told her you didn't know who I was. Yeah like you never saw me before in your life. I don't care I was on a table singing a drunken version of "Jesse's girl".. You still don't abandon your wife!
Yes, I'm pretty nervous. I mean I've never done this before. Well no not the seedy hotel, I mean they have my picture behind the desk. Speaking of that; one wild night & you get labeled for life. But anyway, this is my first blind date. I'm very happy it's ending up here. This was an amazing date. Who knew dinner & a movie would end with a trip to motel 6, damn right they left a light on for me. Why you laughing girl. Oh the wine got you feeling good? Yeah go head pour another glass cuz I'm bout to get that OOOW piece of candy.
The world is full of wonder & delight
Time waits for no one and with that I say to you goodnight
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Saturday, October 2, 2010
Phone Time
Fall guys needed apply within. Why can't we go back to the days of whipping boys. I'm not saying slaves I'm talking the highest paying jobs around. Guys & Girls who are there just to take the wrath when the shit hits the fan. That means we can live the lives we all truly want to lead. Now I'm not saying we can go around killing & stealing. No, I mean you gotta avoid breaking the BIG commandments. 7 deadly sins be damned haha. So lets start this up again. The career of the future: WHIPPING BOY/GIRL
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Thursday, September 30, 2010
Real is real
True is True. Come at life like you have nothing to lose & you'd be amazed what just may happen. You won't be disappointed, well not with yourself at least. I can promise you may become disappointed with others when you see just how fake others can be. Then again that is their problem. You'll have to find better people to associate with, but could be worse.
Real recognizes Real..... Fake is a tired concept.
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Sunday, September 26, 2010
Family is the key
The key may be the family but the question is what door will they unlock? Will your family bring you to a whole new level of understanding or do they drag you down to the muck and the grime? I personally know my family is an amazing unit that I on some levels tend to be a distant part of. Now don't feel bad for me (or get mad at me if you are a member of said family), but I feel how i feel. I love and respect every member of my family and its my bad for not having a closer relationship. Frankly I'm bad at relationships in generally, ask any of my NON WORK friends to count on their fingers how many times they've seen me in the last year and don't be surprised if they don't hold up any fingers for you. (well maybe a few of them may have 1 finger in reference to me, but what can I say they have every right to be bitter) Yeah I guess in this life I've chosen to be a loner. A self professed outsider, a mysterious stranger you just can't get your head around his existence.
Ok time to get to the real. I'm a hardcore people person who's too lazy or apathetic to truly care what people think. I'm a socializer who finds it too hard to be social when compared to being aloof. That's right I'm Daria without the clever comebacks. I'm Daffy Duck without the greed and wackiness. I'm Squidward without the annoyance of a spongebob. Obviously I'm not too socially well adjusted or else I'd have better examples of my state without referencing cartoon Characters I've paid attention too over my damn near 3 decades of life.
Oh well life is what you make it and family is the force that should help elevate you to the heights you want to reach.
Do what you do Be who you be but when you fail don't come blaming no shit on me!!!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Feet on the ground Head in the clouds
No I'm not daydreaming.... I'm just really really TALL
So up on an early morning after a decent two days off. Not too exciting to be returning to the job site, but who ever is after a nice weekend? No rush to work is the AMERICAN WAY hahaha.
I kid I kid... though I bitch about it, this still is the best job I ever had. (though not even close PAY WISE) Its a decent place to work so can't complain too much. (Oh, I CAN and WILL, but its just usually me blowing off some steam)
So up on an early morning after a decent two days off. Not too exciting to be returning to the job site, but who ever is after a nice weekend? No rush to work is the AMERICAN WAY hahaha.
I kid I kid... though I bitch about it, this still is the best job I ever had. (though not even close PAY WISE) Its a decent place to work so can't complain too much. (Oh, I CAN and WILL, but its just usually me blowing off some steam)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
We all could use superman... of course i'd prefer BATMAN
Keep in mind we all lead the life's we were born to lead. You may struggle and fight, but no matter how wrong things are going this path is always so right. Its been a tough lesson to learn but as the saying goes the lord doesn't give us more then we can handle. The trick is knowing when to face the task alone or when to call in reinforcements be it mentally spiritually or physically. Hell, we all could use a little hand every now and again.
So when the going gets tough forget about the tough get going. NO, the tough call up some friends. Preferably free thinkers who can come up with the best way to handle whatever BS is in the way. Yes I've drunk the Resto kool-aid cuz I'm all about "REMOVING ROAD BLOCKS" trick is not just the removal its all about making sure they don't resurface which I've found to often be the case.
So when the going gets tough forget about the tough get going. NO, the tough call up some friends. Preferably free thinkers who can come up with the best way to handle whatever BS is in the way. Yes I've drunk the Resto kool-aid cuz I'm all about "REMOVING ROAD BLOCKS" trick is not just the removal its all about making sure they don't resurface which I've found to often be the case.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Diva or Disaster
We all have our moments. When we decide our shine should be a bit more than all others. No matter who you are at times some part of you, no matter how big or small, craves the spotlight. The need for attention the thirst for utter devotion is a powerful force. This is why dictators dictate, why celebrities buy into their own shit, why brides go Zilla. Yes its a crazy crazy life but we all have to endure... FOR NOW
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Sunday are you kidding Sunday
This time last year I was as happy as a clam. I was prepared to sit in front of the TV and not move a muscle. Just enjoy NFL REZONE the greatest network to hit basic cable since MTV.
Oh my how things have changed in a year. I mean it's great having a job, earning money, making new friends all these things are fabulous don't get me wrong. But part of me definitely would enjoy nothing more then sitting in front of the TV & watch every minute of each opening game. Oh well, back to reality it is with me. Who knows maybe a lotto win will come in by the end of the season that way the playoffs will be 100% available to me.
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Friday, September 10, 2010
Damn silly ass music
Getting late, should already be asleep have work early in the morning, but alas rest won't reach me on this night due to some dumbass song I heard while watching Boondocks....damn you Thugnificent and your catchy song "Booty Booty Booty, booty butt cheeks....this dumbass tune will not leave my brain right now. What to do what to do when a song all about asses keeps haunting you to the core. Why oh why will it not let me be?
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*****WORDS*****
¿Que malo o que bien?
Don't know what I'm feeling but I know I'm feeling for you. Never doubt what I'm saying because when it comes to you these words are always true. Now if you're feeling what I'm feeling lady let me know. Cuz feeling how I'm feeling is devastating when felt alone.
Pretty good for spur of the moment, if only this had been true. Cuz those feelings I've spoke of definitely were not for you. Yes this is thoughts of love from the past ain't got time for anything new, up to my neck buried in the love of a lifetime if I give it up I'd be as alone as YOU
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Sunday, September 5, 2010
Holiday work
Gonna work hard to earn my extra money....who am I kidding its just another day of craziness, but hopefully a slow one. I hope for the BEST but I expect the BITCH
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Saturday, September 4, 2010
Hold your tongue
Vile dog I shall smite thee whosoever crosses the queen and her wishes.
Freaky to think those were at one point harsh troubling words. Words that started wars & blood feuds. Century old battle lines drawn simply by the turn of a phrase.
People don't seem to recognize just how powerful words can be. Simple letters on the page turn into epic poems, historical documents, and many other amazing things. The fact these words can do so much with so little effort put behind them is an amazing yet dangerous fact.
Wise words for all thinking clearly before you commit any word to the cosmos, for these little phrases you utter, write, doodle or express may just define how the world truly sees you
a look inside the mind of D
Friday, September 3, 2010
Sorry in advance
Open letter of apology for any & all who are offended by my incredible lack of giving a f*@k
"so sorry you don't approve...bitches!"
This has been a message of not giving a f@*k from the proud makes of "I couldn't give 2 shits" & "sit on it & spin asshole"©
Suck on that nimbus(meant to type numb nuts, but this will do)
a look inside the mind of D
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
*****
Wrap your mind around the fact no one is as smart as they think they are. Nor are they as clever as funny as attractive or as genuine as they say they are.
Why I mention this you ask? Its simple really, said I would be honest on here but that begs the question who is really honest? I mean who do you know if anyone that is true blue 24/7? I mean we all try to be the best people we can be, but are we not all humans so inevitably at times we all will fall short.
So I promise you this & hope you all take the same oath "I will be the best person I can possibly be within reason of course. I mean I ain't running for sainthood"
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Steady thinking
Life is full of challenges & rewards, struggle & pain, triumph & joy. Why must we deal with so much for so long no one knows. All we know is we have no choice in the matter & it sucks being powerless. I am tired of being trapped in messed up situations. Oh well one day it'll be different right?
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Keep it clean
Though it may be hard you must remain pure; in heart; in mind; in soul. Things & people will attempt to tear you down and wreck your spirit, but you must forge on. You can't allow them the power to destroy you. Fight on and make it right in the end.
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Monday, August 30, 2010
DRAMA: and the people who love it
Like to stay away from BS as much as humanly possible. When the shit his the fan I'm normally two rooms over. How do I do this with such ease, afterall drama is everywhere & often brought upon us by others. I say even with that being the case its easy to avoid. If you are an observer of people; I mean you really watch & pay attention to things going on around you; then you can see stuff coming from a mile away. Don't know where I inherited this talent from, I think it developed over time. Being a shy kid I didn't interact with a lot of people which leaves plenty of time to just sit & observe. Yeah I suppose that means I turned everyday life into a nature documentary.
I have found the older I get the more intriguing the lives of others have become. Only problem these days I get more involved with my "subjects" haha. May seem silly, but any GOOD documentarian would tell you is never bring down the third wall. (now this rule only applies to those not using their film/study/research to push their own personal agendas). As the wall comes down I'm more likely to be caught in the BS & that is the last thing I'd want to do. Getting caught up in the drama of others leaves me confused & annoyed especially if it puts me in the middle of something I have no business of being in. These are the times I pull back shy away from outside contact & hope it can all be resolved peacefully with no need for gun fire or hair pulling.
Drawing back & retreating always sounds like a good plan, but what if the "subjects" are true friends and/or close family, what do you do then?
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Sunday, August 29, 2010
Head Trauma
Ever get a headache so bad you think a bullet through the temple would be a quick relief. Now these headaches aren't necessarily some sort of medical condition or do to anything physical happening to you. No these is attributed to a pain in the neck becoming a pain in the skull. Yes the frustration level is really that high. Nothing can be said and little can be done to change the situation. It is what it IS.
So many screens so LITTLE patience |
So a warning to innocent bystanders back up off me cuz I'm liable to blow. Ok that is all this has been a friendly reminder from your friendly neighborhood maniac
Friday, August 27, 2010
Party Time
The day has come...my first company picnic EVER! I feel all grown & office-y. If only I were paid more. Hope to have fun showing my wife the people I spend everyday with. This is all my life consist of anyway her & them.
That being the case might as well let the two worlds collide.
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Monday, August 23, 2010
Do what it do
How the day went can simply be summed up by one statement, "glad that sit is over". No, everyday of your life can't be a party. There will always be some seriousness and plenty of responsibility. The question is why must that be so. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be able to kick back & relax for a full day without a care in the world. Oh well someday I'll get there I know it
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
Can't get lost if you were never found
Remember when all you needed was a bit of imagination and the world would open up to you like no other? Yes the good old days of youth. Now you look back in amazement at how free and creative you were. You wonder where that imagination has gone. I mean is it something we've lost or does it remain dormant inside? Can it be recaptured or is it simply something we all inevitably grow out of like so many things from our days of youth.
Why are we forced to work for a living? Is a LIVING something that can truly be earned. Wasn't life granted at our birth so why must we toil to make this life bearable? Understandably all things in life can't just be handed out at no cost, but who decided what those things that we should have to earn are and who sets the price for such things. Homes should be granted to all and yet that's not possible as we deemed certain accomodations can only be acquired at a certain price point. It's just a shame life can't be easy like the days of youth. Free and easy then again depends on who you ask for we all didn't share the same experiences after all.
LIFE's a BITCH and then you DO OVERTIME!!!!
Why are we forced to work for a living? Is a LIVING something that can truly be earned. Wasn't life granted at our birth so why must we toil to make this life bearable? Understandably all things in life can't just be handed out at no cost, but who decided what those things that we should have to earn are and who sets the price for such things. Homes should be granted to all and yet that's not possible as we deemed certain accomodations can only be acquired at a certain price point. It's just a shame life can't be easy like the days of youth. Free and easy then again depends on who you ask for we all didn't share the same experiences after all.
LIFE's a BITCH and then you DO OVERTIME!!!!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Senses
Though you SPEAK the truth you HEAR their lies. You FEEL betrayed by the bitter TASTE left in your mouth by your pride, but it's too late to change the future is set. You should have known the works is filled with idiots.
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Football is here
Fantasy about to start and this can mean only one thing. D's Sports Blog is about to go full swing. Yes there are a few unread posts over the past few months during football's break (it is a SPORTS blog afterall), but this is the time the blog comes alive with insight on the season as well as documenting my feeble attempts at fantasy league domination... I am a reigning champ in 1 of my yahoo leagues so maybe I'm not so feeble. Well check it out should be a good year.
All my sports knowledge in one place!
a look inside the mind of D
Just Because
Come tomorrow they will all know my name. Sounds crazy right? Damn action movies have turned this positive message of hope for acceptance into something devious. I mean they could all learn your name through positive interactions with people. Maybe you were just going to introduce yourself around the office, or were supplying the music to the office party that way they will call you DJ what's his name. Thanks to the action genre saying that line will have you more closely linked to a terrorist then a social butterfly. Oh well let's go out to the lobby and buy ourselves some SNACKS.
a look inside the mind of D
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Rush of adrenaline
Feel the surge the rush the extreme emotions behind the heightened sense of self. Push yourself to the limit in order to see your true self. Only in times of ultimate struggle do we really see what the human spirit can really endure.
Never allow yourself to get wrapped up in others crap. Let their shit stay with them, cuz you don't need their stink on you. Always enjoy the good in life but don't ignore that there will always be bad.
Well that's enough wisdom for now. Hope all enjoyed.
a look inside the mind of D
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Be careful what you wish for
Its not a problem with getting what's coming to you, no the problem is always wanting MORE then what you truly deserve in my opinion. The drive for more is what truly rules us. Our inability to be happy with what's been given will keep us forever down.
Tomorrow is a brand new day so lets make the most of it.... no damn that lets make the most of TODAY & see if we can't improve on it tomorrow. Living each day to the fullest is an exhausting task and I wish all the peppy people in the world would recognize that fact and back up off me. Screw you some days I just want to chillax at home. Superman didn't save the world EVERYDAY I mean damn!
Someday we will all be free to truly do and say what we want without fear of repercussion. Of course that day will be our last days as so much other random shit will be going on no one will give a care to what you have to do or say. That will be a LONELY and sad time for our spotlight driven masses. I mean what will the Parises and Snookis of the world do when everyone just stops paying attention at the same time. OH man the entire Kardashian empire would crumble. What a world, what a cruel sad world where reality stars get to know how it feels living in everyone Else's REALITY.
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