2011

Time has come for complete and utter change. It's a new year a new day and high time for some incredible changes. Expecting so many amazing NEW experiences for the year to come, I can't wait to see them unfold. Good things are heading this way all that is needed is a positive attitude and a will to change that which needs a change.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Work: the return

As they say another day another dollar and that's all you need to hear. With those simple words you know the person you are dealing with hates what they do on a day to day basis. The job maybe a bore or a drain. In fact it may just be one of the most soul sucking experiences in the course of human history. No matter what the cause you know for a fact they are not happy campers. Frankly this saddens and excites me. It's always sad to hate how you make your living, but think of the possibilities that lay before you in the name of CHANGE. In life there is one simple truth I'm a huge supporter of: "there always is another option!". Now many times in life those words may not feel like the truth, but in fact in every situation there are always several options. So if you find yourself in a terrible spot just do something to change it. I'm not talking bitch about it and hope it becomes durable. No, I'm talking DO SOMETHING and enact real change. So I'm calling upon all of you out there in internet land aka "the WEBIVERSE" to take charge of your lives your surroundings no your DESTINIES and see what you can make of it.


- a look inside the mind of D -

All or Nuthin'

Ready or not I'm about to come, entering your mind with these words written with my thumbs. Texting the wave of the future which is quickly becoming the past. All the old folks continue to swear this trend will never last. We all know trends of the past are never done. Just check out the girls still rocking bell bottoms and let us not forget the silly wannabes still popping and locking like some hip hop nuns. Written words floating around cyberspace makes me feel oh so cool. Knowing these words can be seen by some delinquents in New Zealand while that skip out on school.


Imagine that being the international cause of teenage delinquency. Wonder if that is what it will take to get me the international fame I so desire. Hey I say if you are going to be famous might as well be INFAMOUS. As long as you are reading I will enjoy, my words getting out there no matter who no matter what attention is all I know. Unlike in the past only positive I will crave. I've taken it upon myself to now shut up and behave. Happiness is all I feel as I write this. Being a scribe an author poet philosopher is the top of my to do list. So heed my words of wisdom knowledge thought and happiness, never give up on your dreams frankly all people should just try this.
- a look inside the mind of D -

Location:Boo Ln,Stockton,United States

Work in progress

Maybe it's just me working on my own progress. Entering into tomorrow without forgetting the lessons of today. That's the real key to making improvements in life. Moving forward without totally abandoning the lessons of the past.



That being said with the many lessons I have learned in these 29 5/6 years of lie the old debate is back on. Where shall we go as we move forward? Stay up north or move down to the golden south?


Over the past 3 years a mighty big list of pros and cons has been compiled with the southland having a slight edge in our book of life. Yes the back and forth has been a bit maddening, but we do it because we are so concerned about pleasing our other half. Well that's all fine and dandy but the time has come for a decision to be made.
Southern Cali is where we are definitely bound, no more if ands or buts. The maybe this or maybe thats are out the window. Dedication & focus are the tools necessary for the newest leg of my life journey. Do I have these traits in enough abundance to make this a doable step in the progression of us? So with the decision being made the next REAL step to making this move happen is zeroing in on which SoCal city we will call home. Do we go OC style? Venice....Hollywood....or downtown LA you know a lovely ghetto adjacent home. Personally I've been a fan of NO HO (North Hollywood) for awhile, but only time will tell on what is and isn't doable.
Wish us luck I have a real feeling 2011 is going to be one insane year in the life of D.

All smiles

Ready to write for a whole new era. Ready to express all the things I need to tell ya. Free from the strings free for it all love and enjoyment is it for one though we would like it to be for us all.




Smiles for one Smiles for all. Happy with my now and my then. You should be honored anytime anyone worthwhile can call you FRIEND!
- a look inside the mind of D -

Location:Mist Trail Dr,Stockton,United States

Greatest Xmas ever

Without fail this has been the best holiday I've had in my 29 years of living. The time has come to put childish things behind me this is true, but who says a grown ass man can't enjoy some of the simpler things in this life. I'm far too happy right now having gotten everything I needed and/or wanted. With these new goods I feel I can now enter my 30s with a new kind of focus on my near future then I ever had at anytime in my 20s. So let's all celebrate and enjoy our friends family and loved ones. I'm going to play with this new toy in order to master all it's possible applications for my life.


- a look inside the mind of D -

1st iPad post

Do to the awesomeness of my wife I now have an easier way to express myself on the go. Plenty of people have this fabulous tool at their disposal, not sure what they all have planned, but as for me this is what it will be all about. After all I write therefore I am. So I will continually write every chance I get. I'm happy to say this wonderful device has now given my writing a new lease on life & I'm just warning you all be prepared to be completely annoyed with my happy happy ass!

......How to Clear writers block.........

Yes it's true I have come up with the ultimate cure for writers block. It's quite simple really. All one must do is simply stop attempting to make sense and just let ANYTHING and i mean ANYTHING flow. Yes I say just go out of your way to simply put something down. It doesn't matter what as long as your mind is churning out something that just means you are alive. Frankly I'm happy to keep on LIVING. That's all you have to do. Eventually the ideas will come alive once you get all the meaningless crap out of the way. Once you let your mind free you'll be amazed at all the crap you have stocked away up there.  Just the first things that come to your mind let it out and you'll be amazed to see what will follow.
Things like song quotes..... 

"I'm dumb she's a lesbian I thought I'd found the one. 

We were good as married in my mind but married in my mind was no good. 

Oooh PINK TRIANGLE on her sleeve.

Now I know the truth now I KNOW the TRUTH"

It really doesn't matter how random the thoughts or quotes are as long as they are out. That song had been stuck in my head for hours for absolutely NO REASON, but putting it down forces it out. Now I can possibly get a clear thought to shine through ya know.  Hmm seems things still aren't moving. Lets see what else I have stashed away up here.  Hmm maybe this plan doesn't work as well as I'm thinking it does, but in the end as long as I'm writing something down I'm a happy happy man. 

"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world" - Buddha 

Time waits for no one

As we go forward never forget eventually all things must come to a close. Be it good or bad  with time all things do pass.

So xmas is upon us,  t-minus 4 days & counting until my first gifts  will be open. Yes the wedding anniversary & xmas combo is the equation for awesome good times. Can't wait until my check &  the following final shopping spree of the season. Going to load  up on some goodies the significant other should enjoy. Now the question is what does she have in store for me?

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Love her movies

Not ready to call this girl "sexy" Funny YES interesting look YES sexy ummmm

Emma Stone In W Magazine

Is it just me or does it look like she is ready to whoop someone's ass? I guess she'd be intimidating if she weren't a twig HA!

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Coming to a close

FULL BLOWN ADULT STATUS NOW

It's almost over. The time is creeping away. The youthful soul is strong but the shell grows closer to being OLD. Yes I know 30 is just the beginning not close to an end. Midlife around the corner, but the crisis may have already begun. 
Where am I going? What will I do? Am I truly good enough? Why do I do the things I do? These are the thoughts that constantly repeat in this brain of mine, when I was twenty these were just passing notions but as soon as I hit thirty dealing with these questions will take up the majority of my time.  Might as well start on them now. Might as well prepare to grab true answers.  In your 30s it's time to get to the Real of everything. 20s is time for thoughts and exploration 30s will be time for REALITY and RESPONSIBILITY (yeah doesn't sound to fun to me either).  So This is what I've decided to rededicate myself to doing what is BEST and will work best for me and my family. My 30s will bring me my prosperity. Of course I'm not thirty for another 58 day give or take a day (thats right age is making my math mind fade...ok time for some BRAIN AGE gaming). Well until my almost 60 days are up I'm going to milk all I can out of the remainder of my 20s. Yup some more flighty thoughts will be had and a possible random impulse will be acted upon here and there. So I bid you adieu 20s you've treated me well. 3os don't you go getting to excited not quite ready to welcome you. 

"Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter."  - Mark Twain

they said what?!?!?!

"There maybe a limited amount of perfect breasts in this world but why should I allow the memory of mine be tainted once gravity gets a hold onto them?" - KD

"ya know... I've always said that when a person is right there on the edge of completely giving up god sends an angel to remind us why we're here...." - WC

"Ja Rule is going to jail for gun charges... i would of thought it would have been for MUUUUURRRRDDDDDDAAAAA" - BK

"What's that you say, Bed? Blanket is being mean to you again? Sounds like I need to separate you two. Good night..." - DH

"92% of Americans celebrate Christmas. That's 7% more than Americans who are Christian. So, if there ever was a war on Christmas, it's over. Christmas won" - ER

Pretty eventful week for the people in my life. As you can see I surround myself with an odd bunch. Some wise & deep others funny & insightful; I work hard to avoid the shallow and fake, but when you get right down to it I'm sure I have enough of those surrounding me as well. It has taken nearly 3 decades of living to accept this fact: I'm a SOCIAL BUTTERFLY! Yeah that's right I crave people around me all the time. All types of folks with all kinds of different backgrounds. Yes in my younger days I would chalk these feelings up to wanting to be a writer and needing the people i drew around me simply as case studies. You know real life characters to inspire my fictional ones, but as the years have past I have come to realize there is so much more to it then that.

No these surrounding souls are all part of a bigger picture of my life. Not just examples of what could be, but amazing proof of the amazing life that IS. No matter what you think of the people you encounter day to day know this "You make a difference in every life in some way no matter how small". As corny as that may sound to you I truly do believe in that fact. There is nothing further from the truth then that. You've heard of the butterfly effect? Well your day to day interactions with people BIG or SMALL is the tsunami of the soul the butterfly welled up. With each passing glimpse, cordial hello, or hand shake or hug changes were made whether you know it or not. All this being said is simply summed up as this. WE ALL MATTER to SOMEONE SOMEWHERE. Now having this bit of info is a great thing to have. No matter how down you can get or how alone you may feel at any given point just think on that fact. YOU MATTER and trust me all will become right. 

A glimpse inside the mind of D

Future never foretold

As this year melts into the next only one thing is for certain, time has no tells. The future is unknown just as how we will look on our recent past is uncertain. Things that may seem rosey may not be as the now turns to the past. To move forward cleanly they say don't look back, but I ask if you never look back how can you appreciate how far you've come. Possibilities are endless as future options remain wide open.  Things don't close until you get right at the threshold of tomorrow. Once tomorrow turns into today then our future will be now & the present will fade into the realm of distant memories.

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The best strip ever!

Honestly this is my favorite Sinfest so far. I love political satire simply cuz I hate politics. This breaks down what we do on a nation so well I've got to put this shit up don't I?

All in the name of FREDOOM!

Love is Pain and pain is frequent

She's ready for battle. She's ready for war. She won't go down without a fight. You may think you've won but she's thirsty for more you may think its over but its just BEGUN. There is no point in running, hell there ain't nowhere to run. You think she does this for pride? Shit no she does it for fun. She entered your life to penetrate your heart. Not with emotions NO a bullet is how she starts. Fear if you must beware if you can. She doesn't need you. She only allows you around simply for amusement. Beware this girl she will destroy your soul. Beware her touch her song her smell and her taste. Love is her name and her ultimate weapon is FATE.

Bitter much? Maybe, but who hasn't felt the sting. Love is joyous but it too can be the most painful thing. Why should love be so hard? Why this natural institution damned upon us to preserve the species is such an epic torture only God knows. I figure heaven could be boring if they didn't have the prime time drama that is our LOVE LIVES to watch from on high. Who knows why all I know is it becomes increasingly difficult to understand love & all the age and wisdom that comes with time still doesn't clear up the overall snap shot that is LOVE.

Her beauty is dangerous

! BEWARE !

She loves to watch them burn.

So just be safe and watch your back. That girl is dangerous and she leads you down a path of disaster. She knows you will come chasing after her. She knows you can't resist her charms she knows that her every movement draws you closer to your demise but the problem is you can't see it. You are far to busy getting lost in her eyes. Beware the girl, Beware her talk, Beware her ways and beware her intentions.

Who am I kidding the second she smiles you are a goner boy, you might as well enjoy it while you can. Around the corner will be your epic end.

MAYBE THERE IS HOPE

Christmas is a comin'

Tis the season that everyone loves... No matter who you are no matter your faith you must admit this time of year there is a certain magic in the air. People are nicer, kids can be sweeter, life is magical always but christmas is especially blessed. 

My fave holiday is halloween, but I must admit christmas is the most meaningful. It is a time for giving loving & laughter for all

Drink some nog sneak a kiss no time in life will ever be as good as this...until next year that is.

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Issues: we all got em

OK now after a fun filled work day (no sarcasm, finally enjoying myself every now and again) think i can write with a bit more clarity. We all have our moments where the world seems upside down, and I'm sure many out there in internetland aka the WEBIVERSE are going through it now.... heed my advice: Just stop trying to make sense of it. Yeah, that's the best advice i have for you. Life would be so much simpler if people would allow control to be lost and just go where life is trying to lead. The world has been rotating for millions of years before you were even thought of, why not trust it to do its thing and just let things happen naturally?
I know i can sound like an acid dropping hippie but man just ride the wave guys... The ebb and flow of life is meant to be float float floated on not battled against. Why make waves in the kiddie pool you'll get wet either way HA!

pre work thinking

"PERFECT HARMONY"

Life is a balancing act, and try as I might my Sanity is on the tipping point. I see the edge it grows closer and closer. I feel myself losing grip. I open my eyes to the truth for my mouth tells so many lies words lose all meaning. Ending this reality to enter into some sort of fantasy seems best...if only it weren't for those men with the straight jackets, then I would be free to lose it just to see how that goes. Confused much? Distraught? Maybe a little hyper active while dealing with things the mind can't grasp? 
You know it may just be this movie infecting my brain. Why watch things about people going off the deep end while you see the deep end approaching you in real life? Guess that's just the crazy stuff I do that makes D well D! So that's enough writing it down to flush it out of my head. That's enough venting to an endless abyss of hidden faces. That's enough expressing what i feel to everyone who is willing to read words on a page. And this has been more then enough to send my patience for improvement to go scurrying away in a rabid fit of rage hahaha

Why we write

Words on the screen a page to an open book that is a peak into the soul of the writer.  Be it dark or joyous; love-filled or lame. The soul the story reveals is a beautiful treat.  The ins & outs the ups & downs of their lives and experiences. The stories, poems, jokes, articles & yes blogs give the reader the distinct opportunity to truly know a stranger on a very deep level.

Go back and read these stories and notes and just see what you can learn. What eye opening details can be found in between the lines.  As they say the devil is in the details, but heaven can be found in the expressing of thought.


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Do unto others ¤or¤ Do for others

Of course some of us don't mind abuse so I think those are the bastards to avoid. They don't mind taking crap so it gives them every right to dish it out. Watch yourselves people, life is full  of bitches who happily dive bomb your life in attempt to end your good times. Never let anyone take your power to enjoy your life.  Life is meant  to be enjoyed not just tolerated. To be exhilarating not stagnant. Go forth & live for all those who never truly lived before you. Lead your own life, but live enough for three others!

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Stress relief

Power through & deal. Yes life can be maddening & people down right insane. All you can do is work hard to make it through the day without committing a felony. Murder may not be easy but assault is oh so tempting. So I say do whatever it takes to avoid jumping off the edge & hurtling toward an abrupt end to what had been a pretty positive life.  Some read, some run others lose themselves in fantasy...I write. So here it goes:

BACK UP OFF ME YOU UBER CONTROLLING PSYCHOS BEFORE I SUMMON THE LORDS OF AWESOME TO SMITE THEE.

Oh so much better now haha...and now I return to my regularly scheduled program.

a look inside the mind of D