Blessed be

Ever have a day which does nothing but bring you down? Ever wonder why me, how did my life become what it has become?


During those time always remember things will soon look up. There are blessings to be had and in time they shall all find their way to you. Positive attitude and a positive outlook leads to positivity all around you. Meaning be good and good things will happen. Stop being punks and bitches and wondering why nothing ever goes the way you want. No worries life will always return to you what you give to it. Karma is no joke, whether you believe or not it's all about the GOLDEN RULE: do unto others as you would have them do unto you.


When all else fails never forget the time tested mantra "calm blue ocean". These three words have done wonders for so many. That being said I, in order to be a more positive person, have fully dedicated myself to the idea of relocated to the southern California coastline. Be it OC living, Long Beach, Venice Beach, hell even sticking out like a sore thumb in Malibu; I will indeed move closer to said calm blue ocean.
- a look inside the mind of D -

So sorry

Love 'em and leave 'em that's how you play? It's good for the night but can never last in the light of day? The yearning stops the desires quenched so throw the used up body into your lost passions trench. The thrill's gone by the morning and it stays away until the night. Loving in the evening but all day you fight. Crimes of passion happen when desires go unfilled in the night. Best to quench the thirst of your lusts and desires for danger arises when you are unable to put out those fires. Just saying my very best advice, Bad Girls and Dirty Boys will most likely live the longest though not fulfilling lives!

- a look inside the mind of D -

Oh you didn't know?

Your ass better CALL SOMEBODY.....
You really thought I wasn't going to make mention of a college team bearing my Family Name kicking ass in the NCAA Tournament? I mean come on, that begs to be spoken on
BUTLER is AWESOME  and if you don't believe me on that you should read some stats, catch some highlights sometime I'm telling you.  Oh and just so you know this awesomeness goes back farther then just this year to any that don't pay attention. Trust I spoke on this topic in the appropriate forum as well, but as that one doesn't garner as much attention as this one I figured I should express my joy in two locations.
Deeper thoughts can be viewed HERE

Things I'm a thinking (while I should be a workin)

First thing: Why the hell am I here at 5 am? I mean I'm so tired of being in a position that I'm a slave to the Eastern time zone. Its Saturday do they really need their calls answered at 8 am local time. Would 10am their time really hurt them? I mean come on. And better yet if they do need 8 am EST then why not have the center located in that time zone get up and handle it? No lets make the suckers out west roll out of their nice warm beds at the butt crack of dawn to handle our LOCAL clientele... Shenanigans I say, pure and utter rubbish that is!

Secondly:I'm so ready to be elsewhere its utterly ridiculous. I mean this life hasn't been all that bad, but my  new and improved SoCal life has so much promise I'm itching to get into it already. Yeah I'm going to be starting over making new friends and away from the things I already know, but fortunately being as I've been in Stockton I'm not leaving anything I love as I can't stand the city in which I reside.

Third: I tend to wonder why things are never as they seem. Friends who say they are friends tend not to be so friendly when the chips are down. And the ones who you most alienate are some of the truest people you possibly could ever meet. Think on that for a moment why don't ya.

Fourth: Frankly there is no fourth as my mind tends to draw a blank here. I guess that's what they mean by MIND NUMBING JOB cuz buddy my mind she is GONE!

Jobber vs All-star

Who are you?


It's all about the earning. Making that cash the best way you can. We all have our roles in this world. Now it's not about the bank role this is about the part you play in the workload day to day. Simply put everyone who works can fall in three categories
Jobbers
All-stars
Never was
Jobbers and All-stars are the keys to all workplaces. Simply without them there is no company. Now the difference between the two is simple. Jobbers show up to work and do just that, they work. They do all that's asked of them and are consistently dependable. All-stars however come to work and they shine. They do everything a jobber would and then some. Jobber may give you a solid 8 everyday an all-star will give you a steady 11 hours at least 3 days a week and 1 of their days off when needed. Jobbers are known and praised by mid-level management; all-stars are on the owners lip. These are the two sets of people anyone should be proud to be called. Now the never was on the other hand are the groups of people who we all know and can't stand. They are simply around sucking up air and making everyone else look like stars. They are 1 or 2 mistakes away from the unemployment line. These are the guys and gals who may be the coolest friends you will make but can easily be the worst coworker you would ever know. That my friends is insanity which makes work drag on and on.
So that's how I see it thus far. 30 years of life and 16 years of working this is simply what I have observed. Like it or not you most likely fall into one of these categories. So the question is who are you and do you want to change it?
I know who I am and trust depending on the location I've been all three in the last 16 years. So think what you may but this is just how I feel.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Just another silly Sunday

Who enjoys working the weekend really? I mean it has its pluses and minuses, but for the most part the entire experience is a negative. Yes its great being off during the week where you can do things out and about in peace, but there is a definite catch of not being able to do so with any friends and family outside of the people you work with who just happen to have the same schedule as you. There is definitely such a thing as too much quality time amongst former strangers ya know.
Honestly the weekend wasn't always a bad time to work. Used to be the time where you felt free to work at your own pace and enjoy the chosen few around you burdened with the same or similar schedule. Then change came. Weekends became as hectic as the regular weekday grind. Just as much work, just as many bosses hovering over your every move, same stress worse days. This I feel must stop. I crave for the days of old. The weekend was my getaway from the insanity of the "regular" work week. That was the only reason I didn't mind losing out on both weekend days, but with things the way they are now I'm happy to become the regular day Joe in order to become a much happier WEEKEND WARRIOR. Now yes I'm not super big on strenuous activity so I won't be mountain biking or off road racing anytime soon; even still I will definitely and happily make time to reconnect with my Mon - Fri 9 to 5 buddies out there given the chance to be free on the weekend. Will this ever happen who knows really. All I know is the utter insanity of the hectic crazy weekend must stop and stop now
THANK YOU Cosmos please hear my cries!!!

OK enough of the bitching, its almost my start of the week/WEEKEND. What to do what to do, if only the rain would resist washing away my plans then I could forever be a much much happier man.

Freeing Thoughts of fleeing the future

So much goes unspoken, words remain unsaid, these secret feelings are the only thing keeping you from the land of the dead. The living never appreciate what they have until it's gone, but the dead savor life so much they can taste it. Yes the risen dead take lives so the living can appreciate it more. So many people walking around not understanding the blessing they've been given, a feeding demon or a gnawing zombie will most definitely make you appreciate your life much better.
So all these fear of the dead rising to reclaim this world is ludicrous. They don't come to simply rule nor feed. They come to show you the way to the truth. LIFE IS PRECIOUS. So it would probably be best to go out and live it to the fullest wouldn't you think?

DAMN RIGHT IM READY!!!

I'm ready to run my fat ass far far away. When you get right down to it these harbingers of pain and a gory death can't be reasoned with, and personally I'm un easy around guns so until I become one with my samurai sword I'm pretty much a goner when the undead rise.
- a look inside the mind of D -

Women, Ladies, Girls, Chicks, Gals

Absolutely great song in honor of silly women everywhere:



Girls - all I really want is girls
And in the morning it's girls
Cause in the evening it's girls
I like the way that they walk
And it's chill to hear them talk
And I can always make them smile
From White Castle to the Nile
Back in the day
There was this girl around the way
She liked by home-piece M.C.A.
He said he would not give her play
I asked him, "Please?" - he said, "You may."
Her pants were tight and that's ok
If she would dance - I would D.J.
We took a walk down to the bay
I hope she'll say, "Hey me and you should hit the hay!"
I asked her out - she said, "No way!"
I should have probably guessed her gay
So I broke North with no delay
I heard she moved real far away
That was two years ago this May
I seen her just the other day
Jockin' Mike D. to my dismay


Girls - to do the dishes
Girls - to clean up my room
Girls - to do the laundry
Girls - and in the bathroom
Girls - that's all I really want is girls
Two at a time - I want girls
With new wave hairdos - I want girls
I ought to whip out my - girls, girls, girls, girls, girls!
- Beastie Boys

Of course some girls are more dangerous then others:




Blow the dust off this record and put the needle down slow
Our veins are cold, but we'll never grow old
Let's have a toast and raise our drinks
No hearts on our sleeves, just eagles on our cuff links
It's such a rush to know you love me so much
We'll do whatever you want to
Girl, I'll make a movie star of you
You know that I could
If you let me be your Hollywood


We'll get high and hide
We are lovers to the glamorous
White girl so fine
Going up on the downtown line
We'll get high and hide
We are lovers to the glamorous
White girl so fine
Going up on the downtown line
Take your razor, break down my line
Put your nose to the speaker
Now breathe in
Clean up your nose and face the crowd
Then kiss your mirror 'cuz we're all stars now
Isn't it fun how music makes your lips numb
We'll do whatever you want to
Girl, I'll make a movie star of you
You know that I could
If you let me be your Hollywood


We'll get high and hide
We are lovers to the glamorous
White girl so fine
Going up on the downtown line
We'll get high and hide
We are lovers to the glamorous
White girl so fine
Going up on the downtown line
Take your razor, break down my line
Put your nose to the speaker
Now breathe in


We'll get high and hide
We are lovers to the glamorous
White girl so fine
Going up on the downtown line
We'll get high, and hide
We are lovers to the glamorous
White girl so fine
Going up on the downtown line
- Gym Class Heroes

- a look inside the mind of D -

Think thought Thunk PUNK

Always look ahead!


Attack this life like a rabid monkey. Must go for the gold in every situation. We are all winners no matter how many loses we must endure. You may feel like you will never come out ahead, but trust in this if you think act and feel success you will breed success. Life is full of struggle no one gets out without their share of nicks and scratches. The point is to power on through the madness in order to achieve the greatness for which you had persisted on for. Not all classic sayings are correct. Good things don't come to those who wait. No you must work hard to achieve all the great things you want out of life. Nothing great in life comes without some work involved. So do what you gotta do to get where you are going. Whatever you need to do I say do it and do it fast my friends.
- a look inside the mind of D -

What we haven't left behind

Feelings
Nothing more then Feelings
Trying to forget my
FEELINGS of HATE!
Imagine beating on your face
Trying to forget my
FEELINGS of HATE!
- the Offspring

As time approaches for change. The BS meter is getting tired of staying on high. Tired of shoveling the shit for something that we all know is coming to a close
Tired of breaking our backs for a place that has never truly appreciated what it is we do (no matter what they may say. Appreciation needs to be SHOWN not just spoken)
So as the final chapter comes to a close we are all ready to start a new book. Hopefully a much better more fulfilling book. We all know greatness is in the cards, we simply hope we are playing with the right deck next time.

Look to the skies

Open your eyes and take in the heavens before you. The skies open up before your eyes and give way to the glory of the beyond. Hark from the heavens the end draws near, not with a whisper nor gasps and you need not fear. Your fate has been decided long ago and try as you may you are far from pure as the driven white snow. So what will you do when the clouds open wide and your near future becomes clear it will not go far. Do what you must but never lose faith, trust your end will be swift and just. Things are what they will be and if you stay true to you I'll stay good to me.
- a look inside the mind of D -

What about what?

Emotions at times can not be controlled. They cannot be predicted nor kept. We all have meet that one person that has made us question everything we thought we knew when it comes to our emotions. Be it loving feelings or blinding hatred someone has rocked you fully to your being. 1 special someone who shaped who you are by making you rethink who you thought you were.
So i challenge you to think. Think what this person said or did that pushed you to those limits whatever it was they were. Remember the time that you found yourself serenading them outside their apartment door, or were you slashing their tires in hopes to get their attention. Was this a blinding obsession inducing experience or seething hatred leading to the threat of possible jail time. Whatever be the case remember and reminisce on the times... Back In the Day!

Thoughts

Thinking out loud on good versus bad. No matter how you slice it no one comes out on top. I mean the winners have all been predetermined. Evil will start out with a sizeable lead, but in the end good shall prevail. It has been written that way since the beginning of time. Makes for beaten down demons and uninspired angels. I mean knowing the outcome really makes you wonder, who chooses the wrong side from the get go. If you know what will happen why even bother acting like there is a real choice to be made.

a look inside the mind of D