<><>~Mistakes~<><>

Woke up in the future unsure of what happened in the past. Everyday we gain a bit of our pasts are forgotten. There are times when lost memories are a real asset to our sanity. We all have people places or things we would love to forget. Of course you must think long and hard before you take the leaps and bounds of erasing chunks out of your life. Good or Bad all our experiences shape who we are. I have a pretty decent list of things that I consider bad experiences in my life, but as I approach 30 I finally feel I can put a positive spin on each one.

Abandoned Baby

Yes it's true I was a cute 3 month old boy that someone left behind at highland hospital in Oakland. It hurts feeling unwanted and not knowing who or where I come from. Of course if this had never happened I would never have been in the local newspaper. My Mom would have never heard of me and she and my dad would have never adopted me into the most amazing family. Though I may not always be the best Butler in the world I'm very happy to be part of the amazing clan that is my family.

High School

What began as an amazing time full of promise and friends (De La Salle) turned into a hell hole (Bishop O'Dowd) full of loneliness, boredom, an amazing amount of fake people and a relationship that should have never been. Of course as I got older I came to the realization that I was far from the only one who felt the same way. This knowledge has given me a bond with a few pretty awesome people from that joke of an institution.

W (pain with international flair)

This was my first real relationship. It proved to be a huge headache that lasted three years and in the end proved to be little more then a waste of time and a drain on my bank account. These three years brought on a bunch of pain and doubt into my life, but it also brought me 2 truly great things. First, it brought me the best fake little sister you could ever want. Eva proved to be fun caring and super smart. Though her sister is far from being on my list of worthwhile people whereas Doc Eva is very near the top. Secondly, once the three years were up and I was left confused, devastated, and though I felt relief I was lost. Things would have been much worse if it weren't for my friendship with she who I call M Diggy. She was a kind soul willing to listen and help me get through the rough patch between the first and guide me onto the next.

Vegas

This was supposed to be a most amazing experience. The opportunity of a lifetime. Moving to Vegas on my own with real estate in hand and opportunity all around. At least that was the plan. Reality of the situation was much much harsher. Job market was very thin. Yes casino around every corner but they all want you to have strip experience. Of course it's impossible to gain such experience if no casino will give you a shot without said experience. Outside gigs are few and far between. I got one job that was ok though. Bass Pro where I made a few decent friends, but the place was run by a moron who allowed his Nazi of a buddy to ruin the store. If you are still living Frank you can still SUCK IT ASSHOLE. Now all these experiences were bad and I mean really bad. Vegas resulted with me broke. Creditors on my ass. I've now serves jail time (10 days for driving with a suspended license and expired tags), spent a week in the hospital (learning you're a diabetic the hard way is NO BUENO) and lost a few friends along the way. All this was horribly bad, but without this hideous jacked up city I would have never ended up with my most amazing wife NICOLE BLAKE-BUTLER and that makes all the anguish the city caused meaningless.
Life is full of surprises ups and downs. You must learn to take the good with the bad. Because no matter how bad things may seem the good I mean when it gets really good the bad ain't shit.
- a look inside the mind of D -