Still going

May not be safe but I still keep going. Frankly I challenge the ideas of what's deemed "work appropriate" and who's job it is to determine. I understand every conversation should stay work related to be considered professional, but what if your work environment has real trouble staying proper in itself. Recognize I've seen some of the most ridiculous things done by so called management that it's hard to take what they feel is appropriate seriously. These managers are the same people that do things with their little bit of power that would have them railroaded out of town in other positions. Bosses who use blatant favoritism for all personnel decisions and overlook those who deserve greater opportunities. Managers who turn blind eyes to basic injustices inflicted on low level employees. Managers who view hourly employees like some kind of insects to be avoided. These shitty examples of humanity have the nerve to turn around and question our actions though. That just pisses me off on so many levels. Problem is no matter how pissed you may get there is just no changing it. This is just how working life is. Especially now that the Global economy has tanked, anyone working outside the protections of unions or government law are just damned to deal with stupidity inflicted on them by big business that couldn't give less of a damn about them.


If only life were as easy as comics. Then and only then would we have real power. Well until that day we must suck it up and deal, but when the revolution finally comes I'll happily lead a force into battle. We are the real 99% not some college kid camping on a lawn. Talk to a 20 year vet of the customer service game who is keeping them down and I'd doubt wall street would be at the top of their list. The supervisor who denied their vacation so the sup's cousin could go with them to Vegas would most likely be at the top of the list.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Its Drawing near

 The smiles will be short lived. The time is approaching. We at this point are unsure of the cause or what will spread the virus/infection/doomsday disease, but we do know one thing; when the time comes each and everyone of us need to be prepared for battle. As much as we love the idea of teaming up to fight a common enemy this grim tomorrow will invoke the rule "SURVIVAL of the FITTEST". And no I'm not talking runner and health nuts will be best suited for the disaster. You can only run so long from impending doom in all honesty.  (@pavementrunner: Love you man but a steady 10k will only save you so long when the undead come to feast on that ass).  The day is approaching, the question is will you or any of us truly be ready. Been watching Doomsday Preppers and as far as I can tell these people are ready to kill, but sadly they don't have the sense to realize what they'd be killing for. So many guns and so much food stocked up for fear of the unknown. What people fail to realize a shot to the head of  angry undead is harder then it sounds when all the wild shit goes down. So as time approaches and a movie like horror befalls us no man woman or child is safe. No religion that involves us can save you from the horrors that are to come. I write this not to scare but simply prepare. Not like these psycho preppers ready to kill their cat if it threatens their food supply. No prepare your mind body and soul for what will be needed when the time comes. The infection will spread to all those around. Your dog will be a hound of hell, your Nana will bey at the moon like a Killer Clown (MCL all day everyday since '95 baby baby). Craziness has surrounded us since the beginning of time, you'd think we'd be used to it, but this is a new level of crazy. Movies glorify the insanity, but if its even a quarter as bad as even the dumbest gorefest society as a whole wouldn't know what to do. 

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So keep smiling ladies
Keep your safety dreams alive
The end is approaching you quickly
When the first dead rises and the biting, tearing, gnashing of teeth begins you will read these words and fall in line my friends.
In order to survive we do whatever we can to stay fresh cheerful and alive.

some things worth saying

Power in words. 
Power in context
Read between the lines to see the hidden truth
Truth is freedom and with freedom comes responsibility
Responsibility is the backbone of adulthood
The sharply pointed backbone we all must endure and embrace though it's never as easy at it seems
Responsible people lead responsible lives, but what kind of existence is that
Huge mistakes lead to HUGE life lessons
To live is to learn 
Life's lessons are what makes the living worth it
So i'll take my lessons take this life and embrace the mistakes of the past to ensure a brighter more educated future. 

Continues...

Can't sleep. World of doubt infesting my brain. Big things need to happen and no longer looking for a vague time table. This week. The end of this week. Close of March must bring us, ME, positive changes. Nothing small and meaningless, no, I demand major overhaul to the path on which I currently stroll. This isn't my life. This is an illusion of the here and now I've stumbled upon. This isn't me. This is an imposter pretending to be someone I never intended to be. My direction, meaningless, was to be onward and upward more forward then back. So why look back on yesterday with hopes of tomorrow. No repeats, no more do overs. Play it again Sam is played out. A new tune needs to be pushed forward on this jukebox of life. Everywhere there is pain. No, misery does not follow me. Emptiness, blahs and HO hums are the name of this game. Tired of being numb to an ever drearier world. Thoughts of a better tomorrow propels me forward into the void, but all I see before me is more grays. Grey, damned be American English, is the color of the world. Nothing has ever truly been all black and white. So why be surprised with so much horror in our day to day reporting. Murder Death Kill scream the headlines. Injustice Cruelty Intolerance are growing ever stronger. Everyone preparing for the end of times which the Good Book says cannot be prepared for. If we are to meet our end why allow such negativities to exist. Why keep the hatred game going. Why not love your fellow man as well as yourself. Why not? It's simple, we aren't wired that way. So maybe to escape the horror the boredom the grays that's what I'll need to do with my week. Time to rewrite myself and in turn help rewire the world. Majore change coming and it starts with the individual.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Speaking on speech well Text

Smile like you mean it
When I say mean it I MEAN IT
What does that mean?
Am I just being MEAN?
Or maybe I'm demanding you find my meaning through meanness?

I demand a lot of my reader. My mind is wired differently then most. My words have deeper meaning then most, but getting to the point is the trick to the puzzle that is me. I can go on for days about what's troubling me but sadly if I don't focus these thoughts it could take months to decipher. I apologize for the trouble but assure its worth the journey. I try and make it sensible, but then i realize nothing in this world is altogether SENSIBLE. What seems logical or sensible often when looked upon with fresh eyes are either flawed or heartless. We are not logical beings. Mechanized beings of logical computations we are NOT. So, that being sad, I've decided to write on PURE EMOTION. Emotions are crazy free radicals that shall not be contained. They flow from me like water over Niagara's edge. So why change my natural inclinations to fit in some mold I never have nor never will understand? So with that being said I simply do what I feel and what I feel is SURE MADNESS.  

Picture worth a thousand words

The kid was murdered. It WAS racialy motivated. The authorities dropped the ball and EVERYONE needs to be held accountable.
Sadly nothing changes. The South is still the south and the world still runs on RACISM.

Enough Said

- a look inside the mind of D -

Sports Talk

Loving all the drama in the last week of Sport. D Howard drama was all for naught. Manning found a new home in Denver which means Tebow time has to hit the road. 49ers loaded up for Manning, only to be denied, so now the pressure is on Alex Smith to preform Manning-esque (newly loaded WR core means no more excuses). During all the lovely drama of Manning one of the best receivers of the past Decade (14 years exactly) has called it quits after the team he gave his all for quit on him. Love it or Hate it the NFL has long ago stopped being a league of loyalty. Unlike the NBA, which is more often players betraying the teams/city that helped build them up, the NFL owners are quick to dump their aging pieces no matter how much blood and sweat that former star left on the field. Glad Hines called it quits once cut, but sad that wasn't given the opportunity to show what he's still got left.
Of course let us not forget the grand sport of Baseball getting ready to kick off the new season. Not sure what to expect this year, but I do know it's going to be a great year and though a die hard A's fan I may be forced to head to Angels' stadium just to see a future hall of famer (Puljos) swing for the fences.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Search goes on

Is it me or is the new economy still messing with those trying to strive more so then survive. Looking out for something better has me feeling like I've been labeled...


Applications go out calls come in. I suit up put on the charm, get them laughing, get them thinking, have them excited and then.....NOTHING. Is it me? Is it them? Am I the wrong height, weight, maybe wrong CoLoR? I am so not sure what it is, but I do know it needs to stop. I'm at the point I'm trying to succeed and grow not just for me, but for a hopefully growing family. I can't keep dicking around in the nowhere BS positions. These new opportunities that I know I can prosper at need to start going somewhere. These wonderful words contained on this blog bring no cash flow and sadly that's all that matters in this world. So my money making skills need to be exploited at this juncture, but with these go nowhere interviews SoCal has awarded me money isn't flowing as nice as it should be. My blast from the past position is a fun reminder of youth, but sadly the pay was better in my 20s then it is now in my 30s (now which political party am I supposed to blame for that again? Oh that's right BOTH! Down with the 2 party system time for some bipartisan change in America!). So what's a boy to do. That's right, Man up & Deal. So that's just what I'll do. Maybe a new approach to the interviews in order. Any suggestions?
Bring fresh baked cookies
Flirt with all available interviewers (female or male)
Bath in soothing fragrances
liE Lie LIE

- a look inside the mind of D -

What will next season bring?

So what straight men watch glee out there?





And if so do u watch it for them? Or is it just the music?.....



Oh who are you kidding, of course it's because of them.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Spreading the word

No not the gospel. Those teachings will forever be spread no my children this is the teachings of the Sinfest.




The one and only Mr Ishida is a Comic and comic genius who has had me checking his site daily for the past few years no problem.



Sunday or as I call it "PRETTY COLOR PANEL DAY" is the most fun, but the weekday story lines are the backbone of his works.


I say check them out you won't be disappointed

- a look inside the mind of D -

Have a coke and a smile

Sound advice ahead.....




Heading to the doctor to figure out what's the issue. Waking up everyday feeling off kilter. Not quite yourself. Friends inform you that you've changed, but this transformation is a mystery to you. So what do you do, how can you come to grips with the oddity your life has become. It's simple really; accept what has happened and work it to your advantage. Things change for a reason and if your so called "people" can't deal then that is their issue not yours. As a wise man once said;

"Tell them to have a Coke and a Smile and to suck my dick".

RIP Richard you truly where the greatest.
- a look inside the mind of D -

Chatter

First come first serve it's always about the race winner for to win you must have ran the hardest. But is that really true. I'm sure plenty in the pack ran hard. Does that mean their hard work was pointless? So the winners stride is a little longer then third place, does that mean the genetics of the third place finisher just didn't work hard enough. These are the questions that come to mind when I see people run for sport. It's so subjective. My genetics weren't made for running. No matter how hard I train I will NEVER be a world class runner? Does that mean my hard work would be less important then a naturally gifted runner? You now what I'll stick to sitting on my couch and enjoy my fat-Assery.


- a look inside the mind of D -