Back to the drawing board

On to the next one cuz the last one went bust. Had her in his sights down on his knee pleading cuz in God he trusts. Still made no difference as she walked out that door, leaving no hope for tomorrow for him restful sleep was no more. Feeling lost in oblivion he drank but never forgot. She will be the one who got away, of course it hurt more cuz she's so hot. Crazy to think while they were together it was this moment he had waited; a chance to be alone again no more pressure no angry stares to be evaded. No this moment, his new found freedom, was to be pure bliss. To bad as she walked out the door his day dreams failed to capture the reality of this. Multiple years had gone by & she was all he had ever known. Now with her absent, his space was far from home. Why when youre in love you can feel so trapped, but when that prison of love leaves all the feelings which remain are complete crap. So the question of the moment is why do we even bother?

love

happiness

joy

Sounds to me to be nothing more then a keg of gunpowder. It blows up in your face & leaves you emotionally crippled. So why start down the path simply because her smile, her laugh, her heart stirs up a tiny ripple...a vibration inside that cannot be explained. You risk losing it all to gain a glimmer of hope to finally escape your loneliness pain. Yes, we are all suckers & there is no escape. My only wish is you succeed better then I when it comes to the heart break.

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Dead men DO tell tales

At least that's what the wisest of us tend to believe. Do u believe in ghosts and where do we go when we die have become cliche laughable at best. Questions asked by children during the innocence of youth. Once you reach adulthood these things were to be put behind us right? The notion of Ghosts and demons were stuff of legends and fairytale, but what if they were totally true? Personally I'm more a fan of the ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE and the deadly repercussions that are sure to follow.  That being said there is just something about the idea of GHOSTS i can't grasp. I mean GHOSTS bring us all to a pretty depressing conclusion. Either we DIE and are forever stuck in a LIMBO between two worlds, we die and are forced to relive how we met our end OVER and OVER or better yet we die and NOTHING HAPPENS at ALL.... Heaven and Hell don't have an explanation for ghosts so admitting there existence brings on a whole world of trouble for the faithful masses wouldn't you think?  Now sure church goers can say DEMONS, but come on why are there SO MANY DEMONS and if hell has no escape how do these demons keep getting out? That is something I've always been curious about.  
Death is an end to a beginning and what comes after we can never be sure. 
SPOOKY HUH?!?!?!?!?!?!?

2 the end, beginning & everything in between

Right now with the holidays going; the year ending; and the daily grind of work family and everyday life.... I feel my brain needing an escape. Ever wish to just get away from life, a quick break from the harsh realities of this world. Time to get back to what I do best....mysterious distance....vanishing into the shadows from time to time. To simply become an observer of life, no longer a player, but refusing to abandon the cast all together.

Don't get me wrong, love people & most members of society. Even still, every now & then I find the intense need to draw away. Don't know if others feel as I do, all I know is I go through this every once in a while and will continue to do so until all things become clear.

This is me...take it or leave it

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When life give you LEMONS you make a meringue dammit. That's right Mr Positivity coming at you. Now i may be a positive happy stuttering moron; that doesn't mean I'm not honest with how the world runs around me. As a few wise me wrote "Life is full of SHIT when you look at IT!"  That being said LIFE is what you make of it. If it's shit turn it into fertilizer.... if its a bunch of assholes BLEACH 'em until they bleed. I say spin it all around and turn it on its head. That's right ride out the bullshit smack it flip it and rub it down OH NO! Hell yeah I'm telling you to RUMP SHAKER the SHIT! Come on who could listen to that song without losing their shit. 

KaBoom!

Diffusing bombs, cutting off fuel supplies, putting out blazes, these are the adventures of a shit talking fire starting tight rope walking psychopath. The world is full of obstacles & those born to crash head long into them. Some lead some follow & others just say fuck it maybe this road block could be a fun!

So who are you? What do you do in difficult situations? You run and hide or you stay & fight? Maybe you are one of the few who ARE the difficult situation! Yes you know who you are. Screw the mayhem commercials you my friend are straight up trouble.  You endanger those around you with your mildest of thoughts/plans. You bring horror disguised as excitement, pain masquerading as  kindness. Yes you are a disaster waiting to happen, but happen it must for us to truly live.

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Worst players this NFL seasons

Had to share this simply for the Matt Millen crack haha

 Y! NFL 

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«thoughts»

Turkey day approaches and I find myself thinking....why turkey? Personally I love the ham. Others out there enjoy duck & even more in this county probably celebrate with a lovely helping of fried chicken....I'm just saying give all your poultry their due credit (I know my ham love doesn't fit, but come on it is the other white meat haha)

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womanly creatures

Why do we let them do this to us fellas? They do no wrong and we are always far from right. Life can be difficult and they always seem to make it better, even when they are the cause of the trouble. They play with your mind they step on your heart and in the end it will always be your fault. I don't know what it isand I'll never understand why we deal, but i would hate to be without them. That is the cruelest trick of all

The ULTIMATE JOKE

You live you learn and you love. You hurt you cry but you still return. Live with em cuz you can't live without them but no matter what the feelings as long as you are living then you are doing something right

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Sinfest

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl, 
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Sinfest

Love when random music pops into my brain hahaha

SICK DAY

I hate this I hate this I hate this
I don't like being sick I can't stand being helpless and as weird as it sounds to most I hate missing work.
Waking up this morning I was determined to go, but then I came to realize no matter how hard i tried my body was not going to allow me to vacate my bed. Too sick to work too congested to sleep all I can do is watch on demand take my meds and hope that tomorrow gives me an opportunity to return to the job I tolerate surrounded by the work folks I enjoy. 
Well all I can do is wait and see. Sure hope this passes quickly can't afford to miss opportunity to make that money man ya know. 

Anger fuels the flames of Progress or was that regress?

Many Guns controlled by MURDER THOUGHTS

Another day another dollar, my question is why does it MAKE YOU WANNA HOLLER? (Throw up both your hands) Watching things unfold around me at home at work just everywhere in this life in general. So makes me wonder while the fabric of sanity is unfolding, where will this all lead. Is all the craziness heading toward something better or is this all a deep spiral down into the muck and mud of stupidity and intolerance for my fellow man. I mean sometimes you just don't want to deal with PEOPLE. They can be so I don't know umm HUMAN!
So walking through life surrounded by society while feeling outcast and alone you must ask yourself is loneliness really all that bad? Yes sure your conversations are kind of one sided, but you never have to repeat yourself to get your point across. And though you'll never have a good game of poker ever you are definitely guaranteed the only game of Solitare you'll ever need. The only thing you will ever truly miss by being completely apart from society is an ALIBI hahaha which is a shame because how you are feeling you definitely could possibly use one for later on.  
Focusing on the negatives is just a hell of a lot easier then attempting to find a single positive when you are in a truly jacked up situation. Bad things can happen to bad people just as frequently as the good, we just tend to mourn the victims a little harder then the instigator, but if we were truly all about humankind then wouldn't we mourn equally for one life lost is no greater then another if you are all about EQUALITY. Guess that's asking a lot, people living up to the requirements of being everyday good wholesome decent folks. I mean that's hard work while being a rat bastard is absolutely easy. Like taking candy from a baby (NO REALLY if you want to be a down right bastard go take candy from an innocent baby... you lazy SoB)

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New week

Tomorrow begins a long week & I can only hope I make it through without losing my mind. I have no real problem working OT, especially when there is a goal I'm working toward. 

Though I'll miss my wifey I know I'm doing it for the good of us.

LOVE YOU BABY



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Dead dreams

Up late & realizing I have have given up on far too many of my dreams far too soon. Now I'm not speaking of any of the pipe dreams of youth. I recognize the prima ballerina days have past me, and the pro athlete opportunity has past ten years & 100 lbs ago.

No I'm sitting here looking at my words & realize I could write something worthwhile before I die if only I had the drive to do so. Also watching the Benson interruption I realize I was born to befriend comedians. Not so much to do stand-up myself, but to be surrounded by humorist and give them bits of my comedy genius. Yes I shall move to hollywood & do just that (or I can just become a comedy house regular & let nature take its course)

Ok that decides it. I'm going to spend the remainder of my days at the comedy shop writing a never ending novel & buy the funniest stand ups drinks.

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1 day, millions of thoughts, never ending problems. Tough times or good times the rhyme is all the same. From Florida to New York Oregon to Nebraska.  Let the word spread. Not talking glory glory hallelujah no I'm speaking of the world of complete death. Down the river styx through the fire to the plains no matter how you slice it the word remains the same. Let love echo & all shall rejoice, open up your heart & mind to new experiences. Only then can you feel all the REAL this world has for you.

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Dustin B.'s Reviews | Stockton | Yelp

Thats right I yelp what of it?

Dustin B.'s Reviews | Stockton | Yelp

Besides I believe myself to be witty and insightful so why not spread all this awesomeness across several forums?

Can just enough be too much

All the real GooG heads please stand up

Life comes at you fast when you are having fun. Why is it the good times blow by, but the horrible days last forever? If only their were a pause button for the good times and a chapter skip to go to the next page in the epic struggle that is this life. 
I often feel its best to examine ones life as if looking from the outside. Only from this vantage point can we truly start to comprehend what we have truly been through or what horrors to which we have been headed towards.  With this knowledge of your existence you can help shape and guide the here and now into a much more promising future and when.  
In the end all you have is your mind your body and soul. Its best to try and make it to the end with all three of these kept together as a whole. 

Closing in

Looked up today & realized my twenties are drawing closer & closer to their end. 30 is right around the corner, and though I'm ready for the big 3 - 0 I am in no way trying to bring it on this fast. Oh well each day that passes draws me closer to the end of my youth & the start of my full grown ass state.

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Sounds like a plan

Things are what they seem & yes everything happens for a reason. Never doubt the lessons life has taught & never forget the things you have achieved. We only have so much time on this exotic rock whizzing through the cosmos; I suggest it be best to make the most of each fleeting moment. When you get knocked down lick your wounds and give it another try.  Giving up has never benefitted anyone. Your best bet is to go back at it with a new better thought out gameplan.

Take these words at face value & do with them what you will. Don't claim to know all the answers, but I'm definitely on the path to a good start!

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The McRib Returns - Yahoo! News

The McRib Returns - Yahoo! News

And asses have started bleeding all across the nation

Election Time

Love this day is finally here. After months of campaigning the end is here & we find out who's hard work & muck raking did the best. Now, I'm not excited cuz I have a candidate I'm pulling for or a certain measure I need to see past. No, I'm happy that the commercials will stop running the mail ads will stop littering my street & the phone will cease ringing with survey calls & recorded messages. What is most upsetting with all that is I vote by mail my decision was made weeks ago so that last minute push for votes was nothing more then an annoyance to me.

So to all those who have yet to vote I say do so with a clear head & a realistic vision of what the future can bring. No one person or proposition will save us all from the crap that's been created over the hundreds of years of this electoral process. To all my ROV peeps: miss you guys, have fun work fast & I hope you aren't drowned in the sea of PINK

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