Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Come Together Right Now... don't bother me

Well we all wanted to see the world come together, but I doubt any of us truly had this in mind. I'm definitely into this world of social networking and have been so for a long time now. I've had every type of account from Twitter, Facebook, Myspace, Friendster, Livejournal, Yahoo360, and obviously Blogger. The list probably goes on and on if I could remember my early high school days on the Internet. My current favorite has got to be Facebook simply because that's where almost all my friends are. It's very quite entertaining to see all these people from a not so distant past come together and converse and chat and act like no time has passed at all. Of course time has passed and things have changed, we have all lived separate lives and now we find ourselves thrust back together and so frequent we act as nothing has changed nothing has happened we have not grown or aged we still like the same things we all loved together back in the 80s 90s and beyond. Don't get me wrong I love every minute and I adore all these people who have been thrust back into my life. Hell its crazy to see how much people have/haven't changed over the years. Its crazier to think they care or are at least interested in how My life is going. Some friends I had chalked up as lost are now returned to me and for that I praise social networking. Of course some not so great people who pose as grim reminders of shitty times are also returned to my life as well, and for that I damn social networking to hell. Weirdest thing is seeing how many people take these new connections offline. How many out there are planning to attend or have attended reunions with Elementary/Jr High friends? How crazy is that to see? Hey guys lets get together for a 15 year Jr High Reunion! Without places like Facebook or Myspace such a statement would simply be thought as ludicrous, but now these things are being said everyday. With so many different way to connect the question is how is it possible to completely lose touch with those you claim to care about? I mean look at all the different sites created to help people stay in touch. Its hard to see how someone couldn't find you if they truly wanted to. Problem is there are some people that you really don't want to meet up again with in this life, but it would seem you'd have to go completely off grid to avoid them. That's right people big brother is watching and he's bringing a lot of old school baggage with him. Hope you are all prepared for the showdown because thanks to 6 degrees of separation we are all someones annoying past they are trying to escape or at least a link to it. No worries though if I'm somehow the bane of your former existence just fill me in and I'd happily drop you from my lists HA!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

When She's gone

when she's gone she takes my heart away

When she's gone I don't know what to say

When she's gone I'm but half a man

Well she's gone and I don't know what to do with myself

I see a near future full of DVD watching TV scanning and Internet time wasting activities. If you ever get around to reading this know I love you and miss you and can't wait til you return from training at the end of the month, though its only 2 weeks we both know it'll be rough. In the end though the time away is being used to build up something so our future together will be that much greater. The big move quickly approaches and I can't wait for us to be on our own in So Cal. Our southern California life will be sweet for sure, and I know our life will go on forever more.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Better suited for the sports blog...

but this has less to do with my NFL feelings and more to do with my simple feelings as a fan. I want to be outraged that my team signed a QB when they seemed to finally have the whole QB position hemmed up. After last season's contract extension it had seemed the Eagle management finally had regained their faith in McNabb but now the questions have arisen again. The thing that makes this the most difficult is that according to reports McNabb had a hand in the Vick signing. Now I understand he is all about winning and doing what's best for the team, but McNabb has to realize there is no point to bring in a talent as big as Vick to think he will forever sit on the bench behind you. Presumably they signed him as a 3 stringer (sorry AJ), but its clear that Kevin Kolb's injury must be worse then first let on because he was the established back up and seemingly the QB of the future since McNabb only seems to have 2 or 3 years left in him due to all the injuries (Hell if they had won the Superbowl last year I don't think Donovan would have returned this season). What truly stings about the situation is I was one of the most vocal for giving Vick a second chance, but I never expected him to show up on my teams roster thus stirring shit up.
Another big issue I have with the whole thing is the assumption that Vick is now expected to be Philly's QB of the future. Did we all forget Vick was never seen as a truly great QB. He's an amazing athlete, a superb runner, and posses a wicked strong arm; but he never showed an in pocket prowess or the field general mentality that the Eagles have come to demand of McNabb. We don't need a run first pass later QB if we have Westbrook in the backfield. So with this signing it seems maybe the Eagles are questioning McNabb for the long haul, but more then likely questioning the strength of Westbrook as a long term solution. All I know is I'm very interested to see where this signing is going to take my team and if this is the weird kick they need to finally make it to and win this year's championship.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Why must I float

Something in which to spend time doing. No true direction and no goal in mind. A life lead like a leaf on the wind or more like the drunk tubing down the lazy river; he know not where he may end up all he knows is he will be picking up a 6 pack when he gets there. Now that my friends is the ultimate adventure, anytime you can just let yourself go and just BE that sounds like the simplest thing to enjoy in this life. No hysterics no hustle and bustle no worries no fears; all you do is float. As the song says FLOAT ON FLOAT ON and that's all these people do for hours a day possibly entire weekends all summer long. I'd say I'm jealous, but alas I can not lie my life is much more simpler then even there long historic weekends. I've spent 28 years floating and this fact is starting to weigh heavy on me. I have yet to truly apply myself to anything. I've coasted through everything I do. I only put enough effort forth to get by. I'd be the definition of slacker, but on some levels they work hard to keep up that lifestyle where as I don't really give a damn. If this floating there were to end today I'd be better off for it therefore I wouldn't fight the change. Growing up I always thought I was just adaptable or just better able to go with the flow then most people, but I have come to find there is just so much more to it then that. Instead of Slacker or LAZY I feel the best way to describe myself is APATHETIC and Passive. Writing this self diagnosis may be breaking with the code of my life's work, but at this point the apathy has worn me down so far I just don't care. The only thing in life I've cared about have been my relationships with people and my need to write. Sad thing on both friends is I have found myself so distant from friends and family that it makes sense I too am distant from caring about getting publish or being discovered in the literary world. This apathy has been nothing but a burden and frankly I'm just tired of watching it wash everything down the drain. That being sad as of late i have tried to write more to plan things I want to do in this life and to go out and attempt to get them. I'm moving to a place where I'll be much closer to friends and though I don't see them on a regular if at all I have been trying to speak more to the friends who are close by. This is where I take my stand. No more fighting my selfish lazy uncaring nature. No denial will heal anything I must accept my shortcomings and find a way to make them work for me. So much focus is being put on finding work and moving that I have failed to look at the reasons why we are doing so. Its more then just hating the area (STOCKTON sucks the fattest donkey balls ever grown from the hind parts of the beasts), no the move is for the good of us in every way. The need to be close to other people to see other things to be able to get a beach breeze to see water that's not green with mutant fish. This move MUST happen one way or another. I have struggled long enough with this earning the big bucks thing.... Its not about being rich in the material world the spirit needs to be quenched and dammit my spirit is awfully thirsty with the held of my wife and other loved ones I swear come November I shall be in So Cal and taking a big drink

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Clinton swoops in to save 2 women

Why am I not surprised, but its good to see Clinton getting in the news for something good. No more dramatics, no more pussy hounding, No just plain and simple Good Samaritanism. Read on to learn what you are suppose to do with political pull.. Both former pres Bushes should take notes from Billy C.

Clinton, 2 journalists depart North Korea for US

SEOUL, South Korea – His mission accomplished, former President Bill Clinton left Pyongyang early Wednesday accompanied by American journalists Euna Lee and Laura Ling after North Korean leader Kim Jong Il pardoned the women from their 12-year prison sentences.

Clinton and the two Californians were flying back to the U.S., his spokesman Matt McKenna said, less than 24 hours after the former U.S. leader landed in the North Korean capital on a private, humanitarian trip to secure their release.

Clinton has "safely left North Korea with Laura Ling and Euna Lee" and all three were en route to Los Angeles, where the journalists will be reunited with their families, he said.

The White House had no comment.

Their departure was a jubilant conclusion to a more than four-month ordeal for the women arrested near the North Korean-Chinese border in March and sentenced in June to 12 years of hard labor for illegal entry and engaging in "hostile acts."

Clinton's landmark trip to Pyongyang also resulted in rare talks with reclusive Kim Jong Il that state-run media described as "wide-ranging" and "exhaustive." The meeting was Kim's first with a prominent Western figure since reportedly suffering a stroke nearly a year ago.

North Korean media characterized the women's release as proof of "humanitarian and peace-loving policy." State media said Clinton apologized on behalf of the women and relayed President Barack Obama's gratitude. The report said the visit would "contribute to deepening the understanding" between North Korea and the United States.

While the White House emphasized the private nature of Clinton's trip, his landmark visit to Pyongyang to free the Americans was a coup that came at a time of heightened tensions over North Korea's nuclear program.

The meeting also appeared aimed at dispelling persistent questions about the health of the authoritarian North Korean leader, who was said to be suffering from chronic diabetes and heart disease before the reported stroke.

Kim smiled broadly for a photo standing next to a towering Clinton. He was markedly thinner than a year ago, with his graying hair cropped short. The once-pudgy 67-year-old, who for decades had a noticeable pot belly, wore a khaki jumpsuit and appeared frail and diminutive in a group shot seated next to a robust Clinton.

North Korea accused Ling, 32, and Lee, 36, both of former Vice President Al Gore's Current TV media venture, of sneaking into the country illegally.

U.S. Secretary of State Hillary Rodham Clinton urged North Korea last month to grant them amnesty, saying they were remorseful and their families were anguished by their detention.

The journalists' release followed weeks of quiet negotiations between the State Department and the North Korean mission to the United Nations, said Daniel Sneider, associate director of research at Stanford University's Shorenstein Asia-Pacific Research Center.

Clinton "didn't go to negotiate this, he went to reap the fruits of the negotiation," Sneider said.

Pardoning Ling and Lee and having Clinton serving as their emissary served both North Korea's need to continue maintaining that the two women had committed a crime and the Obama administration's desire not to expend diplomatic capital winning their freedom, Sneider said.

"Nobody wanted this to be a distraction from the more substantially difficult issues we have with North Korea," he said. "There was a desire by the administration to resolve this quietly and from the very beginning they didn't allow it to become a huge public issue."

The families of Ling and Lee said they were "overjoyed" by the pardon.

"We are so grateful to our government: President Obama, Secretary Clinton and the U.S. State Department for their dedication to and hard work on behalf of American citizens," the families said in a statement. "We especially want to thank President Bill Clinton for taking on such an arduous mission and Vice President Al Gore for his tireless efforts to bring Laura and Euna home.

"We are counting the seconds to hold Laura and Euna in our arms," the statement said.

Lee, a South Korean-born U.S. citizen, is the mother of a 4-year-old. Ling, a California native, is the younger sister of Lisa Ling, a correspondent for CNN as well as "The Oprah Winfrey Show" and "National Geographic Explorer."

They were arrested as they reported about the trafficking of women. It's unclear if they strayed into the North or were grabbed by aggressive border guards who crossed into China but recent statements suggested they admitted to deliberately crossing into the country.

The Committee to Protect Journalists also welcomed their release.

North Korean state media said Clinton and Kim held wide-ranging talks, adding that Clinton "courteously" conveyed a verbal message from Obama.

In Washington, White House spokesman Robert Gibbs denied Clinton went with a message from Obama. "That's not true," he told reporters.

"While this solely private mission to secure the release of two Americans is on the ground, we will have no comment" until the mission is complete, Gibbs said in a statement. "We do not want to jeopardize the success of former President Clinton's mission."

Clinton was accompanied by John Podesta, his one-time White House chief of staff, who also is an informal adviser to Obama.

Clinton was accorded honors typically reserved for heads of state. Senior officials, led by Vice Foreign Minister Kim Kye Gwan, who also serves as the regime's chief nuclear negotiator, met his private unmarked plane as it arrived Tuesday morning.

Video from the APTN television news agency showed Clinton exchanging warm handshakes with officials and accepting a bouquet of flowers from a schoolgirl.

Kim later hosted a banquet for Clinton at the state guesthouse, Radio Pyongyang and the Korean Central Broadcasting Station reported. The VIPs and Kim posed for a group shot in front of the same garish mural depicting a stormy seaside landscape that Clinton's secretary of state, Madeleine Albright, posed for during her historic visit to Pyongyang in 2000.

But not long ago, North Korea's Foreign Ministry had harsh words for his wife, describing her as "a funny lady" who sometimes "looks like a primary schoolgirl and sometimes a pensioner going shopping."

In the past, envoys have been dispatched to Pyongyang to secure the release of Americans. In the 1990s, New Mexico Gov. Bill Richardson, a congressman at the time, went twice on similar missions: in 1994 to arrange the freedom of a U.S. pilot whose helicopter strayed into North Korean airspace and again two years later to fetch an American detained for three months on spying charges.

Richardson, Clinton and Gore, Clinton's vice president, had all been named as possible envoys to bring back Lee and Ling. However, the decision to send Clinton was kept quiet, revealed only when he turned up Tuesday in Pyongyang.

The trip was reminiscent of one 15 years ago by former President Jimmy Carter when Clinton was in office, also at a time of tensions over North Korea's nuclear program.

Carter's visit — he met with Kim Jong Il's father, the late Kim Il Sung — helped thaw the deep freeze in relations with the Korean War foe and paved the way for discussions on nuclear disarmament. Clinton later sent Albright to Pyongyang for talks with Kim in a high point in the often rocky relations with North Korea.

Discussions about normalizing ties went dead when George W. Bush took office in 2001 with a hard-line policy on Pyongyang. The Obama administration has expressed a willingness to hold bilateral talks — but only within the framework of the six-nation disarmament talks in place since 2003.

North Korea announced earlier this year it was abandoning the talks involving the two Koreas, Japan, Russia, China and the U.S. The regime also launched a long-range rocket, conducted a nuclear test, test-fired a barrage of ballistic missiles and restarted its atomic program in defiance of international criticism and the U.N. Security Council.

Last month, the U.S. Navy tailed a North Korean cargo ship as it sailed south suspected of carrying cargo banned under a U.N. resolution on board until the vessel turned around and returned to port.

Kim inherited leadership of impoverished North Korea upon his father's death in 1994, 20 years after being anointed the heir apparent. Kim has not publicly named his successor but is believed to be grooming his third son, 26-year-old Jong Un, to take over.

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Associated Press writers Anne Gearan in Washington, Samantha Young in Sacramento, Calif., Lisa Leff in San Francisco and AP researcher Jasmine Zhao in Beijing contributed to this report.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Just a friendly reminder of the fucked up situation we're in

Surfing around Yahoo! I came across this truly interesting story which reminded me just how bad most of the country has it at this time. Don't get me wrong I'm not doing great and though this story is messed up at least this family has a home. Many People aren't able to say the same thing at this time. Personally I'd be happy to have an affordable mortgage no matter the situation. Though I didn't listen to my old man much he did bestow upon me this simple bit of knowledge... PROPERTY OWNERSHIP is one of the keys to a successful life.

Florida highrise has 32 stories, but just 1 tenant
By CHRISTINE ARMARIO,

FORT MYERS, Fla. – The Vangelakos' southwest Florida condominium has marble floors, a large pool overlooking a river and modern furnishings that speak of affluence and luxury. What they don't have in the 32-story building is a single neighbor.

The New Jersey family of five purchased their unit four years ago, when Fort Myers was in the midst of a housing boom and any hints of an impending financial crisis were buried in lofty dreams of expansion and development. They made a $10,000 down payment and eagerly watched as builders transformed an empty lot into an opulent high rise, one that now symbolizes the foreclosure crisis.

"The future was going to be southwest Florida," said Victor Vangelakos, 45, a fire captain who planned to eventually retire and live permanently in the condo.

Most of the other tenants in the 200-unit condo didn't close on their contracts, and the few that did have transferred to an adjacent building owned by the same company because more people live there.

The Vangelakos' mortgage lender will not allow them to do the same.

That leaves them as the sole residents of the Oasis Tower One.

"It's a beautiful building," said their attorney, John Ewing, who is representing 27 others who made deposits on units. "The problem is, it's a very lonely building."

When the Vangelakos' travel from Weehawken, N.J., to spend a week or a few days in their Florida home, they have exclusive use of the pool, game room and gym, but they miss having a few tenants around.

"Being from the city, it's very eerie," Vangelakos said. "It's almost like a scary movie."

A large, circular fountain in front of the building is dry. The automatic glass doors that lead to the front lobby are locked. On the front desk is a guest sign-in sheet. The last entry: Feb. 13, 2009.

"It's like time froze here six months ago," Ewing said.

Vangelakos said they closed on the apartment in the fall, unaware the other tenants had failed to follow through. When they visited around Christmas, they didn't think much of the emptiness. They were just happy to be there.

"We wanted to believe," Cathy Vangelakos said. "We were looking for what we were offered."

On subsequent visits, however, the building grew more deserted.

The lights on the pool and palm trees were off. Their garbage shoot was sealed, a trash bin placed in front of their unit instead.

Despite the empty units, they faithfully parked in their assigned spot on the second story of the parking garage. Then those lights went off, too.

Then there were security concerns. One night, someone pounded on their door at 11 p.m. They called the front desk at the next door building, which contacted police. A search turned up no one, though a pool entrance was open.

Another morning they awoke to find lounge chairs in the pool.

The parents and their children sleep with their cell phones by their beds.

"I'm not a chicken, but this is a big building," Cathy Vangelakos said.

Betsy McCoy, vice president and associated general counsel with The Related Group, which sold the family their unit, said they have tried to help find a solution — even offering them a unit in the building next door, free of cost, while the situation is resolved.

"They haven't wanted to take us up on that," McCoy said Friday. "They frankly rejected every solution and offer and proposal that we've come up with."

McCoy said some of the interested buyers who put down deposits lost their jobs, others were unable to get mortgages and some were just nervous when the financial collapse came.

The Cape Coral-Fort Myers metropolitan area in Lee County has some of the worst economic stress — a combination of foreclosures, unemployment and bankruptcies — in the country, according to The Associated Press' monthly analysis of more than 3,100 U.S. counties.

The latest AP Economic Stress Index, which assigns each county a score from 1 to 100 with higher numbers reflecting the greatest stress from the recession, found Lee County had a score of more than 20. Anything above 11 is considered stressed.

Victor Vangelakos said they don't want to move to the tower next door because they would still be paying the mortgage and maintenance costs on the condo they own. They paid $430,000 for the unit and took out a $336,000 mortgage — essentially spending their life savings.

He'd like for The Related Group to buy them out.

"They want us to be refugees in Tower II," Victor Vangelakos said. "That's not how I expected us to live here."

The family's attorney said he has filed two lawsuits on behalf of would-be tenants because the building wasn't finished as promised. He said they expected a clubhouse, marina, private cinema and restaurants.

McCoy said those amenities could be developed, but were never promised.

On Friday evening, the pool area was dark, most of the doors locked. Cathy Vangelakos and her 19-year-old daughter, Amanda, stepped into an elevator to head up to their unit. "Going up," an automated voice chimed.

"Going up," Cathy Vangelakos said. "That's all we hear."