introverted personality hiding a social butterfly

This is the best description of my personality that has ever existed. I have come to realize after years of saying the wrong thing I truly am not SHY. No i can and will talk with people therefore shy isn't a proper word to express my feelings.

Time to start sharing my Tumblr thoughts here

Have you ever been tempted while not being tempted? Surrounded by gorgeous women but knowing even if you were willing to succumb to the temptation you’d never have the balls to speak to them to get the ball rolling. My love life is the greatest of mysteries. I’ve spent a lifetime being shy and timid but somehow im far removed from virginity. That ship sailed, crossed the Atlantic, looted and plundered the natives. So that being said I always think to myself how? It doesn’t seem possible that I’ve gained so much experience, but to this very day if a woman I deem attractive would speak to me id freeze like a deer in headlights. 
I guess life is weird that way. Even though my past is still a mystery my future is pretty set. Fear of cheating goes out the window when just the thought leads to crippling guilt, and any attempt to want to speak with anyone with any physical beauty leads to dry mouth shortened breath and blank mind. Basically at the age of 33 I still respond the same way I did when I was 12. I don’t mind it though this lack of actions saves me from a lot of BS I see people go through.