Praise like yesterday

Been putting some serious thought into. Have no problem with religion. Religion and faith are good things, but how people go about praising I often call into question. Mainly the fact that for most praising their god/savior/healer/guide becomes a chore the older one gets. At least until true OLD AGE hits then the faith is rejuvenated as one comes to accept how close they are coming to the end of their days on this mortal plain. So what of these middle years? I think its quite simple. Praise like you did in childhood. 
Now I know that's hard for some to hear. Most adults often discount childhood beliefs as uninformed and juvenile leanings based on what parents taught, and at times that can be true. But like most things in life you'd be pretty ignorant to lump everything into one category. I think of my childhood, I was raised in religious schools IN SPITE of my parents lack of visible faith. Father has never been a church goer and mom didn't become truly involved in church until I was in high school. So why send me to private christian school since the start of schooling? Better education has always been the answer I've been given. Well during that education I learned a lot about myself, my world, and my faith. Every week having a school wide praise session was the most natural thing to me. It felt more real then sitting in church with a preacher spouting the gospels at me. I spent weeks being TAUGHT the gospels then singing songs of praise before weekends at home away from church school. Some find that extreme but I found it refreshing. It became a part of my life. Now I'm not saying all religious school kids had the same experience as me. Some hated every moment others LOVED the lessons a little too much (sorry, I love the bible I love the lord I love being taught but i HATE being told contradicting things based on teachers prejudices. BE A FISHER OF MEN we were taught but then also taught not to associate with GAYS, NON BELIEVERS, and Any other SEEDY INDIVIDUALS). I feel my life experiences combined with church school lead to the proper teachings of what faith SHOULD BE in my eyes. I don't go to church every week because frankly my church experience was never great. (A room full of people with holier then thou attitudes, a preacher driving a luxury vehicle when the church is falling apart around him, being asked to give all of what little you have to the church not to necessarily help others in the world but make the church more comfortable while people outside the doors struggle and suffer).  
I ask of you this. Find a child. Ask them what they believe. Children all have core beliefs even if they are too young to understand what they really are. I'm sure the most prevalent idea you'll hear is we are just suppose to be nice to each other. That gets lost in a lot of religious teaching. As we grow older the idea of kindness towards ALL goes away. You shake your head, but I can point out many instances where your holy niceness fades into the background, especially when faced with something you don't understand and refuse to accept. So I want to go back to the days when HE HAD THE WHOLE WORLD IN HIS HAND when JESUS LOVES ME THIS I KNOW FOR THE BIBLE TOLD ME SO to the days of love and peace for all and as long as you love the world and love your God that's the only thing you needed to know and understand for eternal happiness. 

Laugh already

Laughter is the cure to misery. That's easy to say, but the trick is finding a way to laugh when you are truly miserable. Good jokes are hard to come by. Humorous storytellers are few and far between. Funny movies lose their luster on repeat. So this is the quest I've dedicated myself to. I vow to find humor in all the small places. I'll let you know if I find it.

What I locate I'll happily put up HERE.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Whistle while you Work

What does it take to make one truly happy when it comes to how their living is earned? Is it about the cash in your pocket? The love of what you do? Maybe your ultimate goal is to be surrounded by good people and serve the public in a special fulfilling way. 

I suspect its all of the above, sadly I have yet to find that perfect necessary mix for myself. No, instead I go from one dead end to another dead end which are disguised as GOOD JOBS by the simple fact they offer decent medical benefits or vacation time. Benefits and time off DO NOT make a good job. Yes they are lovely perks, but if every minute of every day is a new type of hell then maybe just maybe that isn't the place for you. When management is TOO HARSH or TOO SPINELESS that isn't the place to be. When every coworker is lazy at BEST then maybe that's not the place to be. No matter where you work you must learn to take some bad with the good, but when the goods are far and few between and the bad is a constant stream of crap you have to wade through then that's not the place to be. So do I have the ultimate secret? Do I know how to find employment happiness? Hell to the NO, if I did I'd be happily retired on a beach somewhere already. I suppose starting your own business and being your own boss is the best way to go, but sadly that is a lot trickier then working for THE MAN and frankly the man knows it. Face it people corporate and Non-corporate America has the lowly average worker by the balls (or the clit for the female staffers). 

Nothing left to do but crack open a brew and drink it down for an hour or two

Humor and Blasphemy go hand and hand

This holiday brings so much to be mocked. We all know the true reason for the holiday (savior rises freeing mankind from original sin and eternal damnation), but why the bunnies the candy and all the damn eggs? Well to bring the cynical masses a chance to mock the righteous masses....


And mock they do. So much of this holiday has been bogged down with the silliness that in mass appeal Christmas is seen as more powerful a holiday. That's fine and all, but with no Easter we have no eternal life. A savior being born is great, but why neglect the day he initiate the Saving.
All that being said there are some creative and/or humorous views on the day floating out there. Zombie Jesus is a powerful image that I find interesting. I mean it should be upsetting, but dead for days, rises and in doing so saves the world. That's a pretty badass image that's hard to explain or capture, but a non flesh eating zombie saving the day, or all eternity as it were, is pretty freaking amazing and a SyFy movie waiting to happen. I'm just saying.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Is what it is

Nothing goes as planned, but plans are made and plans often are broken. You want to know what else can be broken quite easily? A skull. A skull bashed against a wall breaks quite easily. That's just the way the world works. One solid surface will always claim victory over hollow shells. Don't be that shell. Fill your mind with knowledge so your skull can be the rock that bashes through the barriers of injustice.


Eat drink and be merry really that's all you can do. Enjoy in the spoils of this world as they are the limited joys provided to you. Why waste time being unhappy, when happiness is all the rage. Why fight releasing your true nature, why lock up your desires in a self made cage. Now I'm not saying everyone should do as they feel. We all know what's right vs what's wrong. This advice is mainly focused on each of us being real. Recognize who you are instead of what others would wish you to be. Yeah things aren't always great in life, but if you are happy within yourself you could live in your own joyous land of me.



Play the hand that life deals you. Their is no need to fold. This isn't a game of winners and losers. This is just a game of whether you die young or die old. Without knowing your conclusion there proves no point in always taking the most cautious path. If you don't know your expiration date then none of us knows how long the thrill of the game can last. Life is full of ups and downs highs and lows ebbs and flows. So just come along for the ride enjoy the wave take in the show.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Still going

May not be safe but I still keep going. Frankly I challenge the ideas of what's deemed "work appropriate" and who's job it is to determine. I understand every conversation should stay work related to be considered professional, but what if your work environment has real trouble staying proper in itself. Recognize I've seen some of the most ridiculous things done by so called management that it's hard to take what they feel is appropriate seriously. These managers are the same people that do things with their little bit of power that would have them railroaded out of town in other positions. Bosses who use blatant favoritism for all personnel decisions and overlook those who deserve greater opportunities. Managers who turn blind eyes to basic injustices inflicted on low level employees. Managers who view hourly employees like some kind of insects to be avoided. These shitty examples of humanity have the nerve to turn around and question our actions though. That just pisses me off on so many levels. Problem is no matter how pissed you may get there is just no changing it. This is just how working life is. Especially now that the Global economy has tanked, anyone working outside the protections of unions or government law are just damned to deal with stupidity inflicted on them by big business that couldn't give less of a damn about them.


If only life were as easy as comics. Then and only then would we have real power. Well until that day we must suck it up and deal, but when the revolution finally comes I'll happily lead a force into battle. We are the real 99% not some college kid camping on a lawn. Talk to a 20 year vet of the customer service game who is keeping them down and I'd doubt wall street would be at the top of their list. The supervisor who denied their vacation so the sup's cousin could go with them to Vegas would most likely be at the top of the list.

- a look inside the mind of D -

Its Drawing near

 The smiles will be short lived. The time is approaching. We at this point are unsure of the cause or what will spread the virus/infection/doomsday disease, but we do know one thing; when the time comes each and everyone of us need to be prepared for battle. As much as we love the idea of teaming up to fight a common enemy this grim tomorrow will invoke the rule "SURVIVAL of the FITTEST". And no I'm not talking runner and health nuts will be best suited for the disaster. You can only run so long from impending doom in all honesty.  (@pavementrunner: Love you man but a steady 10k will only save you so long when the undead come to feast on that ass).  The day is approaching, the question is will you or any of us truly be ready. Been watching Doomsday Preppers and as far as I can tell these people are ready to kill, but sadly they don't have the sense to realize what they'd be killing for. So many guns and so much food stocked up for fear of the unknown. What people fail to realize a shot to the head of  angry undead is harder then it sounds when all the wild shit goes down. So as time approaches and a movie like horror befalls us no man woman or child is safe. No religion that involves us can save you from the horrors that are to come. I write this not to scare but simply prepare. Not like these psycho preppers ready to kill their cat if it threatens their food supply. No prepare your mind body and soul for what will be needed when the time comes. The infection will spread to all those around. Your dog will be a hound of hell, your Nana will bey at the moon like a Killer Clown (MCL all day everyday since '95 baby baby). Craziness has surrounded us since the beginning of time, you'd think we'd be used to it, but this is a new level of crazy. Movies glorify the insanity, but if its even a quarter as bad as even the dumbest gorefest society as a whole wouldn't know what to do. 

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So keep smiling ladies
Keep your safety dreams alive
The end is approaching you quickly
When the first dead rises and the biting, tearing, gnashing of teeth begins you will read these words and fall in line my friends.
In order to survive we do whatever we can to stay fresh cheerful and alive.

some things worth saying

Power in words. 
Power in context
Read between the lines to see the hidden truth
Truth is freedom and with freedom comes responsibility
Responsibility is the backbone of adulthood
The sharply pointed backbone we all must endure and embrace though it's never as easy at it seems
Responsible people lead responsible lives, but what kind of existence is that
Huge mistakes lead to HUGE life lessons
To live is to learn 
Life's lessons are what makes the living worth it
So i'll take my lessons take this life and embrace the mistakes of the past to ensure a brighter more educated future. 

Continues...

Can't sleep. World of doubt infesting my brain. Big things need to happen and no longer looking for a vague time table. This week. The end of this week. Close of March must bring us, ME, positive changes. Nothing small and meaningless, no, I demand major overhaul to the path on which I currently stroll. This isn't my life. This is an illusion of the here and now I've stumbled upon. This isn't me. This is an imposter pretending to be someone I never intended to be. My direction, meaningless, was to be onward and upward more forward then back. So why look back on yesterday with hopes of tomorrow. No repeats, no more do overs. Play it again Sam is played out. A new tune needs to be pushed forward on this jukebox of life. Everywhere there is pain. No, misery does not follow me. Emptiness, blahs and HO hums are the name of this game. Tired of being numb to an ever drearier world. Thoughts of a better tomorrow propels me forward into the void, but all I see before me is more grays. Grey, damned be American English, is the color of the world. Nothing has ever truly been all black and white. So why be surprised with so much horror in our day to day reporting. Murder Death Kill scream the headlines. Injustice Cruelty Intolerance are growing ever stronger. Everyone preparing for the end of times which the Good Book says cannot be prepared for. If we are to meet our end why allow such negativities to exist. Why keep the hatred game going. Why not love your fellow man as well as yourself. Why not? It's simple, we aren't wired that way. So maybe to escape the horror the boredom the grays that's what I'll need to do with my week. Time to rewrite myself and in turn help rewire the world. Majore change coming and it starts with the individual.


- a look inside the mind of D -

Speaking on speech well Text

Smile like you mean it
When I say mean it I MEAN IT
What does that mean?
Am I just being MEAN?
Or maybe I'm demanding you find my meaning through meanness?

I demand a lot of my reader. My mind is wired differently then most. My words have deeper meaning then most, but getting to the point is the trick to the puzzle that is me. I can go on for days about what's troubling me but sadly if I don't focus these thoughts it could take months to decipher. I apologize for the trouble but assure its worth the journey. I try and make it sensible, but then i realize nothing in this world is altogether SENSIBLE. What seems logical or sensible often when looked upon with fresh eyes are either flawed or heartless. We are not logical beings. Mechanized beings of logical computations we are NOT. So, that being sad, I've decided to write on PURE EMOTION. Emotions are crazy free radicals that shall not be contained. They flow from me like water over Niagara's edge. So why change my natural inclinations to fit in some mold I never have nor never will understand? So with that being said I simply do what I feel and what I feel is SURE MADNESS.