World of Puppets

You think you have control? You think you have a say so? Your thoughts are your own. Your actions were decided by you and yourself alone. Well keep dreaming buddy because someone else always has a say. Be it a higher power or a louder counterpart you are never truly free. Freedom is an illusion provided by the one who TRULY owns you. No society is free because ultimate freedom would most likely lead to ultimate destruction (at least that's what been programmed into us by the true power who ushers in such thoughts). Even speaking as I am now maybe nothing more then an illusion of freedom. Freedom of speech is only as FREE as allowed. Don't believe me. Start writing for an international agency about any world leader and you will quickly find so called Freedom having a pretty hefty PRICE. Free is never free as somewhere down the line someone has had to or will have to pay for said freedoms. 

Truth be told we are most likely entering an extremely grey zone of reality which will never be made clear to us until after we separate permanently from this world. The hows and the whys maybe answered at the end of this journey, but frankly even that has yet to be made truly clear to us. No matter your faith, belief, religious or otherwise; we at no time in this LIFE will we ever know what the real picture and point of everything was. It's incredible for any one person to say they have figured out what people have spent generations trying to find out. I'm not saying it can't be done (most religious scriptures say that for me), but it's hard for me to believe that it will be done anytime soon. That being said if you know something I don't I'm more then willing to listen, but don't be surprised when I open it up into a lively debate just to verify your apparent credibility. 

Praise like yesterday

Been putting some serious thought into. Have no problem with religion. Religion and faith are good things, but how people go about praising I often call into question. Mainly the fact that for most praising their god/savior/healer/guide becomes a chore the older one gets. At least until true OLD AGE hits then the faith is rejuvenated as one comes to accept how close they are coming to the end of their days on this mortal plain. So what of these middle years? I think its quite simple. Praise like you did in childhood. 
Now I know that's hard for some to hear. Most adults often discount childhood beliefs as uninformed and juvenile leanings based on what parents taught, and at times that can be true. But like most things in life you'd be pretty ignorant to lump everything into one category. I think of my childhood, I was raised in religious schools IN SPITE of my parents lack of visible faith. Father has never been a church goer and mom didn't become truly involved in church until I was in high school. So why send me to private christian school since the start of schooling? Better education has always been the answer I've been given. Well during that education I learned a lot about myself, my world, and my faith. Every week having a school wide praise session was the most natural thing to me. It felt more real then sitting in church with a preacher spouting the gospels at me. I spent weeks being TAUGHT the gospels then singing songs of praise before weekends at home away from church school. Some find that extreme but I found it refreshing. It became a part of my life. Now I'm not saying all religious school kids had the same experience as me. Some hated every moment others LOVED the lessons a little too much (sorry, I love the bible I love the lord I love being taught but i HATE being told contradicting things based on teachers prejudices. BE A FISHER OF MEN we were taught but then also taught not to associate with GAYS, NON BELIEVERS, and Any other SEEDY INDIVIDUALS). I feel my life experiences combined with church school lead to the proper teachings of what faith SHOULD BE in my eyes. I don't go to church every week because frankly my church experience was never great. (A room full of people with holier then thou attitudes, a preacher driving a luxury vehicle when the church is falling apart around him, being asked to give all of what little you have to the church not to necessarily help others in the world but make the church more comfortable while people outside the doors struggle and suffer).  
I ask of you this. Find a child. Ask them what they believe. Children all have core beliefs even if they are too young to understand what they really are. I'm sure the most prevalent idea you'll hear is we are just suppose to be nice to each other. That gets lost in a lot of religious teaching. As we grow older the idea of kindness towards ALL goes away. You shake your head, but I can point out many instances where your holy niceness fades into the background, especially when faced with something you don't understand and refuse to accept. So I want to go back to the days when HE HAD THE WHOLE WORLD IN HIS HAND when JESUS LOVES ME THIS I KNOW FOR THE BIBLE TOLD ME SO to the days of love and peace for all and as long as you love the world and love your God that's the only thing you needed to know and understand for eternal happiness. 

Work thought

Devious Me

Should be working hard but not really feeling it today. Why work for something you don't feel you want anymore.  Yes it's true I've lost my passion to even remotely care about what I do in the day to day at this central valley location. All i want to do is escape to someplace better. A happier place full of joy and beauty. No not trying to die and go to heaven people come on. No i'm talking about the Television representation of Southern California. A place full of fun in the sun happiness, beautiful people around every corner and not a hint of trouble. Now i know this isn't the reality of what I'm getting myself into, but come on doesn't the dream sound amazing? All in all we are looking at just under 2 months until we depart and there is still plenty to get done. So many different channels yet to be taken. A new job a new home a new car and a new life all at our fingertips but not yet grasped.  
The time is coming and fear has yet to set in. Lack of fear means this must be true. I'm no daredevil but I know this is the right thing whether others like it or not. The time for change has come and it has arrived in a BIG WAY.  As we proceed on this most epic journey to our final resting place never forget to take your eyes off the road every now and again or you'll miss out on all the beautiful scenery that was your life. 

Get busy living or Get busy dying

Frankly I don't see the need to stay busy at all. Can't I go through this life at a slow & steady pace? Why are we in such a rush? Honestly, I'm not ready for this to come to an end anytime soon.

Big plans in the works for the next few weeks. Once I get my beloved truck up and running in peak condition I feel it'll be better suited for some road trips. Will start off small off course a couple hours out at most; but sooner then later we will push our limits to see what she can do.

Tomorrow will be a big part of the future plans. If my old truck can be made to feel like new again; then a new vehicle won't be a big a burden. Rather have the one car note  then to push the limits with two. So fingers crossed people; your boy D could use a wish a prayer and an overall sense of good things to come. Yes I'm begging for some Good karma, what of it?

a look inside the mind of D