Bad medicine

Talking with my wife got me thinking. I understand the medical system is flawed due to greed and/or stupidity, but how is it the FDA approves drugs to hit the market that side effects are worse then the problems they are trying to solve.


I mean really think about it. The other day, while watching commercials, I realized how bad some of these side effects could really be. Now we all know the ridiculousness of depression medicines giving you suicidal thoughts, thus defeating the purpose. That being said, have you heard of the medicines for digestion giving you diarrhea and/or constipation? I don't know about you but that sounds like you still have digestion issues. The newest one I heard yesterday was a drug used to assist the depression medicine you are already using, ya know just in case you still feel depressed. So this drug has common side effects like dry mouth, headaches, sore throat stuff, but the last two side effects named kind of blew my mind. This drug, that is supposed to cover up for the fact your other drug isn't working, has side effects including HIGH BLOOD SUGAR and LOW WHITE BLOOD CELL COUNT. Think about that for a second, they are asking you to take a medicine that's side effects are equal to symptoms you get from having Diabetes and AIDS. I don't know about you, but those side effects alone would cause my depression to worsen for sure.
So I ask anyone out there reading this, why do we allow our doctors to prescribe us things that will force us to return to them for another prescription and more money out of our pockets? This shit is getting ridiculous. I for one am tired of taking a drug for my lifelong high blood pressure that could possibly cause me kidney failure if I don't go to the doctor every six month to make sure I'm not killing myself. It's an outright crazy situation. Hell, my diabetes medicine can lead to extremely LOW blood sugar. Yeah that's right to cure my Diabetes they are willing to give me anemia. Yeah I'll either die of a STROKE if I don't take them or I slip into a COMA if I do. I'm sick of this system and I hope some real change will come in my lifetime so we all could lead happier healthier and wealthier lives.
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Still going strong

20+ years and still going strong.


Been watching weekly, reading behind the scenes stories and each day is as strong as the last. It has been a lifelong passion a love for sports entertainment, and I refuse to be ashamed. Ok maybe a little, but hey what can I say, I just love the product. I remember the golden era of WWF wrestling. I remember being a little Hulk-a-maniac then a little warrior and finally a follower of King Macho Man. I remember the day I learned it was fake (went to a live show at the Oakland coliseum and saw Ravishing Rick Rude succumb to the punches of Jake the Snake though I could clearly see none had ever landed). I remember the days when the story lines where thought out, the company took time to establish stars and nothing was to big to attempt to pull off. Now the eighties product was corny, but the Nineties was the Golden Era and it simply broke down to one fact, Competition breeds excellence.
That being said the deaths of ECW and WCW, hell even the sorry product that was JCW, have in turned paved the way to the demise of the WWE. Right now the only hope for pro wrestlings future falls to the final two factions, the WWE and TNA, to right their ships and bring a better product to American television then they have thus far. Same stars across two different companies doing the same story lines has lost the interest of the average fan. Frankly I'm not an average fan so I shall endure, but it's sad to see so many of my comrades falling off. However sad it seems watching the fan base diminish I can honestly say I am not the least surprised.


Long gone are the glory days for the WWE, but there are gins that maybe just maybe a change is going to come. A new storyline involving new people in charge and new changes necessary changes are being alluded to. The return of the tag team, a hopeful reemergence of skilled Female wrestlers, and the opportunity for the old school to finally give way to the next generation wrestlers. Maybe just Maybe Cena will stop being the all or nothing superstar for the company. Maybe just maybe the people running the show can and will recognize there is some serious underused talents cluttering the locker room just dying to put on a great show. Love it or hate it that's what it's all about, all the blood sweat and tears just to put on the best damn show possible. All the haters who care about the fact it's scripted can just drop it, a show is a show is a show and that's all there is to it.
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Hitting the road once again, things are always moving changing morphing for the better. Things go crazy at times, but the crazy is what makes it simply magical. Tomorrow begins the final countdown, all the earning and savings will hit it's final leg. This is the section we call "The FINAL COUNTDOWN" (*play epic music here*) there is no turning back.
So much to do in a limited amount of time. Yes, the time crunch is definitely on my mind, but I know it is all for the best. In order to be at our best we must put ourselves to the ultimate test. We are ready to prove we can be as good or better then the rest for success is our ultimate quest. Never believe life isn't meant to be a fest, live your life full of laughter happiness and jest. ok done with this test the rhyming is more than i can digest so I will give it a rest as I know I'm simply the best in the quest for jest.

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Story Time

We happen upon a jogger. Young fit handsome man headed the right direction in life, UP. The jog, oh a good 5 mile jaunt, part of a well crafted routine that has made him into the man he is today. If not for the 5 miles three times a week sprinkled in with his semi annual one man iron man triathlon (it's only him as most men in his town are far too fearful of the treacherous tide out by the shore for the swimming portion and the women, well they just go for the show). Yes Craig is the ultimate specimen of man, a fine example of what every 27 year old should strive to be; but little does the world know Craig is holding onto a secret. A secret so damning it would tear apart the fabric of everyone in this quaint mountainside town's existence. You see Craig is such an attractive figure to all he encounters for one reason and one reason alone. Craig is and has been since his birth a modern god.
Little is known about the advent of the modern day Deities, but one thing is for certain they are out there and surprisingly their numbers are growing. To truly grasp the concept one must be willing to accept a simple truth....Gods are REAL. That being said it goes even deeper then that, Gods are real each and every god is real. So no matter the mythology, belief or location; the power of faith and true belief gave those older Gods power. This is an unknown fact that has been written and spoken of yet its a fact often taken as fiction. So as a natural born Deity Craig has had a blessed life yet not even he knows the true reason why. As far as he is concerned his only power is the ability to draw people in to eventually do his will. If Craig truly knew how powerful he truly was he'd most likely end up like his father before him. No he is not the son of Zeus or Allah neither Yahweh nor Odin, no his Father was Donald. Yes that Donald, the one from the news who was locked up for embezzling trillions from the major economic centers on the planet. The government never discovered he was a god. Nor did they understand how a man could escape from the strictest most secure prison on the planet or how he got assistance all the way from not only the guards to the warden to the damn first ladies of several of the countries he stole from. The man was so despised the name Donald was banned from the world's name library. To this day no woman man or child can speak the name Donald nor are any young of any species are allowed to have any form of the name Donald outside of pet rats. Of course if Craig had known who his father was he may had figured out he could do more then simple acts of persuasion. Well it seems best for the world he doesn't know the entire truth about himself, yet.

Don't worry Kiddos their is so much more to tell in this post almighty world. Yes all Gods are now real, but only because the one true God allowed it to be so once he left the unchosen to fend for themselves. This is the world YOU live in I'm just the gentle soul here to translate these stories unto you. These are the DAMIEN TALES.....


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Picture if you would an alternate truth. All this talk about the end and Gods ultimate judgment had me thinking. What if it had already come down. Who says the book of revelations is a future tale? Maybe just maybe it's a distant history and we live in a time outside of God. The world could be too much of a waste to destroy, but heaven was filled with true believers long ago and all that were left decided to live lives of denial. Denial that later became blissful ignorance. Generations later there would be no record or any collective memory that hope of eternal light was lost long ago. So we live awaiting a great tomorrow that may never come. Picture that and say you won't have nightmares as I do. I have come up with a truly frightening reality and I call it

DAMIEN TALES

... Enjoy



Off in the distance, far beyond the clouds, lays a land of hope and prosperity. It's a glorious place full of dreams fulfilled and prayers answered. Sounds too good to be true?
Well that's because that's just a dream an illusion if you will. Oh this land exists, it's really quite real. The catch is the smiling happy faces and the glorious happy lives are all lies. Each joyful person is living in a land of denial. Ignorance is bliss and they are so blissful for they know not what they truly desire.
Take Johnny for instance. Johnny is married to Kate. They met in film school and rather then continue on with making the next great American drama he instead moved to this beautiful suburban home had 3 children and currently is the towns personal cinematographer. Oh he's happy, in love, and proud of his 3 sons. Fulfilled to the fullest he believes, but deep inside he is filled with resentment. While he is successful and smiling he knows Kate trapped him and suckered him into this life. Of course this happens when the pride of film school falls for the worse yet most clever pretty girl in class. Though Kate graduated with him(thanks to major contributions from not only her future husband but also a few well placed kisses to unnamed parts of the deans person), she knew her future in this world would be based not on her film skills and more on her ability to bend the wills of men. Kate is a harpy and a damn fine one.
Let's meet Riley. Riley is a very beautiful girl. Church goer who always does right by her fellow man. Riley is easily a ten and yet Riley has decided to tread through this world alone. Alone but never happier. Unlike many others around her, Riley finds comfort in being alone. While alone she feels the most alive and she feels only in her alone time can she truly be the best follower she can be. You see when she's alone that's when Riley gets her truly deep visits from the lord. She says not just in spirit but her lord and savior physically comes to her in solitude and fills her body with his love. She is ravaged by the lords love. He tells her the deepest truths while he fulfills her physical needs. She is truly the lords favorite and he will truly whisk her away to his far away kingdom in the life hereafter. All she needs to do is wait for his divorce to be finalized. Yes after his divorce her lord Johnny will happily lead her to the great light, the sunshine of eternal happiness.
This is a truly unique land full of secrets and mystery. If they only knew the truth then and only then will they be able to recognize their whole reality. Yes life is a sham when truly observed in this post rapture world...
It's been a millennia since Jesus' REAL return yet these great great great grand children of the aftermath are still blind to the truth. If only their forefathers had chosen to leave a trace of the truth. Eternal life was never in their futures so why feel bad for any temptations they gave into they were all damned anyway.
Sad sad fact history is written by the winners, but when the real winners ascend it's on the losers to recognize whether the real story needs to be told. These losers went the denial direction and honestly this is the life you all lead. How I know this you ask? It's simple really, I'm one of the chosen simply here to enjoy the show. My name is Damien and these are my tales from above...


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Make things happen bro

Time has come and refocusing is happening. New spirit, hope renewed. Grabbing life by the horns is the best way to avoid all the bull.



So much work ahead of me, because frankly better work requires greater work ahead. So many plans to start this new year. Come this summer I plan on being away from here and onto a new future. I know it will be harder then the last four years, but as the history makers of today will soon learn absolute freedom comes at high prices. Life is full of give and take, well I'm cashing in my years of give for some big quality takes. There is no more convincing change is necessary, simply put changes shall be made. Done waiting for a new tomorrow instead I simply will forge my tomorrow today. Happy to say my determination is strong and my will shall be done. As they said way back in the day

"So it is written so shall it be done"

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The legend of my travels are well known, and for those who don't know you soon will. I continue to look forward to the next spot. Always looking ahead to my next location in hopes it may finally be the place I can most permanently call home. Now I'm hoping the SoCal cities I've spent years avoiding look like the next place for me to settle.
After all I'm a nomad for real.

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World won't wait

Final countdown has begun. In two weeks time I will cease being a twenty something. So what shall be done to mark this momentous occasion? Let's go bowling then onto my first tattoo!


Everything will change on the thirteenth of February. On that day I will go from being a grown ass man to a full blown adult (and yes there us definitely a difference I swear). So to make it even more memorable than it already is I feel a good night out is in order. Why not stay up here and just have a night out in Stockton? It's quite simple really... STOCKTON SUCKS! Instead I've opted for Lucky Strike night. Bowling booze and whatever friends are readily available and if no one can make it that's all good I'll make new pals on the alley, stranger things have happened.

February 13th
Lucky Strike
Orange, CA
Time to Be Determined

Today or Tomorrow

Face the day as if there is no tomorrow....
So what will today bring? Anything on the agenda of what must be done anywhere near as crucial as equality? What is the measure of success when it comes to human rights? Some have strived farther then others. Watching a news report on what is similar about all 900 MLK jr Boulevards (besides the name of course) shows no matter how much things change often still they remain the same. Think about it, if anyone of your friends tell you they are lost and currently find themselves stranded on Martin Luther King jr BLVD what advice do you give them? That's right you tell them to get the hell off that street. It doesn't matter the city or state it just isn't the place you'd want to be(unless born and raised on the damn street, of course in that case you dream of getting out but often that never happens).
So as a product of the DREAM come true let me say this...
There are more dreams to be had!
Yes, the community the original dream was about has come a long way. Hell, a once thought impossible act came true in the last presidential election. The question I ask is why hasn't the dream been expanded. We have groups of people who get their rights denied on the daily, but we act as if it's not quite to as important.
Mental illness is still looked upon as the plague of the weak minded like it's still 1940. Yes we say we have come so much further, but have we really? No we don't strap them to tables and shock them anymore(so they say), but loading someone up with pills and sending them on their way isn't a treatment it's doping plain and simple.
Day in and day out homosexuality is still treated as a plague a curse or an unspoken unpleasantry. So day by day the more they speak of wanting to marry what do we do? Sweep them away with scripture or "moral" judgements. We are all about love and respect, but since their love is different then we refuse them the right to express their feelings to the world through a publicly recognized marriage.
Today is decent let's make tomorrow GREAT!
We as a country have come a long way in the battle for equal rights equal treatment equal EQUALNESS, but I say we can all do more. Be it today or tomorrow(titular line so pay attention HA!) change is still needed and progress still to come. We are dominating the battles against hate but believe me
the WAR has not yet been WON



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Big Change

This seems insane to me, but maybe now the world will make more sense to me. Guess it's just too true that things change when you are

TURNING THIRTY...

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MONEY RULES THE WORLD.....MO' MONEY MO' PROBLEMS....CASH RULES EVERYTHING AROUND ME (C.R.E.A.M.)......


The time has come for straight cash money... Everyday is about earning and saving from here on out. No needless spending no flashing of the dough. No, building up the bank account until it damn near explodes is the only plan. Some may see it as shallow others may see it as meaningless; yes I know "Material things aren't important" and "Money doesn't bring happiness". Now to those people I say give me your money and let me decide how happy it's made me.


Now how to make the money is the ultimate question. Honestly, there is no shame in honest hard work, I'll do whatever it takes to make an honest buck (honest is the only way to go. No drugs, No hoes, No hits, No counterfeiting, No racketeering, No illegalities of any nature). So it's time to see what 2nd 3rd or 4th gig I can get to max out my earning potential. Ok let's be honest I'm never going to work more then 2 jobs and one would have to be a weekend only situation. Also I refuse to do the food service industry ever again.... Ok a few exceptions will apply what they are I don't know; I guess I know them when I see them. I'm ready to provide for myself and my family. We have expensive tastes and rather then change them I'd rather just fulfill them.

Greatest Xmas ever

Without fail this has been the best holiday I've had in my 29 years of living. The time has come to put childish things behind me this is true, but who says a grown ass man can't enjoy some of the simpler things in this life. I'm far too happy right now having gotten everything I needed and/or wanted. With these new goods I feel I can now enter my 30s with a new kind of focus on my near future then I ever had at anytime in my 20s. So let's all celebrate and enjoy our friends family and loved ones. I'm going to play with this new toy in order to master all it's possible applications for my life.


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Future never foretold

As this year melts into the next only one thing is for certain, time has no tells. The future is unknown just as how we will look on our recent past is uncertain. Things that may seem rosey may not be as the now turns to the past. To move forward cleanly they say don't look back, but I ask if you never look back how can you appreciate how far you've come. Possibilities are endless as future options remain wide open.  Things don't close until you get right at the threshold of tomorrow. Once tomorrow turns into today then our future will be now & the present will fade into the realm of distant memories.

a look inside the mind of D