Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Time for another installment of....



Things I did way back when aka what the fuck was I thinking....

Yes it's time for me to tell you a tale of you so demented it will make you appreciate the hum drum that is your existence. We all have a past some of us just had some more intriguing times then others. Here are just some of the dumb things I did in my 20s that age & wisdom will never allow me to repeat as I head into my 30s.

Befriended a girl in upstate new york via AIM. Now she had proven to be a lifelong friend, but I find it random we will most likely never be in each others presence physically.

Full bottle of tequila all to my self every party I attended.

Going to jail for not paying "the MAN" his money. Next time LasVegas PD will get their money in a timely fashion.

A chick named Wen- 3 years of my life I'll never get back. She was the down point of my 20s, but her sister is a good friend & soon to be awesome doctor oh and their mom was an awesome cook. I definitely got some good meals out of that relationship.

It may sound negative, but I will never blindly trust in people like I did for a majority of my 20s.

Work relationships...if my life has taught me 1 thing it's this "don't PLAY where you WORK!" Nothing but bad comes out of it.

These are just some of my life pre 30 hope to squeeze in some other memorable moments in the next 6 months

a look inside the mind of D

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Awaken the mind Quiet the spirit



Yes, I'm certain most people would say it the other way. Can't you tell from the photo I'm not most people.

I'm a free spirit who chooses to live life in a cage. Furiously I bat my wings but I gain no altitude. I'm stuck in a holding pattern sure the cage won't let me be free.

I'm an outlaw on the run, but my pursuers don't give chase. I'm free everywhere outside of my mind that is. If life is what you make it, then I've chosen the odd path in this book. Let me turn back the pages so I can give a different path a fresh new look.



a look inside the mind of D

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Get busy living or Get busy dying



Frankly I don't see the need to stay busy at all. Can't I go through this life at a slow & steady pace? Why are we in such a rush? Honestly, I'm not ready for this to come to an end anytime soon.

Big plans in the works for the next few weeks. Once I get my beloved truck up and running in peak condition I feel it'll be better suited for some road trips. Will start off small off course a couple hours out at most; but sooner then later we will push our limits to see what she can do.

Tomorrow will be a big part of the future plans. If my old truck can be made to feel like new again; then a new vehicle won't be a big a burden. Rather have the one car note  then to push the limits with two. So fingers crossed people; your boy D could use a wish a prayer and an overall sense of good things to come. Yes I'm begging for some Good karma, what of it?

a look inside the mind of D

Saturday, July 17, 2010

I'm a Nomad



Just thinking of the places I've called home or frequented due to schooling and/or work; and I've come to realize the random things I've seen & experienced at these funky locations.

Hayward: This is my home between my mom, dad & grandma someone has always lived in 1 of the 2 houses I was raised. So Hayward will always be home fun fact all the years there I never made a friend in the town & of my years of schooling only the first grade was experienced in that town.

Oakland: Born here...I think can't be certain one of the perils of being adopted...often say it is my hometown as most people meet you with a blank stair when you say your hometown is Hayward. Graduated from high school in this city. 4 total years of schooling in the town, kindergarten & sophomore through senior years.

Concord: City I've spent the most time in due to all the years of school; Thanks to my parents need to send me to "top notch" yet affordable private schools. Yes in my heart I'm definitely a Concord kid a Concordian-youth if you will. Funny thing about that though is the fact I never actually lived in the city of concord. In all honesty I barely spent any time as a Contra Costa county resident. Yes my concord days are due to my years at Kings Valley christan school (2nd-5th grade), Tabernacle baptist school (6th-8th grade), De La Salle high school (9th grade) & my first job ever Waterworld USA. Lots of good times & great memories were had & made in this city.

Antioch: The sight of the end of my parents marriage and the couple of years that followed where it felt like it was just me & my mom.

San Francisco: Simply put the best city in my little world. Place where true friendships were formed. Place where I came to know who I truly am. Place where I found out the most about myself & most notably the place I have been forever struggling to get back to. Yes I truly love the city that defines my beloved Bay Area to bad I had to leave it to truly appreciate what it had given me.

San Mateo: Not much to say home to my favorite job that supplied me with the best material for my comedic stories. Everyday at Safeway brought another chance to laugh at life be it old people and their narrow world views, insane co-workers and the maddening tests they put you through or the doomed relationships that never had a chance for survival from the beginning.

Las Vegas: Sin city is the ultimate understatement for this city. I moved here to find myself after SF started feeling stale. Biggest mistake of my life, but strangely in the end it proved to be my best move. After a year of slutting around I found the person who completes me on this city so it wasn't all bad and in fact was a beneficial move in the grand scheme of things. Fun fact... After years of being a borderline alcoholic in SF I never had a drop of alcohol after my first week in Vegas & remain sober to this day.

Stockton: oh yes my current stomping ground better known as SUCKtown. I hate just about everything you can hate about a city, though I know it's nothing personal. My biggest problem with this city is the fact it isn't some place else. It's to far from SF to be easily accessible & its dinky airport only fly to vegas reminding me of what could have been if I had known the life lessons I've learned here while I was there.

Yes all the cities that have defined my life may not amount to much to you world travelers or to any non bay area people for the most part, but these are the places I hold in my heart because they are what had shaped my life to this point for better or worse. No idea how many more shall be added to the list before I depart this earth, but as for now I'm happy with what I've got.

a look inside the mind of D

Friday, July 16, 2010

Brain Drain


Time to clear my head of the few thoughts currently rattling around in there.

So happy summer is here. Though I'm not a huge fan of heat I'll take this weather over the cold of the harsh winter. That being said I say bring on the sun.

Work has been crazy, but that has been the case for awhile now. I guess the craziness keeps the place interesting. Kinda depends on what you handle better; being bored or being annoyed. Honestly I am not a fan of either one, but I've adapted to deal with both.

Happy my weekends (Tuesdays & Wednesdays) have included me and the wifey getting out and doing stuff together. It feels good actually doing stuff. Whether it is as small as a shopping trip or a full blown weekend get away so happy we finally get to do these things together.

So that's all I have floating around my brain this morning; just the usual vacant thoughts as I wait for my workday to begin.



a look inside the mind of D

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Time for another installment of....



What I will miss about my twenties. Don't get me wrong, I am so looking forward to my thirties, but there are definitely things I will miss about the years beginning with the 2 haha. 20 you feel adult, 21 you feel drunk, 25 you feel official, 29 you feel it all coming to a close.

I've past all my milestones so I'm more then ready for my big 30 I shall transition with class & dignity & hopefully a big blowout that I can get chocolate wasted at haha. Yes thirty should be great especially as I still have all my awesome twenty memories to get me through.

a look inside the mind of D

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Just a thought


Why is it easy like sunday morning? Whoever said Sunday is easy? I mean for me Sunday symbolizes the end of the weekend and the start of a brand new week. Technically Sunday is the labor pains giving way to bringing a new week to life. Doesn't sound all that fabulous does it,& you damn well know it ain't necessarily "Easy". Oh well, call me crazy if you must but it's just a thought no one said I have to be right

a look inside the mind of D

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Never truly knowing


Still partly undecided of what is to be done with the whole living situation. SF would be fun and frankly it'd be like returning home for me, but where is the growth in that. Life is suppose to be about moving forward and the last three years have been a big enough step backwards why should I repeat the same steps that got me here; also SF would be yet another temporary choice as the wifey doesn't want to raise a family there. So as I am T minus 6 1/2 months away from 30 why do another temporary move as if I were not ready to settle down and start a REAL LIFE. you know wife, family, career only 1 of the 3 would be available to me in SF as SoCal has been determined to be the place the family life shall begin. So that being said, the job hunt is on for real. Now as far as my current gig goes I have the know how and access to transfer down south, but I'd be going from an OFFICE ADMINISTRATOR (sounds so much cooler and involved then it really is) to being at best ASSISTANT STORE MANAGER to nothing more then just another Sales Associate (which would be like going back to a high school summer gig ya know). Now this may just suck, but at least its a back up which is good to have in these trying trying MADDENING time. So at least I can search with this in mind there is something already possibly out there for me. Now the other interesting thing the front runner for one of our SoCal locale choices would be the brand new apartments/condos in Anaheim near Angel stadium. The places are gorgeous and surprisingly affordable. Now I'm no fan of the Angels being an Oakland boy, but I do dig being near a stadium though Traffic will suck on game days. Actually traffic will probably suck EVERYDAY as Disneyland is just around the corner. These maybe minus points, but the place is too cool to ex out as a living possibility and hey if I want to have a family someday being near Disney ain't that bad.....unless you are mouse. STOP THE MOUSE EXPLOITATION!!!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

City thoughts



After a fun day trip to the city I know what must be done...... Money must be earned for a quick much needed move.

The sights the sounds the smells, ok not the smells, but yes this needs to happen and it must happen soon

a look inside the mind of D

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Not Ready to Rest


Life is good, yet I ache for more. Things are basically good no real negativity to report.  Things just feel lacking right now, and there is only one way to improve all these lacking feelings; take a trip to a place I love.

That being said tomorrow me and my lovely wife will be making San Francisco our bitch. Yes yes my friends, I shall be returning to a city I truly love even if it is only for a few hours. Who knows maybe a stop in the East Bay will be in the cards. All I know is I could use a change of scene and some good fun tomorrow, and I definitely plan to get it.

a look inside the mind of D

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Just one of those days...


You don't wanna wake up everything is fucked everybody sucks you don't really know why but you wanna justify ripping someones head off.

Happy 4th everybody don't let anything blow your buzz no matter how hard they try. Today is about good times with friends and family maybe a bit of BBQ and blowing up some shit to cap off the day!



a look inside the mind of D

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Ode to my phone



It gets me through my morning

It guides me through my day

It never leaves my side

It is with me always

As sad as it is to say it is what keeps me connected to my reality, when my whole world goes to crap.

It is the place that Drake writes all his rhymes & probably where he got the idea that he could act.

These phones mark the rise & fall of our society

They will soon take over our world with their apps because of our dependence of them, yes controlling all of us that goes for both you & me

Yes I see this future coming and trust me it's grimm

But you can't possible expect me to set this phone down, hell I just purchased the latest version of the Sims!

a look inside the mind of D